3rd or more time lucky - IVF cycle buddies October

[Hobbes39]

Hi Just wondering of there are folks on here who are about to go through their 3rd + time of IVF who want a cycle buddy? I dont mean it badly towards anyone who is starting their IVF journey for the first time, (i was there just this time last year after all) but I feel a bit like I cant be as optomistic about it as I was, so dont want to drag any first timers down? Hope that makes sense!
Anyway, just to explain about me:
TTC #2 for over 2.5 years now
Unexplained Secondary Infertility (have 4 year old DS)
Age 40.5
AMH: 15.4
2 failed fresh and 1 falied FET (with single frozen 3BB embryo we got from 2nd fresh round)
about to start 3rd fresh round when my period starts in approx 7-10 days, so will probably be late october EC.
anyone else a bit jaded, but still vaguely hopeful want to join me?
xx

Feel your pain fab! You have done so well to wait till OTD. Stay strong!
Am feeling rather down today myself, have a migraine developing. Didnt have one in my only BFP cycle, but did on the BFN one, so panicked it means something has gone wrong. Also wont/cant take any of my usual meds but have to suffer through unmedicated.

Good luck fab for tomorrow and decaf hang on in there, when is your OTD?

23rd! Still ages away.
fab good luck for tomorrow!

I'm utterly convinced it hasn't worked now. Don't know why, I just am. Feeling entirely miserable about it and don't know where to go next or even if I'm up to doing it all again. This whole process is so soul destroying isn't it. 😥

fab it is the worst. But you dont know till you test. Sending you a big hug 🤗

Good luck for tomorrow @Fabuluce - I think you have been amazing not to have cracked already - will keep everything crossed for you 🤞🤞.
Hang in there @Decafplease - it just feels an age doesn't it?
Thankfully I've been able to keep some more food down, so on the mend now at last! To be honest, the month delay is prob for the best, I think I need the headspace... feeling a bit jaded about things as it's my birthday on the 24th and I HATE getting older . I'll be 41. I started trying for this baby when I was 37 (albeit not straight away!) Fuck. Just feels insane.

Good luck this morning fabuluce.

BFFN. Still have to have a blood test for my clinic in Prague so am off to London shortly. I hate this.

Oh @Fabuluce - I'm so so sorry . Fuck. It's just all so unfair and shit. X
Sending you hugs. There's nothing I can say that will make it better, I know, but am thinking of you xx

Oh fab! I am so sorry! Its absolutely shit.

Oh fab I am so so sorry. It’s so fucking unfair. Look after yourself. X

Very sorry fabuluce. This is just such a depressing process to go through.

So i cracked and tested early, 11d post 6d transfer and its a BFP!
Obviously after last times mmc, trying to take it a day at a time & stay grounded. Am both elated & terrified! The clinic will do blood test on my OTD, this Friday to confirm. Meanwhile i will probably spend a fortune in pee sticks! X

oooh decaf thats very exciting for you. Everything crossed that it stays positive for you

Wow decafplease what fantastic news! Congratulations.

Oh @Decafplease - that's brilliant news... fingers crossed for the next few weeks! Xx

Thanks bjones, wanda and hobbes! I just hope this one sticks. X

Wow congratulations Decaf, that's excellent news, keeping everything tightly crossed for you!

Thanks very much fab. I really appreciate all your good wishes. My anxiety about suffering another mmc means been unable to actually enjoy the BFP much. Think i am going to feel like this untill I actually see a heartbeat. Was so happy at this point last time before it went wrong. DH feels i am being unreasonably pessimistic so am trying my best to snap out of it.
How are you all doing?
bjones have you started stims yet?
💕

I sympathise with you decafplease, as it must be so hard to take the wonderful BFP at face value after what you've gone through. A close friend of mine felt similar during her pregnancy after having had to terminate a pregnancy for medical reasons at 16 weeks: she couldn't relax until she got past that point.

How long till your first scan? Hopefully once you see/hear the heartbeat, that will give some reassurance.

We have a follow up call with doctor tomorrow, on which we will find out more about doing either a natural or medicated FET next cycle. I keep dreaming about pregnancy and just want it to work so much next time. In the meantime I am really keen to change jobs but don't want to find another one when I might get pregnant, but equally don't want to be stuck in this one and still not pregnant a year from now! It's so frustrating how this process takes over your decision-making.

Hi decaf yes first stimming injection was tonight, it was ok. All different as this time entails mixing powder and water but luckily oh does all that. Just not liking the 2 injections a night but will all hopefully be worth it. When is your scan?
wanda hope your follow up call goes ok tomorrow.
Hope everyone else is ok

wanda hope your follow up goes ok. What you say is so right, i feel like i have put everything off the last 3 years of ttc!
bjones i did the powder mixing, but dh has to do the injections- cant stab myself. Hope some nice fat follies start growing for you!
My scan should be mid -april, but they will only schedule if my blood tests results are positive. Have tests scheduled for Friday. The days could not pass more slowly.

Hi everyone - how are you all?
@Decafplease - good luck for tomorrow - I know it's nerve wracking xx
I'm feeling a bit pissed off about everything today as I'm on day 12 of my period - I had hoped doing a more 'natural' cycle rather than fully medicated would allow my body to get back to normal quicker, but something is clearly out of whack again as while my period proper only lasted about 5 days, I've been spotting heavily (or bleeding lightly) for the last week . So frustrating. I have a fibroid and was told it wasn't in a place it would effect anything, but suspect that might be causing the prolonged bleeding, just hope it doesn't stop us going ahead with our next transfer. If it's not the fibroid, who knows what's causing this, but it's a right pain.
Hope everyone else is feeling more positive... you must be glad to have started @bjonesreborn? The waiting to get going bit really drags....
X

Thanks hobbes! Bloods came back good! Scan booked in for 2w from today. But they added more progesterone injections to my routine - so now i have 3 injections, 2 suppositories, 2 pessaries & tablets to take everyday! Its all worth it though if if keeps the bean growing.
How frustrating that your cycle is not back to normal yet! But even with lower medications your body has gone through a lot over the last few months, hope its just taking some time to settle down.
wanda did you get a plan from your clinic?
bjones hope you have some nice juicy follicles growing
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