Banyan that’s great to hear, I’m lucky that our hospital will let us have 6 attempts before IVF.
Toomany, I thought I was ok (well prepared), I took the call at work and remained positive. In fact it was other people’s kindness (my boss) that triggered watery eyes. He said ‘and....’, I just shook my head. He gave me a speech on how the world is wrong. I said it is what it is and we move into the next cycle. He said how can you be so positive, my response was if I don’t it will break me, tears are not going to change anything.
He kept talking, my eyes were getting watery and he told me to get myself home.
Then as I try to leave work I see my husband, I wanted him to get through the rest of the day, I wanted for us to have a sob later at home together rather than him being upset and distracted at work, but he saw me sneaking off so then we had to pop into a room so I could tell him.... then because I’m actually saying he words ‘I’m not pregnant, it didn’t work’ ... I break and the tears get the better of me.
I know I just need to cry and let it out, and I plan to properly later with hubby and cuddle with pooch.
We get to try straight away, (I think) I was told to call the hospital on CD1 which should be tomorrow or Saturday then we go from there.
Such an emotional rollercoaster, feeling deflated but still telling myself to stay positive xx