IVF Cycle Buddies August/September?

[meadowlark3]

Anyone starting a cycle this month? I know there's a July/August thread, but seems that they've mostly all started on their cycles. I'm due to start DR tomorrow and if all goes well will have EC at the beginning of September.

Have not shared our IVF journey with too many people in IRL so would love to have a bit of company here. This will be our first go at IVF, so quite nervous at the mo!

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How are you feeling @BeHereNow31 x

I still feel really sad, but suddenly really determined to do ivf again... asap. 🤦‍♀️ And just trying really hard not to think about how much money goes towards it. I’m keen to get our follow up appointment with the doctor, but I know that will still be a while away.

I’ve just been at home, doing nothing. At least the snow means I can avoid the real world for a while!

How are you feeling about trying again? Xx

Sorry you feel sad but it's not surprising. I'm feeling quite sad too about everything. Your 2WW brought it home to me again how hard this is and how much harder I might find it next time having experienced this failure once.

I wish I could take a break but I'm nearly 41 so time is not on our side. It's not just the baby and pregnancy I'm feeling sad about - I feel like we don't have a proper life - people of our age on FB have proper houses and older kids and are always celebrating their activities or book day. I feel like we are still living the lives of people much younger (but not in a good way). I want a proper home and to build a proper family and that all feels out of my reach at the moment.

I'm finding it hard to believe this is going to happen for us. Sorry to be a downer :(

@Janefx40 I completely understand what you mean. I feel like I’m jealous of everyone just now 😣🙊 like everyone has a proper life, and I’m just plodding along, always obsessing about ivf.

Hopefully we make it to the other side. I do know people who have fallen pregnant with ivf, and have also heard stories of people that they know. It took 3 or 4 tries for all of them, but it did happen 🤞

Sending you lots of love. Don’t have much advice, because I’m in the same situation. Going to hide at home in my jammies, and then hopefully I can drag myself into work on Monday xx

Watching programme about homeless people being out in his weather, and now I feel rotten! I have my nice cosy house and food. I know I’m lucky really.. xx

Yes we are lucky in many ways - it's good to remember that.

Thank you for what you said - yes hopefully we will make it through and out the other side and start living properly again. We just have to keep battling on.

People getting positive tests gives me hope like our lovely @Fox23 and a friend of mine who is pregnant with twins after 6 cycles. It can happen.

Be nice to yourself. I was really low after our cycle failed but, although I'm still sad (as you can tell), I'm not depressed in quite the same way. And hopefully in a couple of weeks, I'll be even better. I'm sure you will too

Lots of love back

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Good morning my lovely ladies,
I’ve been super busy at work and then I was in Norfolk for colleagues funeral and took almost 6h to get back after sitting in snow/ice caused chaos..... I’m finally sitting in my cosy living room under warm throw.
@BeHereNow31 I’m glad you are determined to get back on track 🤞🤞🤞 it’s all numbers game, and you will succeeded. Just don’t lose your hope 💕
@Janefx40 so, private or NHS? You mentioned that you will be able to start in April, that’s only 4-ish weeks away! Nearly there! 😊

I have my scan on Friday and although it’s only week 5, they need to make sure it’s all ok, as if you’ve had ectopic apparently risk increases to have it again... so scared.
@Janefx40 I did clear blue digital and it’s now at 2-3weeks. I’m not going to lie, I’m so scared. It feels like im holding this gift in the thinnest thread, Just threatening to break... I’m so not out of the woods yet, as last time confirmed .
Good luck to us all, love you girls! 😘

Morning @Fox23 Have you been travelling all night? You poor thing. And sorry about the funeral.

Looks like the snow is over now. Rain is coming and I can't say I'm sorry. It's quite nice in a way but causes too much hassle.

In true me style, I haven't decided which means I am just letting things happen as they willl. So we are just going ahead with NHS and will probably end up there. I've also started reading "it starts with an egg" and she says is takes 3-4 months to improve your egg quality so I'm thinking that if this is the problem, this round may not work anyway so I should do the free one.

I don't think it will be April tho as I rang yesterday and the gynaecology clinic hasn't even sent the IVF clinic my paperwork yet which means they can't apply for funding yet. And that takes 4-6 weeks.

My cycles are really short at the moment too so the relevant cycle will start on 4th April.

Yes it must be a very nervy time. They won't be able to see anything embryo related at 5 weeks but it's good they can check for signs of ectopic. Just have to hope it isn't that. Will they blood test you at the same time to check hcg levels?

How are you @BeHereNow31 it's a very weird time isn't it? Hope you have a relaxing weekend. Have you been able to confide in any friends about it?

@Fox23 I am glad that they’re doing an early scan for you. Even just for your peace of mind. How are you feeling in yourself?? Do you have symptoms? Hoping all the best for you.

@Janefx40 I read that book too... but wasn’t keen on it, because I felt like I had read everything on google 🤦‍♀️ I downloaded a brilliant free book called How to Cope With IVF. I can find the author if you like.
Are you going to make any changes? I’ve always done the basics, but might try even harder (and be crazier lol).
I’m feeling so low. I’m so sad. I’ve managed to take a couple more days off work, but I know I need to get back to normal.
I do know someone who went through ivf (fell pregnant), and they have been amazing at talking me through everything.

Good news that you’re going ahead with your nhs round. Hopefully it’s soon, but gives time to take the vitamins etc. I have no idea when/ how I go about starting again!?

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@Janefx40 I’m glad you going with NHS, and I totally agree with your reasoning. When you mentioned the empty nest feeling, it so resonated with me! It really feels like I can’t grow up until we have family. I feel like I’m constantly stuck in pre-adulthood stage, and I’m 37...
@BeHereNow31 if you feel down, be down. Really, last time I cried every day for about a month, then I cried every other day for about another month... then I didn’t. You can’t speed up healing and you will be all happy very soon. It’s so good you got some time off! ☺️

I came back from Norfolk yesterday night, so did get a good sleep. It’s the constant need of pee that wake me up every morning at 4... that and tiredness. I’m asleep by 7! That started literally the next day after the transfer. If I last till 9 then I feel like a rebel. So these are my only two symptoms that I also had last time. No morning sickness, aces or pains, cravings or ... nothing. Oh, that’s unless you include sudden unreasonable spark of total mood swings- god, I can be awful! Not only to my DH, but even my best friend who , bless him, doesn’t take it laying down. Makes me laugh when he tries to fight back. Maybe it helps that he is a dad of two young kids himself, so has seen his wife through this process. 😆

@Fox23 if total mood swings are a sign then I must be pregnant too. Had a massive go at DP today for no clear reason. I'm just sad and a bit angry - not sure why I'm angry - yes I am sure actually - it's as you said, I'm 41 and still waiting for my life to start. But that's not his fault.

@BeHereNow31 I think that is good advice from fox. Maybe I should take it too. We just have to be sad for as long as we are. I think going back to work may be good - you'll be forced to think about other things. What do you do?

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@janefx40 I look after babies!!! Maybe the worst job right now 😂😂😂

@BeHereNow31 oh no!!!! Last thing you want to do right now....you poor thing. Xxx

@BeHereNow31 that’s almost hilarious at how ironic life can be! 😂 I’m not surprised you needed time off ! That’s just cruel! Really really cruel! Well, it’s still better than trying to manage bunch of builders and lorry drivers lol Trust me, any morsel of femininity and they get totally confused 😐

😂😂 suppose I’m used to it now. When I started trying for a baby, 7 women in my work fell pregnant. The place is there to test me!!!

I’m feeling so rough just now. Cramps, back pain, sore head. Think it’s the hormones still in my system, and I’m eating so much rubbish.

Hope you’re both doing f something nice with your weekend ☺️ Xx

@BeHereNow31 nightmare!

Have you had your period yet? Mine was delayed a week due to all the progesterone (plus I had a week of semi pregnancy).

This cycle has been weirdly short. I think I ovulated early but am now having period cramps on day 20 which is even earlier. I do sometimes get them a few days in advance but still.

Then I start worrying about menopause etc esp as I am nearly 41 and my 2 cycles pre IVF were also weirdly short (25/26 days). But I have to remind myself that my hormone levels are good, I stimulated easily and produced 14 eggs. So probably I don't have diminished reserves. But it is hard not to panic!

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I mean diminished reserves for my age! Obviously I have diminished reserves overall at 41 x

@Janefx40 yes, I came before I even heard that I had a negative blood results. It was a bad period. Mine’s have always came straight away.

Not sure what any of it means. I’m hoping that I can get more eggs next time... I feel like mine’s are just so weak, and I don’t know why?!
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It came, not I *

I'm going to try the diet in this book. I know you said you weren't keen but I need to improve my egg quality. So I'm massively cutting down sugar (I am a bit of an addict), unrefined carbs etc and going to get some of this Co enzyme stuff or whatever it is called

It’s not that i didn’t agree with the book. I just feel like it didn’t tell me much. I’m going to find the author of the book I was talking about earlier. It gives you different foods for egg quality, and recipes etc. It’s really good!
I’m goibg to eat rubbish this week. Then next week onto the proper healthy eating etc.
I bought the coq10. But I don’t think I took it for long enough, or in a high enough dose. Xx

How to cope with ivf by Silvia Dunn.

Great - thanks! I will check it out. Definitely give yourself to eat nice things - or as long as you need. Then you can join me in my healthy new diet (hmmm how long will this last? I'm not good at sticking to diets)

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Ok, off to bed! Good luck with healthy eating. That had been my nemesis for most of my life. Last 5years I’ve maintained my weight with Dukan diet- protein galore and more eggs than you can imagine/ I LOVE eggs, so it suited me. I would eat normally for most part and every few months of so I would do Dukan for little while. Then I started my Ivf and with all the hormones I gained weight... weight watchers was the healthiest option during this time. I’m still on it just modified to suit my current situation. Don’t know if eggs, eggs and eggs every day for 5years made any difference but it hasn’t hurt.

Eating eggs to produce healthy eggs! Sounds sensible! Sleep tight both of you

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