My feed
Premium

Please
or
to access all these features

Our Infertility Support forum is a space to connect with others in the same position, discuss causes, treatment and IVF, and share infertility stories of hope and success.

Infertility

IVF cycle buddies June/July

441 replies

Hobbes39 · 30/05/2017 12:09

Hi! I'm hoping that this is 3rd time lucky for us... due to start process for my first Frozen transfer in June, with the actual transfer being in July... anyone want to join me on the journey? We have 2 unsuccessful fresh cycles behind us, and I have this one single little embryo from the last cycle sitting in the freezer waiting for me. It's a 3BB and all my hopes are pinned on it being the one!
We have unexplained secondary infertility, have a DS who will be 4 in August, and I've just turned 40, so time isn't on our side... so I'm now waiting for my period to start (due in about 10-14 days, although my cycles are mucked up since our ivf failed in April)... but once it comes i will be down regged to them do transfer early July I think! Fingers crossed we get lucky this time...!

OP posts:
Glamm · 12/07/2017 14:47

Thanks for ur input ladies... great news @gee hope all goes well for you x

@pyjamas sorry you are going through a rough time and i really hope things get better for you.. i would advise you exactly what you just advised me.. somethings take a little longer for some of us tough cookies but its all worth it at the end..

AFM, todays scan showed a lot more follicles than it did two days ago so I guess increasing my dose of Gonal f and adding merional has helped with the amount of follicles but not the size as I only have one the size of 16mm and the rest are still less than 10mm. They need atleast 3. AMH levels at 32 and should be below 30 which is another concern as I am hyper-stimulating.. another scan on Monday and hopefully I could be due for egg collection on Wednesday.. still hoping they would allow a fresh embryo transfer in this cycle and not make me wait till October Sad.. keeping my fingers crossed ๐Ÿคž๐Ÿผ

Pyjamas81 · 12/07/2017 14:52

You're both absolutely right. And that has really helped gee - it could be anything.

Got my finger crossed for you both!

Hobbes39 · 12/07/2017 16:35

Hi pyjamas - I know that feeling all too well, it's awful, but I'm still keeping hope for you as if it's gone away it's still all to play for... will keep everything crossed for you, the last few days before test date are the hardest and I feel for you... x
Congratulations Geeup - good luck for the next week and a bit! X
And hi glam & good luck! X

OP posts:
Pyjamas81 · 14/07/2017 05:26

BFN. And looks like AF properly on her way. Devastated.

Goodluckjonathan76 · 14/07/2017 10:21

So sorry Pyjamas. I know you must be completely gutted. Look after yourself, big glass of wine, long cry then take stock ready for the next cycle. Two good friends of mine did IVF and both their first cycles were unsuccessful then they both got BFP on their second try. It can happen! Stay strong. Sending big hugs. xxxx

79Karen · 14/07/2017 10:43

Sorry to hear that pyjamas, give yourself time to take it all in. This whole process is suck a head f**k but don't lose hope

79Karen · 14/07/2017 10:49

So had my EC yesterday, wasn't expecting a lot as did have the greatest response to drugs. We got 3 eggs and been told today that 1 has fertilised normally so it's going back tomorrow on a day 2 transfer. I'm actually quite relieved we got something and it fertilised.

geeup · 14/07/2017 10:59

Congrats Karen. Great you have something to put in.
Pyjamas - so sorry for the bfn - it's incredibly hard but all I can say is what the doctors say which is they'll have learnt a lot from your first cycle and there's every reason to believe you will be successful with a subsequent cycle. Hunker down, eat some pate and soft cheese and look after yourself.

Pyjamas81 · 14/07/2017 11:02

Thanks everyone for your support, I've finally stopped crying, for now at least.

It's hit me really hard and hurts a lot. The actual IVF process is easy compared to this. I could do all the injections, scans, tests, egg collections, transfers etc a million times over. But this, this, is what everyone talks about when they say how hard it is.

I had to call the clinic to tell them my result and they called me back saying that they usually advise people with a negative to carry on with the pessaries (progesterone) and re-test in 48hrs. When I said that I started spotting on Weds and it felt like period is trying to start (has stopped again) she said it may just be prolonging the agony and I can stop the progesterone today. Wtf? I've decided to carry on the progesterone just in case (or I'll always wonder) but accept it's all over, have my glass of wine, and just see Sunday's test as absolute confirmation of what I already know. I can't have this hanging over me until Sunday.

This is cruel.

Really glad you got one Karen - I've really got my fingers crossed for you xx

Hopes2bmom · 14/07/2017 11:08

Hello everyone, long time haven't checked here, hope all are doing good, Pyjamas so sorry for you, I have been there and I know how it hurts and it takes a while to get over it, but still you can kee going with the pessaries just to be on safer side, if af still does not arrive you can have a test again, when are you scheduled for a blood test?
Karen fingers crossed for you.

Glamm · 14/07/2017 11:16

So sorry to pyjamas.. the feeling must be horrible.. totally agree with having a big glass of wine and having a good loud cry out.. only way you can gear up for the next cycle and really keeping positive... stay strong my lovely.. somethings may take longer for some of us, but you will definitely get beautiful results for all your patience ๐Ÿ˜˜

Congrats karen.. all the best.. keeping my fingers crossed for you x

Pyjamas81 · 14/07/2017 11:18

Thanks hopes - it really helps to be 'talking' to people who really understand.

No blood test - just have to pee on a stick in 48hrs to confirm what I already know ๐Ÿ˜ž I'm trying to let go of any scrap of hope, I know deep down that it's all over for this cycle.

Fox23 · 14/07/2017 13:14

Oh Pyjamas! Im so so sorry! It must be so heat wrecking to go through that Sad. Unfortunately I can't say I know how it feels but dreading it as im scheduled in early August.
As all other girls are saying- have a glass of wine, draw a line and don't lose hope for the next time. As someone said at the beginning of this thread- it's numbers game. Be strong Flowers

GirlcalledJames · 14/07/2017 16:26

Sorry to hear it, Pyjamas.

Hobbes39 · 14/07/2017 18:03

Pyjamas - I'm so sorry, I know how it feels and it's so f@&king unfair. Let yourself be as tearful and angry as you need to be, and yes - have wine, eat crap, do something nice just for you. It does get better, I promise , as you begin to think less about this time and more about the next time. If I were you I'd keep going with the pessaries as grim as they are unless you get really heavy period - I didn't keep going last time as I had serious flooding so knew it was def all over, but with your bleeding having stopped, it's worth it for your peace of mind and not having to think 'what if'. Thinking of you WineFlowers

OP posts:
Pyjamas81 · 14/07/2017 21:40

Thanks everyone - I really appreciate it. I do feel a bit better ( nothing at all to do with the wine, I'm sure).

AF has properly started (and it's a bitch this time) so it's definitely over - but it's almost a relief so I can start moving on. I know I'll be fine, it hurts a lot, but hopefully it's made me stronger for next time.

I've got my fingers crossed for all of you!

Nigeltufnellover · 16/07/2017 13:21

Just catching up with everything, pyjamas I'm so sorry to hear that, it really is cruel. Look after yourself xx
Hope everyone is ok, I just got out hospital with mild/moderate ohss. It's pretty uncomfortable and unpleasant, but so glad to be home. Was always told I was at risk of it, and looking back I was very swollen and uncomfortable after egg collection, but I figured everything was just a bit sore and swollen because of what had just been done to my ovaries. Anyway, had thought I was out of ohss woods, but turns out very much wasn't. Agh.
How is everyone getting on?

geeup · 17/07/2017 11:45

Sorry to hear that Nigel. Hope you're feeling much better today.
Bad news from me. I've started having brown tinged CM - exactly what happened last time - so expect I'll start bleeding tomorrow at 6dp5dt. Gutted it hasn't worked again. Feeling utterly hopeless as I face whatever comes next. ๏ฟผ

Pyjamas81 · 17/07/2017 11:59

Thanks Nigel - sorry to hear about the ohss, really hope you feel better soon xx

And so sorry to hear about the CM gee - as everyone says, it really could be anything, but I know exactly how you feel as I got brown spotting 7dp5dt :( Really hope it doesn't mean the same thing for you and I've still got my fingers very tightly crossed for you. There's nothing anyone can say to take away the anxiety, but do whatever you need to do to make things easier for you. For me - it was working from home.

I'm back at work today and finding it really tough - I just feel flat and empty. I've made an appointment with the counsellors at my clinic - it's free so thought in may as well try it to see if it helps. I need to get my head straight.

geeup · 17/07/2017 12:52

Counselling is defo a good idea pyjamas. I'm going to book too.
So on another thread for my clinic, another lady who's now pregnant said that she also got brown spotting but on 7dp5dt and had I done a test so I've just gone and bought a FRER and I can't believe I'm saying this but I think there is my first ever bloody second line!!! I'm not thinking it'll be a pregnancy at all as I'm definitely having brown CM but even if it's just my first chemical I think this is the first ever time I have produced HcG! Fuck me I cannot believe it. Am crying in my work loo.

geeup · 17/07/2017 12:53

Sorry with picture to show I'm not insane when this predictably ends in my period tomorrow.

IVF cycle buddies June/July
Pyjamas81 · 17/07/2017 13:12

Oh my GOD gee! That's amazing! I can't even imagine what you must be feeling like finally seeing that second line- no wonder you're crying in the loos. Is there any way you can work from home! I'm so hoping the CM means nothing!

Nigeltufnellover · 17/07/2017 13:25

Erm gee I'd say that's a pretty clear bfp?!

Hobbes39 · 17/07/2017 13:31

Hi all

Geeup! That's def a line, congratulations! I know that you aren't feeling v positive, but some brown spotting doesn't always mean doom, but I know how it feels when it does, so I understand you not wanting to get hopes up. Hang in there, I have everything i can cross, crossed!

Nigel - so sorry you've had the OHSS, hope you are on the mend now?
Pyjamas - yes, that's a good idea using the counselling service, as you say, it's free, and I'm actually waiting outside for my next counselling appointment now as I've had a couple and I find it useful, she's really nice and I find it helps to talk to someone, a bit like on here, who doesn't feel the need to offer some useless piece of advice ('just relax and I'm sure it will happen' being my 'favourite' Angry) . It's a whole hour and we've talked about lots so far - including stuff that isn't really relevant to this situation, so it's great!
Anyway, the reason I'm sat waiting is that I've not long left the hospital having had my transfer, so figured I'd sit on the grass in the sunshine to kill a bit of time before going back in again for the counselling! So I'm PUPO - my solitary wee embryo survived the thaw and is now back in me, hopefully nestling down for the long haul.. ๐Ÿคž

OP posts:
geeup · 17/07/2017 13:43

Yayyy your PUPO hobbes! So happy it survived and is back in safe!!

Please create an account

To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.