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Cycle buddies Oct/Nov 16

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Hope2409 · 13/10/2016 21:28

Hello,

Is anyone else about to start a cycle?
I start down regulating on Sunday, estimated embryo transfer week beginning 21st Nov, this will be my first round of IVF/ICSI after 3.5 years trying to concieve.

Mixture of emotions, excited to be starting after waiting so long to get here, nervous about side effects of drugs and injecting and terrified it wont work! The joys of infertility!

Xxx

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EvieBetty · 07/12/2016 21:24

I tested this morning at 8dp5dt and it was negative.
Feeling down today and yesterday and pretty fed up with the 2ww!

Sara237 · 07/12/2016 21:30

Oh Evie sorry to hear that though its still early as we are testing far too soon. Fingers crossed for us all x

Hobbes39 · 07/12/2016 21:47

Oh Evie, I'm so sorry. I hope it's just that it's too early. Thinking of you. X
Hope, our clinic does a blood test - I've been told not to test before myself as it could be wrong, or not give the full picture. I don't know if this is because we had an ectopic last year, so maybe they want to check if it does end up positive that it's a good rising level rather than the static misery I had then...
you know, this is all so cruel as I really feel that it's so totally unfair for anyone who goes through this process not to be successful... it just sucks and makes me mad. 🍀 to you all xx

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Hope2409 · 08/12/2016 09:09

I've done my test and it's a negative for me. Totally gutted i really thought it might have worked x

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Blueroses99 · 08/12/2016 09:26

Hope I'm so sorry, I was really rooting for you. Sadly the stats say that most first cycles don't work but the learnings can be used to get your next cycle right, when you're ready to try again. Unfortunately there's a bit of trial and error with the drugs, doses etc. In the meantime, please take care of yourself - prepare for potentially the worst period ever, as well as the emotions and disappointment, the extra hormones can just cause havoc. Your body has been through a huge ordeal so let yourself get through it however you need to Flowers

Hobbes39 · 08/12/2016 09:30

Oh Hope Flowers, I'm so sorry. :(
I don't have anything helpful to say, just sending hugs and my thoughts xxx

Custardandcream · 08/12/2016 09:43

Hope I'm so sorry. Like Blue said it is very much trial and error so if you want a second cycle they will have a lot of information to use. But for now look after yourself, the next few days can be very hard the progesterone can really mess with your system Flowers

LoPl · 08/12/2016 11:37

Hope - I'm sorry. That's so crap. The whole thing seems just so unfair at times. H

Evie - thinking of you too.

Hugs to all xx

kezmarie · 08/12/2016 12:43

Sorry to hear that hope. Hugs for you xxx

Sara237 · 08/12/2016 17:09

Hi Hope,
I am so sorry to hear that and I know how much it takes its toll. I felt so devastated when I got AF and felt it was all for nothing. Then after a few days of weeping and as blue said, period from hell, I thought about how I'd got further than ever before with that first cycle. It showed me that we could get further than I'd even thought. After a few days I wanted to get back on so after one more period went for this cycle and got bfp. I am 39 and never been preg so it can happen. I know it hurts like hell right now but this might be the first stage to getting you your baby so please know that you will have more chances. Look after yourself and keep in touch x x

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Hope2409 · 08/12/2016 18:53

Thank you for all your kind words and guidance ladies. I hope my period from hell comes soon so i can get it out of the way. My clinic said i have to have 3 bleeds before starting my next cycle so will be feb/mar 17 sort of time i guess but that they learn so much from a first cycle. Clinic also said might be a week or so before AF arrives, need to get the progesterone out my system i guess!
If its ok i will stick around to cheer u all on!

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fluffygreenmonsterhoody · 08/12/2016 21:45

So sorry hope.

Hope AF comes quickly so you can get it out the way and think about what next x

Hobbes39 · 08/12/2016 22:16

Hope - if you'd like to stick around to cheer on, that would be lovely - you have been v supportive and I'm v grateful! I hope that the docs have learnt shit loads from this cycle and they get it right when you are ready to try again. X
Hi fluffy - how you gettting on?
And sara - what happens next for you? Keeping fingers crossed all remains well xx

Sara237 · 09/12/2016 07:08

Hobbes well otd is Sunday but have done 3 tests now that are all pos. Spoke to clinic yesterday they said its sounding good but still have to officially confirm it on Mon! Then do another test day 22. Then early viability scan at clinic. Very nerve wracking yet thrilling time. X

LoPl · 09/12/2016 08:30

Hope - just to reiterate what everyone else has said. You have been an amazing support so please feel free to stick around. But totally understand if you need to have some space too. Hope AF isn't too awful when it comes. And hope that this really helps the clinic in figuring out doses next time.
Sara - that sounds great. Really happy for you, and hope that it becomes "official" soon.

Still waiting here.... halfway through.

Hobbes39 · 09/12/2016 19:40

Sara I bet you can't wait til Monday and being able to make it official! This will be the longest weekend ever I imagine..
LoPI hope you are doing ok? It just feels AGES doesn't it?
AFM my PMA is out the window now... sorry I'm all over the place, feeling fairly sure that AF is on its way, despite the progesterone. I had really tender sore boobs until this morning for the last few days, but now pretty much gone... I'm still getting cramping, and by this stage I doubt it's implantation, and I've started having what looks like a bit of EWCM, which I think means my progesterone is dropping, so all in all they don't feel like great signs to me. My OTD is Tuesday am, (which will be 12dp2dt) would I be an idiot to test Sunday am? Not sure I can wait til the blood test....

Sara237 · 10/12/2016 08:48

Hobbes sorry you're so stressed. If it will make you feel better why not test? I tested from day 7 after 5dt but I am very impatient! I thought to myself whatever it shows might not be accurate but I'm doing it anyway. Tbh I had same feelings as you. Boobs sore then not sore. Cramping, emotional. Its so hard but I'd say go with what you feel.

Sara237 · 10/12/2016 08:50

Hope - hoping you are OK and thinking of you.
Lopi- hang on in there!

LoPl · 10/12/2016 15:25

Hobbes - this waiting is awful isn't it. I've pretty much has sore boobs since I started the IVF cycle, so I can't tell what's going on anymore. It seems the only way to know is testing. If you feel you need to early test then go for it, and just keep testing after to make sure the result is accurate. thinking of you xx

Doing OK today. Had a wobble yesterday, but home with OH today and putting up some Crimbo decorations, so that's nice.

Hobbes39 · 10/12/2016 16:02

Sorry you've had a wobble yesterday too LoPI - glad today has been better! We've been doing xmas decorations today too, so that's been good distraction, but it's still there every time I go to the loo I keep worrying it will all be over. I'm veering wildly like a crazy person at mo... wanting to test, then not wanting to as could be v depressing... god, this is HARD!

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Hope2409 · 10/12/2016 22:08

Hello ladies,

hobbes it is so hard but hang on in there, you just cant tell with symptoms, the only way to be sure is with a test, not long now, im keeping everything crossed for you x

loPI sorry to hear you had a wobble, the waiting is one of the worst bits, when do you test?

sara congratulations on your news, roll on monday so its official!

Me and DH are still processing our recient news, my AF officially started yesterday, had evil cramps all day today but glad its here so we can start looking forwards. Told our families yesterday that it hadnt worked, my MIL made me a bit cross literally as we walked in she was like so how did u get on (i didnt even know she knew when we were testing as me n DH said we would keep it to ourselves) so we said it hasnt worked and she said oh thats a shame i was looking forward to twins, then kept asking if we were sure it was negative, how did we know etc.... i wanted to scream in her face! Everyone says so whens the next go like its a fair ground ride or something and i just want to say do you have any idea how hard it is to think about going through it all again, the toll it takes on you.
I think im just a bit sensitive and exhausted, i'm feeling a bit negative and disappointed by everything at the moment! Then just keep randomly crying!

Xxx

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Hobbes39 · 11/12/2016 07:31

Morning
Hope I'm sorry your MIL wasn't exactly sensitive about everything - the assumption that IVF is this straightforward thing where 'you might get 2 for the price of 1' (as one of my friends said Hmm) is so frustrating when going through the process let along when it's not worked out, I totally understand why you are annoyed at her. I have told some close friends, (a couple I wish I hadn't!) but not family for that reason.
Hope that evil period passes quickly so you can at least focus on Christmas and take you mind off it (as much as you can) for a little while to let you recover.
AMF - I'm 10dp2dt and I did a test this morning - negative. I know it's early, but I got a positive at this stage with the ectopic I had last year, and I have short cycles, so I think if I was pregnant it would show by now. Feel a bit numb, prob cos I'm in denial, but I think I knew it wouldn't be positive. Not going to tell DH yet as there is that v small chance it's wrong, but just feel so fed up. Ug.
Hope others are feeling better than me right now...thinking of you LoPI - hope you are better at holding out than I am!
X

Hobbes39 · 11/12/2016 07:45

Actually - I'm now sure - just did my progesterone gel - sorry for TMI but was quite a bit of blood on applicator when I took it out. So I'm out. Heartbroken my body can't even make it to OTD. X

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Hope2409 · 11/12/2016 09:17

hobbes i'm so sorry, there is nothing i can say to help except i know how you feel, it is devastating. Have a good cry and let it out, tell your DH, you are in this together and need to be there for each other. Big big hugs Flowers

Sometimes i wish we hadnt told family, i think where they have something invested in it too it can be difficult. I have also told a couple of close friends and suprisingly they have be the most supportive.
The best thing i did tho was join this thread the advice, guidance and support that you ladies have given has been the one thing that keeps me going, talking to people going through the same thing, the emotions, the disappointment and knowing what your feeling is normal has really helped me.

Xxx

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Custardandcream · 11/12/2016 09:21

Hobbes so sorry Flowers I didn't make it to OTD last time and it's crap, give the clinic a call and check what they want you to do they wanted me to continue with the progesterone for another day. Look after yourself

Hope sorry your MIL was insensitive, I really wish people supporting people going through IVF would read up on it and get a better idea of the process and statistics. This cycle we told people that we would let them know how things were going but not to ask, basically no news is good news, which has helped a bit.

LoPI wobbles are perfectly normal, hope your feeling better now