Cycle buddies Oct/Nov 16

[Hope2409]

Hello,

Is anyone else about to start a cycle?
I start down regulating on Sunday, estimated embryo transfer week beginning 21st Nov, this will be my first round of IVF/ICSI after 3.5 years trying to concieve.

Mixture of emotions, excited to be starting after waiting so long to get here, nervous about side effects of drugs and injecting and terrified it wont work! The joys of infertility!

Xxx

Thank you. Yes I'm staying with the same place. I'm having a slightly lower dose for longer this time. I overstimulated and got lots of eggs, but few of those were mature enough for ICSI. So hoping to get more usable eggs this time.

Welcome Custard thanks for joining!

This was my delivery yesterday 😬

Hi glass & custard

Blue my delivery was very similar!
Syringes, needles and sharps boxes in the two blue bags....

Blue and Kez i thought my drug delivery was big but both of yours looks much bigger!!

Hope haha we will all be a load of druggies by the time we've finished treatment!
I'm off to bingo tonight with the family, a nice meal and a few none alcoholic beverages..
Hope all you ladies have a lovely weekend x

Hi there, can I join?
I am starting ICSI very soon.
I have PCOS, underactive thyroid and I am anaemic. DH has low morphology hence why we are having ICSI.
TTC for 5 years. 6 rounds of clomid.
Had my nurse consulation on Thursday who did a scan and said I had a small follicle so she wants to do another scan on Monday to determine whether she wants us to wait until I come on my period or whether she will give me provera to bring on a bleed and then start with all the meds.

My meds are being delivered on Tuesday.
Feeling very anxious and afraid of how I will react if it doesn't work.
Don't know anyone going through the same thing so its a lonely time right now.

Hope everything goes well for everyone and we all have lots of babies (even 1 for each of us will do though).

Hi liberte. Of course you can join.
Yes I'm also feeling very anxious about how I feel or may react if this cycle doesn't work.
Of course I'm trying to think positive but it doesn't help when people say 'you're only 26, plenty of time to have babies' & I'm saying under my breath 'time flies when you're infertile!'
But lots of happy positive vibes sending your way and looking forward to joining you on your journey

I think we've got a nice little group going now X

Welcome Liberte of course you can join!

It is a very anxious time i am with you there, none of my friends or anyone i know is going through anything like this either, infact all but one of them has had or is having babies reciently which makes it worse!!! So its nice to have u ladies to talk to who understand how it feels!

We will all be a load of druggies by the end Kez if anyone had said to me years ago i would be taking delivery of a cocktail of drugs, injecting myself and be used to having scans i would of said they were mad but now it is just normal life for us, scary!!!

Enjoy yr night out Kez meal and bingo sounds fun!

Xxx

Yes we have got a nice group going now thank you all for joining and fingers crossed for everyone!

Thank you!
kezmarie - I get that - "Oh your only 28, you have age on your side." Really? Wtf do you know?! And if I am only 28 then why hasn't it worked for 5 years when I was younger than I am now?

I guess I will know more on Monday, I hope we can get started soon. Although I was so anxious about getting to this stage. When we started this journey I thought of ivf as a last resort so what on earth do you do when it don't work? Nevertheless I am trying to remain positive throughout. I keep thinking about baby names and how I will tell people? Is this just me, I honestly live in a fantasy land at times!!

Hence why I am worried about how hard I will hit the ground if it doesn't work.

No its not just u Liberte sometimes i find myself thinking of names etc.... i think its just the part of u that is hoping that it will all be worth it and work one day because u want it so much! Thats what i tell myself anyway haha if not then i'm going mad with u

Not sure if i should be admitting this but back in the day when we started trying and it was all fun and exciting i signed u to the newsletter on the Silver Cross pram website, never unsubscribed and got a e-mail the other day with new colours that are out and found myself looking! After about 5 mins i thought bloody idiot and deleted it.
Felt silly for getting my hopes up as like u i feel i will have further to fall if our cycle fails xxx

Hi Hope & Liberte

Liberte I know exactly what you mean about thinking of IVF as a last resort I cried all the way to the car when I was told after only 2 rounds of clomid I was being referred for IVF!

I'm also trying to be more positive with this cycle, which is hard as I'm naturally quite negative.

Welcome too Liberte.

Am I the oldest of the group? I'm 35.

I think it's easiest to expect the worst but hope for the best. Sadly IVF doesn't always work first time around (which is why NICE guidance is to fund 3 goes - though not all PCTs do this we have discovered). Some of it can be trial and error with getting drugs right etc. But let's hope for the best!

Lots of love and luck on this journey for all of us xx

Same here when we went in for our appointment i was so shocked when she sat there and said the only way forward for u is IVF, i burst in to tears and cried all the way home!

Blue i have just turnt 32 xxx

I'm 30.

Personally I think the best way to handle it is to stay positive while being realistic (just not entirely sure that's possible).

Here's my lovely selection of drugs really hope I don't need all 60 needles they've supplied for the buserelin! The second photo is of my 'kit' I keep all the things I need for my injections that day together in a bag. Currently that's the drug, needles, sharps bin and instructions from the clinic, it helps me feel a bit more organised and also means I can just grab the bag if I'm going to be out at injection time.

Gosh after seeing comments from you guys it's 'nice' to know I'm not the only one! I used to be so positive about it all and I still have moments when I'm like Yeh it's defo going to happen but then I try and be more realistic.
I read that the first go it's more likely to be a failure and actually it's more likely to be successful if you have three goes. I will only get one free go though and haven't thought beyond that because I don't know how we will afford it.
We are trying to maximise our chances on the first go without obsessing if you know what I mean. Like they offered the tml screening and we are thinking of doing that? It costs £700 but seems to be a good option, is anyone else thinking of doing that?
I had an appointment in June where they told me to lose weight to get below 30 bmi so I've achieved that and now continue to have a healthy diet although reading what other people are doing I don't compare!

Anyway blabbing on as usual. There's just so much stuff going through my head. I realise we are all at different stages but at the beginning of a cycle. Gosh I hope we are all success stories.

Loving the pics of all the drugs! I get mine on Tuesday.
Custardandcream - I like being organised just like you. When do you start taking them?
Also the injection at the end which goes in your bum, does it go up the bum? Sorry if I'm being thick but my DH is convinced he will have to deal with finding it!! Lol can't help but laugh.

Liberte I started on Thusday. My trigger shot is just normal into my tummy, I have heard of people having it in their bum cheek though so yours might be different. It's such a bizarre situation it's hard not to find some bits funny.

Liberte you will have to pop a pic on of yr drugs once they arrive too!

I'm not sure about the last injection but really hoping it doesn't have anything to do with going up yr bum! Gosh there is certainly nothing dignified about IVF is there!

Sounds like you are doing all you can thats great that you have lost some weight i think u just need to look after yourself and be kind to yourself as much as u can over the coming weeks. I have read too that success rates seem to improve the more goes u have. We are extremely lucky and get 3 funded on the NHS so for this cycle we aren't adding on any additional techniques.

Custard i like your idea of having a daily kit might have to steal that one. I'm a bit of a control freak and have all my paperwork in a folder in plastic wallets and little zip pouch to put my nasal spray and injection pen in! But yr kit looks good!

Think they just give u plenty of needles as i have far too many too, i have 6 injection pens but each box comes with 20 needles! Best not be needing them all!

Here's too staying positive but staying realistic xxx

Don't get squeamish about bums, looks like all of us have progesterone pessaries (Cyclogest / alternative that Hope has). Let's save that for a post-egg collection conversation though

Haha very true Blue we will save that one for a later date!!

liberte I know exactly what you mean about hopes. We just drove 49 miles home and I declared the time in the car a 'hopeful zone'. We discussed birth plans, names, hopes and all sorts. Home now and feel so much better for having that free time!

Also discovered this morning that first scan is Monday, not Wednesday, so good job Hubby is paying attention!

Good evening ladies
Well no luck at bingo unfortunately but had a lovely night out with OH & family and was nice not to think about IVF for a few hours!!
with regards to feeling anxious, I'm absolutely terrified about treatment, injections, scans, blood tests. The bloody lot.
I was a healthy bmi anyway before we started but I've lost a further 1.5 stone with slimming world, upped my fruit and veg, been taking folic acid religiously for the last 2 months, completely cut out alcohol and caffeine. Just want to do the best I can to help things along!!
Oh and about the pessaries.... (Cyclogest) just reading the packet terrified me ha... (To be taken vaginally or rectally twice a day after Ec) very dignified!!!!
But yes we will save that after EC haha.
So can we get a run through of when we all start?
So I can make note of names and dates and make sure I check on you lovely ladies!

Me...
Baseline scan/start jabs - 25th October
EC - w/c 7th November ....