FET Sept/Oct

[Lolly2803]

Hi ladies,
I am due to start an FET in Sept/Oct and wondered if anyone else was too?! Had my first cycle of IVF in August but due to fluid in my uterus and thin lining had to freeze everything. I seem to always have fluid mid cycle, including natural cycles. Very worried that it will always be a problem and will never get to use my embryos. Having a hysteroscopy the week after next to check incase anything in there but doc suspects not. Would be great to have a few buddies! xxx

Sorry I probably sound very ungrateful for my 5, but it's just that I'm worried. The lower drug doses on this cycle were supposed to reduce quantity of eggs but also increase the proportion of mature eggs but in fact it's the same as last time - 9/24 and 6/16 are both 37.5%. I've also had 5 fertilise in my first cycle and got no blasts so my anxiety is pretty high right now. I have a feeling this week is going to harder than the 2ww!

Think positive Blue you never know!! I'm sure they'll be some fantastic ones there. It'll be an anxious wait for sure but then is there any part of this process than doesn't bring worry, anxiety and general insanity?!! Hope you're resting today and not too sore.

I know, you're right. I was v sore yesterday and hugging hot water bottle but feeling ok today. I've just started cyclogest so let's see what that does to me this week!

Urgh progesterone. My comments earlier in the thread I think yesterday etc will clearly explain what the progesterone is doing to me!!
Glad you're not too sore. It hurt me to see for a few days from memory!!

I meant *wee

Aw Blue you're not ungrateful at all. It's a very taxing, emotionally draining experience and as you say, you've taken measures to improve your fertilisation rate. The proof will be in the pudding though, and I bet the ones you have are absolute crackers. Try not to get bogged down in what happened in your first cycle. If I did that I would probably just give up

Hi ladies, having a bit of a wobble/worry moment. Just thinking my lining was on the thin side at 7mm at best and so that makes it even more unlikely that this hasn't worked. If it hasn't then what makes it likely it'll work next time as my lining I doubt could get any thicker. Argh I don't know I'm just worrying about what's to come. Trying to stay calm and think hopefully as best I can. Sorry just needed a ramble! xx

Ramble away Lolly. The clinic wouldn't have popped back 2 great embies if there wasn't a chance though?

I think they thought this is the best they've seen my lining and potentially be the best it's going to be so let's try and throw everything at it and see what happens. I'm just feeling really down tonight. The drugs are making me feel really shit as well which isn't helping as I'm thinking what if all this is for nothing.

and I'm feeling a bit crampy tonight. Erm though I'm sure it's doubtful AF can come with all the drugs and progesterone I'm taking right?

Oh Lolly, it's so hard I know. Try hard to look after yourself and not worry about it until Saturday. I was crampy on and off throughout my two weeks - and with the mountains of progesterone you're on, it's not surprising if things are feeling weird!

Just to let you know the madness doesn't stop even once you've got a positive: I had to take a pregnancy test again today just to prove to myself that I haven't imagined the whole pregnancy thing/lost the baby without noticing... Haven't told my husband, he'll think I really am bonkers!

Also forgot to take my cyclogest this morning (and have had to ration them to one for the last couple of days not two, while I waited for refill to arrive) so took it when I got home this evening. Then went out to buy eggs, and I could feel the damn thing coming out when I was halfway down the street!! Will be SO glad when I can stop taking these things.

Bear, is your next scan tomorrow? Hope it goes well!

Blue, all the best for your little guys! Really hoping they keep going and you end up with several to put in the freezer.

I am a little worried - have a kind of heavy feeling in my lower tummy, hope everything's ok down there :-S But if anything happened at this stage I would know, right? There'd be blood? (I'm exactly 4 weeks past fertilisation day today, so I guess that makes me 6 weeks pregnant by the weird way they count that...)

Oh Lolly - it is so hard! Try and distract yourself abd hang in there. You are doing all you can. I was vwey crampy in my 2ww with both BFPs so not necessarily a bad thing xx

Csa - heavy feeling is good, you are growing a person in there after all

Thanks all. Feeling a bit better after your kind words. I think sometimes it's just nice to chat to people who know and understand what you're thinking!

CSA I have zero experience on pregnancy but as Bear said you are growing a human so I am sure what you're feeling is totally normal! Your cyclogest sorry did make me smile a bit sorry! You've got to really stick it up there!haha. They're not nice but way nicer than the jabs I can assure you!

Morning! How is everyone doing today?
Good Luck with your scan today Bear, let us know how you get on. Hopefully things are going well xxx

Morning! how are you feeling today Lolly?

Scan was a bit crappy - they had 2 sonographers have a look as my left ovary was hiding and the follicle situation is still inconclusive. I seem to have a big lead follicle but my lining is only 5.4 and there was no LH surge this morning so they're concerned either my lining is caput or it's an an-ovulatory cycle. Another big-ish follicle might come through, and I might not ovulate for another few days giving my lining time to catch up. They'll re-scan me on Friday and if things are looking up they might give me some progynova to support the lining. Or they might recommend we cancel the cycle.

I am concerned that my lining seems to be getting worse with each cycle. If this one is cancelled, or we do it and it fails, I'm more convinced that I'm going to hop on a plane to Athens and get it looked at properly as I'm not trusting these foggy ultrasounds any more. I'm sure there is something that they are just not seeing.

Aw Bear that's so frustrating! A lot can happen in a few days especially if they introduce some progynova to help the lining.
Will they decide that on Friday? Worth a try anyway surely before cancelling?
I think sometimes we do just get gut feelings when something isn't right and it's always best to follow that instinct so if this doesn't work/gets cancelled maybe a closer look at the lining might help? I'm sure Banana has a lot of advice/recommendations on what steps to take next. Fingers crossed for Friday, still every chance it'll improve.

AFM, feeling groggy, queasy and sore from the progesterone jabs this morning so no real change. Was a bit crampy last night and a little this morning but just ticking off the days till Saturday. Was going ok but starting to struggle a bit as we get closer. xxx

Yeah I'm still really suspicious of this pain, even though they seemed totally unconcerned. I'm just going to go with it for now, but convinced it merits a closer look in the new year, especially now with my thin lining. It was thick and lovely before DD, and then I fell pregnant first try on a natural IUI. I'm sure this miscarriage has effed me up in some way and they just can't see it.

Only 3 days to go for you - not long at all. Sounds like the progesterone hasn't been good to you. It's horrible stuff really. Stay strong and have a good day xx

Def agree worth a closer look. Will keep positive for Friday.
Yep not too long to go. Feeling so sick today. Was googling what progesterone levels should be and mine seems so high which must explain it - blurgh wish I could go home! xx

Bear that's so frustrating for you. I think it's a reasonable question to check the uterine cavity after pregnancy/mc, though I don't think that an ultrasound can pick up all types of potential problems so it needs a hysteroscopy or similar. I had something called a 3D saline sonogram after my pregnancy loss and before I started this fresh cycle. However all might be fine by Friday and it's just a slow day today. Fx for you xx

Lolly I know it's a tough wait but hold out til Saturday xx

The clinic have said that my 5 embryos are doing ok so far, but I know it's still early days. I'm booked in for a 5 day transfer on Saturday morning. They're not going to call me again so I won't know how they are doing each day - which is probably good for my anxiety levels!

Oh Blue that's great all are still going and you'll have a day 5 transfer! Hopefully you'll have a few for the freezer! Least you can (try) relax for a couple of days.
Hope you're feeling ok?

I def won't be testing early don't worry about that. What I don't know can't hurt me and all that! Until I know for sure there's always the hope! zx

Blue - that's sounding really promising for Saturday. Fingers crossed!

My clinic offer a 3D aqua scan thing which I wish I had gone for last month. They didn't suggest it but I wish I had pushed for it. I'll get it done next month if this gets cancelled/fails and the Athens hidden infections test. Then maybe a hysteroscopy if indicated.

Thank Lolly and Bear. I had kept the next couple of days free in case of a day 3 transfer so now I'm trying to keep myself busy as it does seem to stop me worrying. Feeling v zen after acupuncture today

Just relax Blue you need to rest and recover after EC so just enjoy the rest time! When will they next call you? Or will they just tell you on Sat when you go in for ET? xx

Having another wobble. Think i need a slap. I've just got a feeling it hasn't worked. Keep thinking the cramps I am getting now and again are AF lurking, waiting for me to stop my drugs so she can make an appearance. I just can't believe this could work for us. Can't believe we will have good news and things will finally be ok.

Argh just feeling really upset tonight.