Hugs robber - hoping PUL is just early and next scan will show a sac in the right place
Sadly my 'period' is such that we are right back to where we started
Despite the excitement at me having an actual bleed last month, so my uterus appeared to have learned how to grow and shed a moderately decent lining, and we appeared to be in good shape to start a treatment cycle - apparently not.
Well think we have a clue as to why this one didn't take, because my endometrium is clearly absolutely fucked. We're back to where we were in May. In May's (freeze all) cycle the lining looked good on a scan. But turned out to be a disgusting mess. Dr said after May's 'period' that although the lining looked great on the scan, based what was coming out, the quality wasn't there, and if we had elected to transfer into that endometrium, the cycle would likely have failed.
In May that 11mm of lining never shed as a proper period - no actual flow, no red bleeding, just a bit of black clotty gunge and brown spotting. Nothing more than a pantliner needed. Scans and bloods showed that was my period - lining had thinned although there was a lovely blood clot just floating around. Took a week of Provera. Didn't induce any bleeding. But it obvs did something because the HyCoSy I went for a week later showed the clot had resolved itself, the lining had thinned further to just 3mm - yet nothing was coming out of me, nor retrograde menstruation back down my tubes, so it was somehow all being absorbed.
We thought we'd cracked it by getting me to have a proper bleed last month, hence why we cancelled the hysto, and started the treatment cycle
Lining looked amazing onscreen this cycle. Appearance was best he said it had ever looked
Apparently it's also a complete liar because it turns out to have been absolute shit
Black clotty gunk and brown spotting. Nothing resembling a period. Nothing more than a liner. At 5w I wouldn't have expected a sac or anything, but Dr said because there was hCG and higher levels of progesterone because I was pregnant, which would have thickened the lining further, with a 'very early miscarriage' (as he described it) I should be having a bleed of some sort.
Dr spoke to me on the phone and said he wanted me to come in sooner, so he can scan me.
Our WTF appointment was scheduled for next week, but he wants to give it a couple more days to see if anything comes out before he scans me - and we can then discuss next steps. We agreed we would bring the hysto forward so he can get in there and see what's going on. TBC but looking at next week. It'll be my 3rd general anaesthetic of 2016 (plus the 3 egg collections under sedation I've already had this year)
Glad hysto is sooner because I just want this rotten dead lining and embryo out of me. If I can't menstruate properly and can't miscarry properly, well then it'll just need manually scraping out of me.
I'm just so fed up. My uterus is this toxic hazard zone where embryos just go to die
Sorry for ramble but this is the Failure stories thread and I'm feeling like a pretty epic failure right now.