WANTED- cycle buddies who are ttc#1 and planning a FET in April/May

[RoseBud2016]

I'm in need of some buddies!

A long story short is that I have been ttc#1 for 19 months now. I have severe PCOS and don't ov or cycle naturally.
Last year I was told that DH and I would only have a chance of conceiving through IVF, after numerous other fertility treatments failed.

In February this year we had our first ISCI IVF cycle at Reprofit in the Czech Republic (DH has 2 DDs so we are not eligible for treatment on the NHS) We got 12 eggs, 8 fertilised and 6 made it to blasts! We had one transferred and fell pregnant! But at 4+4 blood tests confirmed that the pregnancy wasn't viable and at 5 weeks we had a very early mc (I hate the phrase CP as I think it trivialises it)

The last few weeks have been such a struggle physically and mentally but we are keen to try again so are planning another trip to Reprofit to be reunited with one of our Frosties!

Scared and excited in equal measures and would love some buddies to share in this new and unknown part of the 'journey' with. X

Stealth yep just another step in the never ending merry go round!

Tbh I honestly think it's going to to work or not. We stop drinking, eating, caffeine and a million and 1 vitamins blah blah. I don't think it makes much difference to some of us.

Yes I agree. I drank and ate crap through my stims round and ended up with 20 blastocysts. Maybe I would have had more if I'd been more virtuous? We can never know.

If this round fails I suspect I'll want to throw the kitchen sink at the next but I'll cross that bridge when I come to it in a couple of weeks. And obviously will stop the booze post ET!

How much have you drank?

I really need a drink!

Not much ahem

Pint of cider last night
Small glass of red wine on Sunday
Couple of glasses of champagne on Saturday night
Glass of rose on Friday night
copious amounts of red wine on Thursday night (work dinner)

Erm, that's it. More than I've drunk in the last 6 weeks combined as I've been feeling so rank. And definitely more than I should. But fuck it!

Love your attitude Stealth I really wish I could take a leaf out of your book!

So ovary pain, EWCM and brown spotting...... I know I'm ridiculous for thinking it but after my 35 day cycle last cycle, and being CD12 today...... You don't think I'm gearing up to ov do you?!!!

I don't think it's aspirational really rose The sensible part of me is kicking myself. I just think I didn't have enough time beforehand to process the idea of IVF and what it meant in terms of committing to be healthy etc. One day I was doing an ovulation induction and the next I was midway through an IVF stims cycle! I wish I had a bit more mental preparation time. I just can't seem to sort myself out.

Stealth thinking of you tomorrow and hoping it all goes well.

I get it with the bad delicious food and booze. Have also had a bit of dietary rebellion this past month in a general BUGGER IT ALL way. Don't forget that seemingly millions of other people constantly get up the duff while drinking and smoking and all sorts. A bit of sushi and a wine or two isn't the end of the world, considering. Hope you're feeling ok, though.

Rose how did the ov symptoms pan out? Are you gearing up for that ironidiff?

Good luck stealth! !

Let us know how it goes today

Rose any more symptoms?

Good luck for today Stealth Don't forget to take a picture of your embie!

Vixx Just bloating, more EWCM and feeling like I'm about to start AF on CD13. I think I must be gearing up to ov but whether I do or not is another thing. Will just keep pestering DH and see.

Thank you all!

I had my Last Supper last night with a friend - cheese and a couple of glasses of cava featured. Now time to behave!

Am absolutely terrified, weirdly, but I shall let you know how I get on. Not in til the afternoon so shall report back later.

Ooh rose that sounds promising. Fx for an ironidiff

Stealth come back and tell us how it goes.

fingers crossed rose! Are you back now?

All done. I guess I'm PUPO!

Lining wasn't amazing at just over 8mm but the doctor said he was happy with it as the progesterone stripped things back a bit. Hopefully it is enough.

The blast itself was perfect - it was well and truly hatching and he said if it is going to implant it could start to do so as early as this evening 😳 Thawed perfectly and it was an AA blast, so all good from that perspective - was amazing to see it on screen.

So now I just wait I guess! Eek!

So glad it went well. All sounds brilliantly positive - and you are definitely PUPO! Hooray!

Ah congratulations on pupo!

Did you take a pic?

Yay Stealth Great news! And nicely timed for a relaxing wkend. Are you back to work as normal next week?

Vixx Been back at work for a week and I've come home twice this week and discussed with DH about handing my notice in- but he's convinced I'll be pregnant soon and do should stick it out. Dull!

rose I went back to work after et! Had a meeting I couldn't reschedule. Am definitely at work as normal next week, but yes I have a v relaxing weekend planned!

Woke up this morning absolutely convinced it hadn't worked - a feeling of 100% certainty. Just need to stop being so ridiculous and forget about it for a week or so fat chance

Stealth I started feeling cramps and pulling at 3-4dp5dt with my hatching blast. By 6dp5dt I "just knew" it would be a positive result. For me that feeling was unmistakeable even though I had never experienced it before.
You can't possibly know yet- give it time my lovely! says probably the most obsessive over analyser of all time!

Thank you. I am definitely being ridiculous! Patience is a virtue I sadly lack. Think I'm just a bit scared of it not working as it will mean something complicated is wrong if not.

Hope you are having a lovely Saturday and relaxing away from work - sorry to hear that you're having a bad time. I'm also in a position where I would probably be out on the market interviewing if we weren't ttc, and it's so hard to know what to do / when to move!

Stealth,** hope you're hanging in there!

I saw the consultant today, yay. Though he did keep saying there were lots of positives to take from the last cycle and I was like, well, having a mc and ERPC after seeing the heartbeat did NOT feel so dandy, actually, but kind of knew what he meant. I guess. At least I responded well to stimms and implanted etc etc blah. Still panicked of course that it'll never happen again.

As we're 'unexplained', with slightly lazy swimmers and a touch of shit thyroid only, we've agreed a natural cycle FET using my wee lonely frostie, from next AF. So a mid-May ish start date as currently on CD2 (as an aside, hooray for periods again ), keeping on the Crinone from transfer and adding in a smidge of Clexane in a nod to the mc.

Argh, I have to relearn OPKs. With a bit of added stress of having to time it just right for transfer this time. And I bloody hated them back in yore when TTCing the Normals' way. At least I can practise this cycle.

What other news, FET gang? Xx

grumpel glad the doctor was positive, even if it sounds a bit masochistic for them to be that way. Did you have tissue testing on your miscarried baby?

Don't envy you the OPKs, but I've never ever had a positive so just associate them with futility. Fx your little frostie will deliver the goods! Lucky you with clexane they hurt. All for a greater good I suppose.

rose and vixx hope you're doing ok x

Day 4 past transfer and the lack of symptoms is overwhelming. Only thing that's happened is I've developed an extremely sore throat. But no pulling, stretching or cramping of any description. Ho hum....

Don't worry stealth, it's still very early days. I didn't get any pulling or cramping or any other real symptoms till 7dp5dt and felt entirely normal beforehand.
The 2ww post ET is the worst thing ever. Feel for you!

No, no testing done on 'the products of conception' so it's being labelled 'just one of those things'. We are beasting the thyroxine this time around though as suspect my non-ideal TSH was a contributing factor.

Oh balls, is Clexane an injectable? Thought I was getting away without stabbing this time around!

Hope everyone else is doing ok.

Thanks grumpel. I had to sit on my hands the loo this morning to stop myself doing a test. At 4dp5dt! Am losing the plot!

What's your tsh? Were you monitored for it during your last pregnancy? I think early pregnancy really beasts your thyroid. And, yes, clexane is one of the nastier injectibles. Into the stomach, but it hurts and causes bruising. I had to do 5 days after EC and it was enough! A month later the bruises have finally faded. But on the upside, no mixing required & if it helps you stay pregnant then all worth it!

Grumpel if you start mid may what is your time line looking like? We all have different protocols!

Stealth you have to be positive. You have got this far. Don't be looking for symptoms too hard. I have sworn I was pregnant at least six times a year for the last 10 years looking out for symptoms.

The one time I really was pregnant I didn't find out until over 6 weeks!

I have my scan tomorrow (finally after waiting 5 weeks from cycle day 1and it's been 3 weeks that I have been injecting now).
Hopefully it all looks good and I can start progynova!

Hope everyone is good x

Hey vixx. That is a long time injecting! Fx that you can get properly started now. Good luck for the scan tomorrow.

I'm doing a natural cycle, so just monitoring for LH surge with OPKs with a few scans to check progress Cd1-12 approx then I nip to clinic for them to pop the frostie in at peak time! So it's the usual sort of 26ish days. Argh. All seems a bit untechnical given the rest of IVF but they think 'my environment' is fine as is.
So no drugs until ET then just progesterone to support it and a bit of Clexane to help with any blood clotting issues. Looking forward to that one now!

Stealth My TSH helpfully rocketed to 26 before Christmas, for no reason, just as I was wanting to start IVF, so doubled my meds. I'd got it down to 6.5 during pregnancy with monthly monitoring, and had doubled the dosage again on advice of consultant. It should ideally be under 2 though for pregnancy, though generally they say anything under 4 is 'normal'. Currently at 2.5 so one last push this month to sort it out.
Well done for resisting poas! X

bloody hell vixx I can't believe how long you've been stabbing! So exciting you can get started. Yes I am being a complete knob and just need to settle down Am very displeased with my emotional instability over this all.

grumpel 26!!! Wow. Yes they say under 2 is best for fertility so get popping those thyroxine tablets.