WANTED- cycle buddies who are ttc#1 and planning a FET in April/May

[RoseBud2016]

I'm in need of some buddies!

A long story short is that I have been ttc#1 for 19 months now. I have severe PCOS and don't ov or cycle naturally.
Last year I was told that DH and I would only have a chance of conceiving through IVF, after numerous other fertility treatments failed.

In February this year we had our first ISCI IVF cycle at Reprofit in the Czech Republic (DH has 2 DDs so we are not eligible for treatment on the NHS) We got 12 eggs, 8 fertilised and 6 made it to blasts! We had one transferred and fell pregnant! But at 4+4 blood tests confirmed that the pregnancy wasn't viable and at 5 weeks we had a very early mc (I hate the phrase CP as I think it trivialises it)

The last few weeks have been such a struggle physically and mentally but we are keen to try again so are planning another trip to Reprofit to be reunited with one of our Frosties!

Scared and excited in equal measures and would love some buddies to share in this new and unknown part of the 'journey' with. X

Hi guys! It's 1.49am and I'm awake . Have finally admitted defeat and got up and am doing some work. I'd forgotten that I can't take any sleeping pills when preg - shocking!!

vixx have defo had less vomiting over the last couple of days. Am hoping this is the placenta taking over and not just a blip! Am really sorry to hear you're still spotting. It might well be ok, but goodness how stressful to have to wait it out. Am really hoping you see a nice strong little baby at your next scan.

rose and grumpel both of those sets of darkening lines look fantastic! Hurrah! rose can you not just ring the clinic and say you've had an early BFP and move your test day forward? That's what I did - waited until 10dpt (which was a Monday morning) and then fessed up (my OTD was 12dpt). They were happy to do a beta at that point.

...and now it's 6.15am and I'm still awake. Today is going to be fun . At least I got some work done - I was distracted only by a bout of sickness (spoke too soon about the vomiting!) and also by an extremely noisy sex session from the people in the hotel room above me at about 2.45am

Vixx I know! I am definitely going a tiny bit crazy. I just can't help comparing lines- although I'm not in control of what ultimately happens I feel like I just need to know if things are going to go the same way as last time.
I just want to be excited and happy, but I can't. I need to chill out and take my own advice!

Sorry to hear about your sickness. I'm glad you're taking time off work when you need to, to recuperate. Apart from the vomiting how are you feeling?

Stealth Jet lag is the worst, it must be pretty intolerable when pregnant and you have sickness to deal with too. When do you fly back?
I'm toying with the idea of doing my first beta a little early- I'll phone my GP and see what they say.

Flying back tonight rose so will be in my own bed Thursday night. Quick trip's a good trip!

Defo do the beta early - it's the rate of change rather than the absolute numbers that are important so doing a couple of days early is fine.

Stealth poor you. The time difference must be difficult at the best of times but you can't even drink or take tablets to help you get to sleep. Hope you managed to get some rest eventually.

Rose did you test today? The lines will drive you crazy as they go darker when dried. So even if it 1 or 2 days apart it might on first glance look the same because it hasn't dried. Are you back to work now?

My last pregnancy I had HG and lost a stone and a half in 3 weeks. It started at 7 weeks so I am praying I don't get the same thing!

I am 7 weeks today and feel like crap. I haven't plucked my eyebrows or painted my nails or done my hair in days. Constant sickness and heaving. I have never known tiredness like it. But I am happy.

Grumpel where are you?

Safe flight home Stealth! I think I'm going to try and get my first beta done this Saturday at the hospital walk in blood clinic (if my GP will give me a form) Then the next day on Monday (OTD is Tuesday). I will phone them tomorrow and ask.

Vixx I did another IC this morning and it's a touch darker than yesterdays but I worry that they aren't progressing quickly enough (even though I know IC cannot be relied upon and vary in terms of quality and quantity of dye). I will do another FRER tomorrow as that will be every other day and see what that shows.
I have hope, but I'm not feeling overly positive if I'm honest.

Despite the spotting your symptoms sound very reassuring Vixx even if they do make you feel like total crap x

Grumpel Any more news from you? Good luck with the move tomorrow and with OTD xxx

Oh forgot to mention- I woke up last night with this really weird sensation behind my belly buttont. It wasn't painful but it was uncomfortable and properly freaked me out.
I'm too scared to Google it in case it's the beginning of the end, but safe to say I slept really badly! Work today is not going to be fun.

Oh Rose, I know nothing I say will reassure you as I am a mess myself so I know how you feel.
BUT if it is getting darker even just a smidge then that is positive! I think the frer will make you feel better
If you take tomorrow will that be 5 days between tests?

The sickness is a good sign so I'm holding on to that. But not believing I'm pregnant yet as I don't want to get my hopes up!

It's crap, isn't it, how we have been conditioned to worry so much? Bloody infertility woes ruining what for so many others is a happy, oblivious time

Totally get where you're both coming from, rose and Vixx and of course it's easy to say when it's someone else (I'm also going slightly mad this end second-guessing everything in v hypocritical way!), but darkening lines and sickness are positive signs.

My crazy this week has been that I so far haven't had the strong implantation cramps (unmistakable, woke me up two nights in a row) or any of the stretching I had last time around 7/8dpt.
Have been merrily using up the FRERs though- so I don't have to pack them!- and line is now pretty strong but, you know. All seems totally unbelievable still and can't even imagine going the distance.
Felt bloated and periody last night and that's pretty much it so far.

My clinic don't give me betas, just a 'yes you are' or 'no you're not' phone call following the one blood test. No check of progesterone either. Bit unhelpful! Will at least ask them for a HCG number tomorrow even if I never get another contextual one...

Safe flight back stealth and hope you have a relaxing weekend planned at least. Your week sounds knackering.

Positive news that the tests are darkening. That is what you want but I understand how you feel.
I think we all know how each other feel. It's a shame we spend all this time getting pregnant and going through treatment and when it finally does work we can't even believe it or comprehend it.

I keep putting my hand on my stomach and taking it off as I don't want to get attached at this stage. It is shit.

Once you both get your betas we can move over to pregnancy!

Cor, it's a fine line between feeling glad you have sickness as it's a sign of a healthy pregnancy and hoping you don't get HG again, vixx.

Made me sad to hear about you not wanting to touch your stomach and believe your baby's in there. Am struggling with the same thing. Ah well to all of us.

Grumpel The best of luck with today's move! I hope it all goes smoothly and you manage to resist helping too much- you are strictly on tea-making duties!
Bloated and periody sounds exactly how I'm feeling. And add super tired to that too, no matter how much I do or don't sleep!
I think Vixx only had one beta result too. It's funny how different clinics are so different in their requirements.

Vixx That makes me sad to think of you not wanting to put your hand on your stomach too. But I do completely understand why.

I used to think that the worst thing about being infertile was the hopelessness and inadequacy it makes you feel when everyone around you manages to fall pregnant but you can't. And that it couldn't get any worse than that. But now I realise that an equally sad thing about being infertile is that even when medical treatment is a success the happiness and excitement of pregnancy is stolen from you because you know too much of what can go wrong and second guess everything. It's just sad that we all feel like that...... But at least we all understand why.

Stealth I hope the flight home was ok and you are now safely tucked up in your own bed. Are you working from home today?

AFM- another day, another stick to pee on. The FRERs are going in the right direction which is reassuring me, but then when I wiped I had a bit of pink spotting so now I'm going to spend the day trying not to overthink that...... It never ends!

rose those frers look very good indeed! Excited for you lady.

Believe it or not I am sat on another plane typing this - heading to Scandinavia this weekend. Zzzzzzz. Very badly planned. Just want to be in bed! Definitely will need a nap at some point.

grumpel good luck with the move!

Not long for betas now!

vixx sorry you're feeling sick but it a good sign.

Hi Ladies. Anyone mind if I join in? Not sure if I am in the right place. Please tell me if not. I started my FET in May and had ET 7th June, so currently 3dp5dt. I feel totally normal which is worrying me. What is going on in there?!
Just seen Rose's post above. Congrats to you! Hang on in there. Totally know what you mean about the excitement of pregnancy being taken away from you. I've had 3 miscarriages to date and it sucks that seeing a BFP can never now be a true celebratory moment.
Has everyone on this thread already had their transfers now?

Rose that test looks very dark! I know you don't want to get your hopes up but it is looking very positive for you. Can't wait til your beta so you can calm down (a tiny bit).
As for the pink spotting when I rang for my beta the nurse asked if I had any pink spotting as it is implantation. Only worry if you have it for 3/4 weeks like me :) .

Stealth your job sounds so glamorous travelling around the world.

Grumpel hi

Hi Funky, welcome. We have all had our transfers. You are not too far behind Rose and Grumpel.

Good luck for the 2ww. Did you have a 3 or 5 day blastocyst transferred? When is your official test date? We all tested 4-6 days post transfer as too eager!

Sorry to hear about your miscarriages

Stealth You little jet-setter, you! Is this with work again or for leisure? You must be exhausted. I hope you get a good nights sleep tonight x

Funky Hello and welcome! Congratulations on being PUPO! I think it's totally normal to feel normal so early on so don't panic.
I'm so sorry to hear about your mcs- that must have been so so tough Is this your first FET? Have you had one round of IVF, like us, or have you had multiple rounds to get to this point?
So Stealth is 10 weeks pregnant and Vixx is 7 weeks pregnant. They have both had scans recently where all is looking good.
I am 10dp5dt of a hatching blast. OTD for me isn't until the 14th, which is a real pain in the bum but I'm looking at getting my beta done early now that I getting some line progression on FRERs.
And Grumpel is a day behind me at 9dp5dt, but her OTD is today! She has also had a BFP with line progression!

As Vixx said, we all started testing around 5dp5dt but we have also all driven ourselves slowly crazy by doing so! When is your OTD?

I hope so Vixx- still feeling so cautious! Have you spoken to your clinic again about the spotting at all?

AFM- Only one wipe of pink spotting, and since then 2 wipes of brown spotting. I have contacted the clinic and if it hasn't stopped by tomorrow they want to up my progesterone......I think it's just something they do as a precaution, and definitely not 'the norm'.

Rose I can't believe you are only 10 dp the transfer. Amazing.
It is good that it is brown, how much is it?

Mine is just when I wipe but when I had the scan they saw blood on my womb about 4mm which she said could mean it's trickling slowly. How much progesterone are you on?

Haven't spoken to clinic, I had my scan Wednesday so will speak to them then. Just praying that still not measuring small.

Hi all. A new chair has been delivered so I'm currently testing it out and having five minutes off.

Welcome funky you're definitely in the right place. Nice to have a new group member! As Rose says in her excellent summary, we've all just gone through it and to varying degrees are currently feeling the post-FET, early preg fear.
Sad to hear about your mcs. It's devastating. I had a MMC at 9 weeks in March so can't imagine the strength you must have to go through it multiple times. Fx this one is extremely sticky.

Rose does sound rather implantation-bleeding-like, but good to get your mind put to rest (slightly) and have some more prog if needed.
See, I'm concerned that I HAVEN'T had any signs of implantation. Can't win.

So for me the 2ww is officially over- had the call an hour ago. Am certifiably up the duff! Still felt ridiculously nervous while waiting for her to say it, despite poas just yesterday. Now just the 2.5ww for a scan! Christ.

Happy weekend to all X

AMAZING Grumpel! Huge congratulations!!! Did you find out your beta number at all

So happy for you! When is your first scan? X

P.s Good idea testing out that new chair.....

Congratulations Grumpel
So happy for you! I am being nosey too, want to know your beta number. Great news!

How many weeks will you be during your first scan?

They didn't give me one!! Sorry to disappoint you all. When I email to make scan appointment I'll ask then. I'll be around 6+3 or +4 depending on availability for that.

Hi Ladies! So did all of you in this group wind up with your bfps?! That's great if so!
Congrats to Grumpel and Rose as the latest bfp'ers. I feel I've tempted fate by joining a group of alread 'upduffed' ladies Maybe I should back out now!
Grumpel, hope the 'yes' from your clinic has made it seem more real for you! Rose, have you tested again this morning? Hope you are feeling ok.

I am currently 4pt5dt. Shall I test tomorrow of wait until the following day?? I'm a poas addict, so it's taking all my stength to not do it right now! OTD isn't until 18th! Not feeling very hopeful here though. No symptoms at all and resigned myself to never having a sticky bfp! Did any of you get bfp at 5dp5dt? The ones that have had bfp for a while, do any of you know if its singleton or twins yet?!

Funky,** you never know. I still feel totally normal with none of the symptoms like stretching pains or sore boobs that I had around 4 weeks last time. Just feeling like AF is going to turn up at any second. Obviously that freaks me out (!) but I guess it's true that every pregnancy is different.

I must confess that I tested at 4dpt last weekend, purely because I'm a sheep and Rose had cracked and done one! Had the faintest of faint lines on a frer. Probably wouldn't recommend going that early though. I just have no willpower!

Oh wow, grumpel now you've tempted me to maybe poas tonight! I have rubbish willpower too! But why wait if you could find out now (even though a bfn would send me further into the depths of depression!)

We're all useless at taking our own advice aren't we?! I've had 3 pregnancies and know that symptoms were different with all of them. AF feelings are the scariest but the reality is the AF symptoms are similar to the pregnancy symptoms and we all know this but still we panic! Will your scan be about 2 weeks away? All the waiting makes things so much more difficult.