WANTED- cycle buddies who are ttc#1 and planning a FET in April/May

[RoseBud2016]

I'm in need of some buddies!

A long story short is that I have been ttc#1 for 19 months now. I have severe PCOS and don't ov or cycle naturally.
Last year I was told that DH and I would only have a chance of conceiving through IVF, after numerous other fertility treatments failed.

In February this year we had our first ISCI IVF cycle at Reprofit in the Czech Republic (DH has 2 DDs so we are not eligible for treatment on the NHS) We got 12 eggs, 8 fertilised and 6 made it to blasts! We had one transferred and fell pregnant! But at 4+4 blood tests confirmed that the pregnancy wasn't viable and at 5 weeks we had a very early mc (I hate the phrase CP as I think it trivialises it)

The last few weeks have been such a struggle physically and mentally but we are keen to try again so are planning another trip to Reprofit to be reunited with one of our Frosties!

Scared and excited in equal measures and would love some buddies to share in this new and unknown part of the 'journey' with. X

Oh Vixx that must be so worrying. Can you leave work and just go home and try to rest?
Spotting may not mean anything sinister but I completely understand your worry.

What excuse can I give them for leaving?

Sorry Vixx I've been teaching all afternoon so didn't see your response. If it were me I think I would be honest, but you could just say you feel very unwell all of a sudden if you don't want to be entirely honest.
Did you leave early in the end? I would consider taking tomorrow off to try and rest if you can. I hope you're ok x

Vixx hope you're ok and resting at home now. You must be so worried. Keeping everything crossed that it all settles down again. Thinking of you, and hope you can get some advice from EPU or docs if you need it.

First progesterone injection in my arse done! Cried before and after. Before with pure fear ( I'm not usually such a baby.... Honest!) and after with pure relief. DH did a grand job- didn't feel it at all! Phew.

Vixx Thinking of you xxx

I did come home and relaxed.

Thank you guys for listening to my constant worrying!

Yes Rose I am so glad thar you're getting good started! Nearly the weekend and not long to go

Grumpel what is going on your end?

Vixx How is the spotting now? How are the feeling today? I'm glad you rested up yesterday afternoon. I think, at times like this, it is really important to listen to your body and rest if you think you need it. Are you going into work today? X

Grumpel Any sign of that elusive positive opk?

Oh god vixx how stressful. Glad you managed to go home and put your feet up. Hope the spotting has stopped now. As the others said it's likely to be absolutely fine, but I know that doesn't help whilst you're going through it.

rose well done you & DH for surviving the first bum jab. Not long to go now til transfer - eeeee!

grumpel hope the POASing is fruitful & you're getting closer to ov & the miracle twins

How are you today, vixx? Hope the spotting has stopped.

Rose congrats on getting past bum jab no1! And good job MrRose. Not sure I'd let DH loose with a needle if I'm honest! Let's hope the rest of them go as smoothly. Still, all for a good cause, eh?

Happy hols stealth, hope you're going somewhere nice. I'm massively jumping the gun and worrying about zika so prob not going as far away for our summer hols as we first planned. Your hotel suggestions might come in handy!

So the suuuuuuurge happened on Wed night and I ov'd yesterday. Lots of strong cramping so unmistakable in the end, ta body. Am booked in for ET next Wed, which is excellent as I was already working from home then.
Start the drugs tonight, after work party. Getting to grips with Clexane stabbing will no doubt be brilliant.

Happy long bank hol weekends to you all.

Stealth Have a fab holiday!

Grumpel DH and I have booked to go to Italy in July and I have also been thinking about Zika. If there are confirmed cases there by then, then we will cancel our trip. Even if we aren't pregnant by then I don't want to delay ttc. I'll be gutted if we do have to cancel but for me it's not worth the risk, no matter how careful we are.

Woop for ov! So you will be a day behind me..... PUPO pals! Perfect. Good luck with your drugs- fun times ahead X

Great that you can get started grumpel! Exciting times for you and rose .
Enjoy your hols stealth, you deserve the break.

I did come into work today. Have had more spotting and cramps. Called my clinic they said to go to the early pregnancy unit, which I will after work. They said if your hcg level is over 1000 then they should be able to see something on a scan. I have kind of resigned myself to bad news.

Told my pregnant friend (the one who just found out she's 13 weeks pregnant and she said will they just put another embryo back in straight away (haha) and I should try having more sex. I give up.

Thank you all for being so supportive

Vixx did it go ok yesterday? Hope all is well. Xx

vixx hope all ok xxx

We're in Italy. I did think about Zika but it is too early in the season + we are up high on a villa & it's not that warm so figured it'd be fine. Sod's law is that we have loads of Zika potential holidays coming up - a wedding in Mallorca in July, a week in Ibiza in August and 10 days in Mexico in October. Will defo cancel Mexico (just waiting to see if I'm cancelling it because I'm pregnant or ttc) but will defo go to the wedding (figure Zika won't have made it over yet) and will monitor the Ibiza situation and cancel if necessary. It's a tough one to call as it just seems so unlikely and there's no WHO advice yet that would really give me cause for concern. But ofc that could change.

Vixx Thinking of you X

Stealth I hope you are enjoying the Italian sun and your sickness is subsiding. I bloody love Italy!

Grumpel How are you feeling? How are your injections going?

AFM- today is the day! We fly to Brno this afternoon! I just want to get there now- ET is 2:30 tomorrow.
The PIO injections were going well until yesterday when I clenched my butt muscle just as DH jabbed the needle in........ It f@@king hurt! Still sore to touch now. I'm such an idiot but lesson learnt- keep your butt completely relaxed to avoid the pain.

Good luck Rose

Grumpel how is it going now?

Hope you enjoy your you holiday stealth!

I had a scan Friday, the could see a sac and said that my cervix was closed but they could see evidence of a bleed. The booked me in for another scan Friday.
However the spotting has now turn bloody and red so I know from my prior experience that it is all over. Don't want to bring the group down any further so I will be bowing out of the thread. Will be rooting for you all.

Good luck and thank you for the support.

Oh vixx. How awful. I know it's cold comfort believe me, I know but there are lots of stories of ladies having big bleeds and coming through it ok. (If you check out the pregnancy after infertility thread both HP and blueroses I think bad proper bleeds in the first tri). Either way please don't feel you have to drop off the thread - we're all here for you! Take care of yourself and rest up

rose not long to go now!! Eeee! Sorry about your sore bum..."just relax" sounds v dodgy but I suppose it's sound counsel in this situation Not long til you're pupo!!

Vixx so sorry to hear your shitty news. You obviously know your body best and I don't want to give you any platitudes especially as I know what it's like to protect yourself by expecting the worst, but have everything tightly crossed that your next scan gives you better news. Echoing stealth to take care of yourself and not to drop off the thread - if you'd like to post then we're here to support you whatever the outcome. Thinking of you

Excited for you today, rose! Hope the flight and everything went well and you're ready for the main event. Let us know how it goes.

Hope you're enjoying your hols, stealth. Terrible London weather today so you're in the right place.

As for me, am in slight denial about tomorrow! Still waiting to hear from the clinic about what time to come in and whether the frostie has defrosted safely Also not really enjoying the Clexane, though so far it's not bruising, just feeling stingy. Not as bad as the clenched bum jab though!

Vixx I know I've already said this to you privately, but I'll say it here too- we are all here to support each other no matter what the news. It's not supposed to be a place full of positively- it's a place to vent and get angry and get sad, and just be.
I know you're not feeling hopeful but you don't need to be alone feeling like that. xxx

Stealth Yesterdays bum jab went without a hitch The trick, we realised, is to do it in lying down! Much easier that way and absolutely no pain or inadvertent clenching! How are you doing?

Grumpel 24 hours away for you! It's mad isn't it? One minute it feels like years away and then it's here, just like that! Have you had any lining scans? How's it looking?

AFM- acupuncturist arrives at our hotel in 2 hours but I'm still in bed It's the biggest bed you have ever seen and so comfy.

Just read this article: made me cry but only because finally someone has said what I've been thinking for years. You ladies will appreciate it I'm sure:

https://nadirahangail.com/2016/05/25/mind-your-own-womb/

Good luck grumpel and rose! Will be clenching everything for you hard today.

rose I'm fine thanks. Starting to get nervous about Monday's scan, but being on hols is helping!

Good luck Rose you must be PUPO by now!!

Grumpel fingers crossed for you too. I'm sure your frostie will be perfect.

Stealth I can't believe you're having another scan already! Time is going quick (I bet not for you).

Thank you all for the support. GRUMPEL you got it right when you said I'm trying to self preserve. It is easier to tell yourself it's gone wrong and get used to it. Rather than be positive and have it all come crashing down.

Been spotting for 6 days now. But was sick earlier so have that tiny bit of hope. 3 days until my scan.

Well that's me done! I am PUPO!!! One grade1 HB on board! Everything went smoothly and acupuncture before transfer was really relaxing. It's made me feel so sleepy. I'm having post-transfer acupuncture in 30 mins and then the plan is to watch some stand-up comedy on Netflix with DH.
The only slight disappointment was that my lining remains at 8mm but the Dr said that its good enough, and there's nothing I can do about it now anyhow, so I've just got to trust in my body.
Feel so pleased now it's done.
Your turn next Grumpel!

We all do that self-preservation thing Vixx It's only natural xxx

Stealth that scan is coming round fast! Nervewracking but exciting times X

Congratulations

Are you ready for the ride of the 2ww

Congratulations rose! Don't worry my lining was just over 8mm at transfer too - the progesterone compacts it so it will have plumped up more and then come back down. Excited for you!!

grumpel hope all going smoothly for you too

vixx hang in there. Crossing everything for you for Friday.

Believe it or not it'll be 3 weeks between scans. Not moving fast at ALL for me. I feel like if Monday is positive I can maybe start to relax a teeny bit - but tbh am assuming it's all going to come crashing down at the moment. Self preservation is right!