WANTED- cycle buddies who are ttc#1 and planning a FET in April/May

[RoseBud2016]

I'm in need of some buddies!

A long story short is that I have been ttc#1 for 19 months now. I have severe PCOS and don't ov or cycle naturally.
Last year I was told that DH and I would only have a chance of conceiving through IVF, after numerous other fertility treatments failed.

In February this year we had our first ISCI IVF cycle at Reprofit in the Czech Republic (DH has 2 DDs so we are not eligible for treatment on the NHS) We got 12 eggs, 8 fertilised and 6 made it to blasts! We had one transferred and fell pregnant! But at 4+4 blood tests confirmed that the pregnancy wasn't viable and at 5 weeks we had a very early mc (I hate the phrase CP as I think it trivialises it)

The last few weeks have been such a struggle physically and mentally but we are keen to try again so are planning another trip to Reprofit to be reunited with one of our Frosties!

Scared and excited in equal measures and would love some buddies to share in this new and unknown part of the 'journey' with. X

Honestly Grumpel I sometimes feel like there is no point in spending time putting pants on with the amount on dates with dildocam I have!
I only had my last one last week.... and I'm pretty sure Reprofit will ask me to have another one mid next wk!

Even DH is getting jealous at how much action dildocam gets
Joy!

Hehe at dildocam action. It did occur to me at my scan yesterday that touches every piece of wood in the room if all goes well that might have been my last one for a little bit.

rose have you asked whether reprofit will prescribe lubion? It's the same as the gestone but you can stab subcutaneously (ie in the stomach like we do with stims) and is not in oil so you don't get all the unpleasant side effects. I'm on it at the moment instead of gestone and it's really easy (not least because you can inject yourself), I think they don't tend to prescribe it as it's new and so not first to mind, but could be worth a try?

grumpel wooh, ramping up with the opks! Don't envy you the furniture buying at all. Hope the end is in sight.

Exciting times on this thread ladies.

Not forgetting simmy, am thinking of you and hoping you are getting the support you need irl

Grumpel I don't understand the natural cycle either?

Rose what is it called that's giving you the nausea?

I went to work but couldn't do much. Just constantly googling!

How is everyone?

Stealth are you feeling better now after your scan?
I missed the last page for some reason.

I also hope Simmy is still around and is ok x
Rose why is it injections? I have the pessaries twice a day.

Yes I am feeling better vixx (wouldn't be hard) although still very nervous! I don't think ill settle until I see that 12 week scan tbh.

Injections are just different way of delivering progesterone. I'm on them as I wasn't absorbing the pessaries properly. When you go in for your blood test they'll check your progesterone and adjust the dosage if they think you need it

Stealth I have my PIO injections ready and waiting at home now, but will definitely ask about the Lubion for a future cycle if I need one. Has your spotting stopped now?

Vixx Aww I bet! Bless you.
I didn't get on very well with the pessaries. And felt a lot of the meds were seeping out so asked to do injections instead this cycle. But I may have to add the pessaries in as well if my progesterone levels aren't high enough. Double the fun!

Ah! You're so organised. Nice work. Lucky DH

I haven't had anymore spotting since Saturday. Was going to tempt fate by wearing white trousers to work today but decided against it

How is everyone doing. Threads gone quiet again!

Simmy hope you are doing ok?

Rose you ready for tomorrow?

Grumpel where are you at?

Stealth hope you have had a more relaxing week now you know your little munchkin is doing well

Howdy. Hope everyone is busy growing babies/ linings!

Had my first FET-check scan today. Some follies at 11mm, some smaller so no dominant one yet. Lining 4.3mm which is not bad for having just shed it . Back again on Monday to check progress- they expect me to ov around Tues/Wed so then it's back on the drugs which I picked up today. They also added in prednisolone as sort of a buy-two-get-one-free sort of thing along with the progesterone and Clexane (obvs not actually free, sadly). Feel ok about the belt and braces approach on this in ref to the MMC, but scared shitless about having to do the 2ww again soon!

Good luck for your scan tomorrow, rose!

Hey Vixx Have you managed to restrain yourself from testing again? How are you feeling?

I'm as ready for my scan as I can be! Just really hope my lining is looking ok so far! I'll be cd8 tomoz.

Grumpel 4.3mm on cd7 is good going I reckon! Have you got any nice plans for the weekend to keep your mind off of Monday's scan?

I've had lots of odd cramping and nausea over the last few days- if I wasn't an infertile I would question my 'symptoms' but it must just be the meds Hopefully the scan tomorrow can put my mind at rest that my body IS doing what it's supposed to.

Sounds good Grumpel. Stick in here for the 2 ww you're in good company!

Hey Rose , what time is your appointment tomorrow? Medication making you feel a bit sick already. Hopefully that's a sign of it working!

I am going to test again tomorrow. I have 1 frer left. The spotting has stopped but I am just panicking now (again ). I have got really sore boobs (but less today ) feeling sick and really tired. Dry mouth and really thirsty. I can't believe symptoms are showing already. Have a migraine too but in the back of my mind I think it could have been a false result.

I think every step there are worries and what ifs. Don't think it will ever let up!

That all sounds very promising Vixx but I understand your worry.

It's just such a shame that each of our experiences mean that we have to carefully manage our expectations all the time.

It's taken away this 'pregnancy innocence' that so many people have. Now it is unlikely there will ever be a time, whether ttc or pregnant, where we don't worry that somethings going to change or go wrong.

But today you are pregnant and I have everything crossed that tomorrow shows a nice darkening double line on the FRER to ease your worries. Only 5 sleeps until OTD for you now! X

Rose that's true. You can't relax because you think something is going to go wrong as it has before.

If the link is darker tomorrow then I can relax until Tuesday.

Hope there is some positive news for you tomorrow!

Scan is at 2pm and DH is coming with me

Glad you have some company!

Rose it's so true that all the innocent joy of pregnancy has been siphoned away from us and we'll never be able to just relax and enjoy it. I think it's actually one of the very worst things about this whole process for me. I look at all the actual thousands of friends merrily going through easy, straightforward pregnancies where they have sex a few times, get a positive test, have the 12-week scan where of course there's a healthy, live baby in there, tell everyone smugly on Facebook , have the baby six months later etc, and feel such all-encompassing envy that it's really that simple for them. I get properly bitter.

Imagine having vixx's extremely positive-sounding symptoms and not constantly thinking of all the things that can possibly go wrong but just being happy! Lucky them.

Anyway. I'm really pleased to hear you feel a bit physically pants, vixx! All good stuff. Hope the test shows a lovely dark line for you to alleviate the panic for twenty minutes or so.

Grumpel very true. I would love to live in that naive world where I could plan which month my child will be born in and that every thing is fine and nothing will ever go wrong. A world where sex leads to a baby. I literally can't believe that.

Panicking about Tuesday now. Every time a symptom stops then I start the negative process again. So glad to know I'm not alone!

Good luck today rose! Hope that lining is fattening up nicely.

grumpel 4.3mm sounds good to me. Good luck with the opks don't envy you at all

Completely agree about the loss of innocence with pregnancy. I can't believe how stressful the first tri has been. And as I look forward to antenatal I keep thinking "well the 20w scan could show something dreadful", "what if there's a problem with the placenta" - just oodles of things to go wrong. Cannot imagine falling pregnant and just assuming everything would be ok. Sigh....

vixx keeping everything crossed your little bundle is snuggling in nicely.

Have you been booked in for the 12 week now?

I feel a teeny bit better after taking a test this morning.

Rose let us know how it goes. Fingers crossed.

Yes I'm having the panorama test at 10w (even though I don't strictly need it as have had the genetic screening pre implantation) which will include a scan, and then 12w scan after that. Haven't registered with NHS or antenatal yet, must get on with that. Still nervous and not believing it's going to go the distance!

What is the panorama scan?

When will you sort out your booking in appointment!

Panorama is just a non invasive genetic screening test. It also allows you to identify the sex of the baby. A bit like the harmony test.

Not sure if I will even have a booking in - do I need it if my antenatal care is going to be private? Need to sort that out.

Hmm not sure. Are you having your delivery private too?

Vixx that's an awesome line!