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[tillyann2013]

After 5 years of secondary infertility we are at the start of our first IVF cycle. Nervous and a little bit excited at the same time. Will start buserlin this evening. Anyone else due to start?

How annoying men really don't seem to get the pressure of all this! Fingers crossed that you get a prescription today! Are you due to take you trigger Monday or are you have a scan to see?

He thinks I always look at things negatively and he is prob right. But it is quite a big deal isn't it? The pharmacy is closed here today, there's a chemist open in town but I doubt they'll have it. Can't get it anyway with a script. I have a scan at 8.30 tomorrow so worst case, I just take the 287.5 I have and hope for the best.

It is quite a big deal, yes! Of course it would send you into a spin. If it makes you feel any better about not being exact with amounts, on my last day of Buserelin I worked out I'd been giving myself a slight overdose every day by mistake by loading the syringe a bit wrong. Whoops! Didn't seem to have made any difference though so hopefully the same will be true for you.

Ooh - lemonade, did you have another scan today? How was everything?

I've managed to speak to one of the fertility docs who is on call and he's written me a prescription. Thank goodness. Just totally blown at my husband though who said 'see, now what was all the fuss about' I've told him that is not helpful and he says you always think the worst. That's me I'm afraid, I can't help it and I said do you think I like getting upset like that you prick?! All sorted now though.
How did your scan go this morn lemonade?

Glad to hear it's all sorted Tilly! It's totally understandable that you were worried about the doseage, so much of this process is out of our control, you just want to do what you can do, correctly!

Scan went well and I have the trigger- ovitrelle tonight! Egg collection will be Tuesday. I'm really excited but at the same time telling myself not to be incase anything goes wrong. I've also go a prescription of cabergoline, in case of OHSS. The side effects of this are hilarious- compulsive gambling, binge eating and uncontrollable shopping! Not sure how I'd be able to tell if I got that last one!

How are you feeling Littlepoot?

Wow - what great sounding drugs lemonade! What symptoms have they told you to look out for before you take them? I'm feeling way more uncomfortable this time than I remember from last time but I'm pretty sure it's just swelling and fluid rather than ohss. Well and coming back from egg collection and eating all the chocolate in the house probably didn't help... But I think because I'm peeing all the time and not feeling sick I'm safe - does that sound right to you?

Phone call today to say two not looking great but the others are still growing well. I wish I could just fast forward to Thursday afternoon - the waiting is so hard.

Good luck with triggering tonight lemonade and hope you get the go ahead at your scan tomorrow Tilly.

Morning! Hope the trigger went okay lemonade? What time is your ec tomorrow?
And hope you're not feeling too uncomfortable little poot? How are you feeling? I think the waiting is one of the worst parts I guess? I'm hoping that when it's our turn we'll be busy doing the touristy bits in London so will keep my mind occupied. Doubt it though!
Did one of you recommend headspace? I tried it last night and def felt more relaxed, will try again tonight. I can feel my anxiety creeping up though as I tend to get snappy and irritable with everyone. Oops. Is rescue remedy okay to take ?
Hope I get the green light to trigger at the scan this morning. Have a good day xxx

I meant to ask, when it comes to ec, what do you wear / bring to the hospital? Do you get straight into a gown or do I need dressing gown / slippers etc? And I guess you're quite tender after so something loose maybe? All these things keeping me awake at night

Great you enjoyed Headspace - the guy's voice is just so calming isn't it? I should get back into it too. I think I'd leave off the rescue remedy if you can. Does it say anything about taking when pregnant? I guess if it's OK in pregnancy then it's probably ok but if you can hold off until they get those eggs out then do.

Feeling much better actually today. I literally couldn't stop peeing yesterday afternoon so I think I've flushed out all the excess fluid. Good job really because dh is away for work all this week so I have to solo parent for a few days. It means he'll be away for embryo transfer if we get that far which is a bit rubbish. I'll worry about that if we get that far.

I just wore normal stuff to go in for collection. They gave me a gown and slippers when I arrived then once you're up and about you can change back. I brought my bigger jeans not my skinnies, but to be honest I was already pretty bloated by then!

Hope the trigger injection was ok lemonade? And hope your scan goes well Tilly.

Trigger done! It was absolutely fine and I'm happy to not have any injections today. EC is 7am tomorrow so an unpleasant early morning but I'm hoping that means I'll be to tired to stress about it. I had an awful dream last night about EC, and it's left me feeling really uneasy I might try headspace tonight, see if that helps me relax.I am so bloated and uncomfortable that I have resorted to an elasticated waist band today!

Regarding OHSS they haven't told me what to look out for just said that I am at risk, due to number of follicles and estrogen levels. So I started the tablets yesterday as a precaution. But I didn't gable uncontrollably last night so not sure if they're doing anything

I've been reading about how to prevent OHSS and the main thing is lots of fluids, drinks with electrolytes, coconut water, and salty snacks. But I'm Glad to hear your feeling better today Little and it's a good sign that' you're peeing lots you need to start worrying if you retain water.

My OH might be away for embryo transfer too (if we get that far) which I already feel worried about. To be honest I have found this whole thing to be bit of a lonely process and that would just top things off.

Tilly- fingers crossed for your scan today and that you can trigger tonight!

Little- fingers crossed they embryos are looking good today!

7am - ouch! Hope you don't have too far to travel? Sorry you've been having nightmares about it. Do you know yet if you'll be having any kind of sedation? I obviously have no idea how it feels given that I was out for the whole thing, but it's pretty quick and afterwards I've not had any actual pain - just bloating and general discomfort. After the up the bum painkiller they so kindly administered I've not needed to take anything else. Just as you say drinking loads of water and not doing anything strenuous for a couple of days. My stomach has finally deflated this morning (and I've lost 3lb since yesterday!) so I'm almost back to normal.

I know what you mean about it being a bit of a lonely process. Apart from you two, I've not really spoken to anyone about it the whole time and I've avoided most social occasions and stuff. And sorry your dh is going away as well! But let's just hope we get that far before we start worrying about it.

Tilly - how's the scan?

Hmmm. Just had the call and now five of them have keeled over and 2 more are looking suspect. I can't remember how that compares to last time - they're explaining the information differently this time so I can't compare. But I'm a bit gutted. I know they don't expect all the healthy ones to successfully become blastocysts so if I've only got 7 healthy then that doesn't bode well.

I'm sorry to hear that Littlepoot is must be really disappointing. It's annoying that you can't compare it to last time, were you at the same clinic? If so maybe they could tell you the difference? I know it doesn't helps as you want as many embryos to test as possible but you still have 7 which is 7 chances of success, and you only need 1 good one to transfer. Do they have to be day 5 for you do do the PGD test? Or would you do a day 3 transfer? Hope your feeling ok x

Today is day 3 actually so we're looking at day 5 testing of whatever makes it that far and a day 6 transfer of anything that tests positive. I was feeling really optimistic earlier but now I'm feeling really deflated. I need to compare the numbers to the ones they gave me last time (I've got them written down at home) but actually it makes no difference because I do remember last time that the numbers looked one way at day 3 then completely changed at day 5. I'm not sure they're actually a very good predictor of outcome. Just something else to obsess over! Hope you're feeling OK about tomorrow?

I see, when you said about waiting for Thursday I got confused with what day you were on! Well only a few more days to go and 7 at day 3 not bad at all! I'm sorry your feeling deflated, I guess it's good to have these updates but it does seem to drag out the worrying, in a way it would be better for them to just call on day 5 with the final outcome. All this worrying is pretty relentless!

I'm feeling ok about tomorrow I was worried about the pain and drugs or that I've forgotten to do something crucial. But now I'm worried about the outcome, what if they don't get any eggs, what if none fertilize etc. Trying to push those thought out of my mind, and just think of the practical things, I have some kind of sedation suppository which I have to take before I get there, then I'll see an anesthetist when I arrive so hoping for some heavy sedation! Luckily it's not too far away about 45 mins in the car but maybe 30 mins as the roads will be quiet that time in the morning.

Yes - that's exactly what I thought. Although if they did only call on day 5 I'm sure we'd want to hear more! Its just a hard process whatever happens. Great that you meet the anaesthetist first thing - maybe tell him you're worried about not being able to keep still at the vital moments and see if that helps persuade him to bring out the good stuff.....

Good thinking I'll try that- I want all the drugs!

Evening girls, I'm sorry to hear you're a bit gutted little poot. I agree I think I'd rather just know on the 5th day. Hopefully you'll get good news on Thursday x

Hope you enjoyed a drug free day lemonade and best of luck for tomorrow morning.

Well I had a scan this morning and all is looking as it should. Lining good and about 8 follicles of the right size. Trigger tonight at 10pm with ec at 7am Wednesday. Flight is at 8am tomorrow and we've gone with the hotel. Nervous and a little excited too xxx

Very exciting Tilly! Good luck with the trigger tonight and safe journey tomorrow!

Fantastic Tilly! Happy triggering and hope the trip tomorrow is smooth. I'm so glad they didn't give me a 7am egg collection!! 9am was early enough. But at least it gets it out of the way so you can rest.

Thank you both, gonna try and get an early night tonight as we have an early start and I didn't sleep well last night at all.
I felt quite emotional today when I saw my consultant. He's been great and I've got to know him well in the last few years. He was really nice and wished us all the best, I had to make a hasty retreat as I was welling up!
Blinking hormones!
It's been great talking to you both too, thanks for keeping me sane along the way xxx

And me Tilly - its been great having you two to chat to through this. Hope you got a bit more sleep last night? I'm going to sleep fine but then waking up really early (like 5am) so I'm knackered too. Hope your flight goes well and your hotel is suitably lovely.

How did it go this morning lemonade?? Hope you're feeling OK? And hope they got some good eggs. I've lost another 2lb today (so 5lb in 2 days!) and feeling completely back to normal so that's good. Just worrying now about the results. From looking at the numbers, we just have one more normal looking one than we had last time but I was really hoping for more after the ridiculous supplement regime we've been on. So hard waiting another two days before we find out if it's worked. And I really don't know what to do if it doesn't.

Hey you two, we are here! Literally just arrived at the hotel, everything went swimmingly. We met my brother at gatwick and he's taken our son off to stay with them for a few days. One less pressure to worry about. He was so excited to see his cousins too so that's nice.
Going to have a mooch about this afternoon and maybe try and get a bit of shopping in!

Catch up properly later.

Hope ec went well lemonade and littlepoop it just takes one xxxx

Just go back from EC- all went well, they got 27 eggs so I'm really pleased with that, and going to try to enjoy relaxing today and not worry about tomorrow's phone call. Physically feel fine just a bit sores me tired.

Littlepoot sorry your feeling so worried, will you hear from them today at all or will you not hear now till day 5? Hopefully your supplement regime will mean that the ones you have got are excellent quality. Can't believe you lost 5lb in two days, you must have been peeing like crazy!

Tilly hope you enjoy you day in London and good luck for tomorrow!