anyone having 1st round of IVF this month

[misspz]

Hi,

Just trying to find someone who is at the same stage as myself. We have been ttc for almost 3 years now and after a lot of tests and back and forth, haven't found anything wrong, but for one reason or another we're still as childless as when we first started. And now we're finally at the stage of IVF.

Never thought we'd get here and now I'm actually getting a bit scared. I've got another 5 days of the pill. So injections will start on the 11th. So want this to go right. However not a big fan of needles, so about them too.

Anyone else who is going trough the same stage?

Just really hope 2016 is finally our year!

Pink and youdo, two on board is a great start! Let's hope they stick for you guys! Positive thinking now for us all!

Be strong keep! Just stay positive until the actual blood tests!

Pink, things might still go right, wait and see until the blood test! I know must be awful as youve come so far now!

We all have come so far, it's time we get a break isn't it?

Et postponed until today, as wanted the embryos to grow nice and strong, which they all are, strongest ones had 7 cells on Monday, so should be ready to go now! Just hope that I'm ready. My nerves got the best of me yesterday and although I've told dp he doesn't need to come and I'll be fine etc etc he is now coming anyway to ensure I get home ok.

Just keep the positive thinking going warrior women and yes maybe some meditation podcast to help us get trough!

pink let us know how you get on this morning!

grump that's much too early at 11dpo equivalent, and in the evening too! Means nothing, hang in there

Hope everyone is doing OK, I can’t wait to see the first BFPs off this thread!!

pink huge congrats! A friend was inconsolable when it was recommended she transfer two blasts because they were both such poor quality (and nothing left to freeze) - she was convinced the cycle was a bust from thereon. Well, appearance doesn’t necessarily say anything about whether the embryo is chromosomally normal, as plenty of women with top quality blasts don’t go on to conceive….and women like my friend, with ‘poor quality’ blasts, are now 11 weeks pregnant (with a healthy singleton). Hope you are having a restful 2ww

dessy hope you’re doing OK EC & ET cycle buddy. Thinking of you

youdo I thought transfer was magical. DH and I were both teary we saw the photo of our little blast on the screen, and he said it was really cool to see the flash of light on the ultrasound when it got deposited at its destination (I know it’s the culture medium and not the embryo, but still!)

Re: meditation podcasts, they are (helping to) keep me (a little bit) sane - I’ve got some great IVF cycle Mp3s, they have been absolutely brilliant to help me get off to sleep. Glad yours had the same effect!

missspz how are you doing? Excited for you!

grump and keep how are you ladies doing? grump remember it is super early!

My Dr told me to wait a ridiculous 12 days post 5 day transfer to POAS. That’s 17 dpo!!!!!

Now, obv that will hopefully avoid any doubt about a false positive (chemical) or a false negative (late implanter), but obv I will be climbing the walls, and will be working on DH by 9dp5dt to test early. Argh.

The big issue for me is my pain management, as I have chronic pain from a spinal injury (smashed my back up), which is usually controlled with a whacking great dose of morphine strength drugs . Except of course I’m now off all my pain meds (except amitriptyline which does fuck all, and OTC cocodamol which doesn’t even touch the sides) and I’m in agony

Work is not even happening right now as I’m essentially on semi bed rest, which of course is not ideal for keeping me distracted and off Google!

xx

Haha I know, I am taking the poas chastisement onboard. Ridiculously early, but as it was out of date and I would otherwise have just chucked it, I thought why not!

Hope everyone else is rocking the 2ww so far and isn't as naughty and impatient as me!

So sorry to hear you're in so much pain, banana, that truly sucks after everything else you've been through, but you've got your blast onboard and you're putting it first and doing all you can for it. Hope you have Netflix or something equally distracting to keep you off google. (Sez me, currently obsessed by twoweekwait.com) Sigh.

Yes, the embryo flash is amazing! One of my favourite bits of the whole thing (other than not having to jab Cetrotide in any more)

to all

Misspz hope transfer goes well today!
Banana, sorry to hear you're in pain, it's hard when you're forced to rest because time drags, your mind needs a distraction rather than endless googling- I second the Netflix recommendation (oh and hiding your phone!) thinking of you.
Grump, I promised DH we wouldn't test early but I don't think I have the willpower to wait... It's only been a day and I'm overanalysing every twinge.

Sorry everyone for my over dramatic last post. Quite ironic as the clinic called this morning to say there was one embryo that has had a late spurt and they think it's good enough to freeze! It makes me doubt whether the ones put back are the quality they thought but it's such an unknown science... And I'd promised myself I'd try and keep calm through this whole process but that didn't last long :) we've not told anyone this time so I really value the support and hand holding from all you lovely warrior women! Double to all xx

Will post a bit more tomorrow as trying to sort out some food I a house with no kitchen (on top of everything we're rebuilding)

Just wanted to update about today, so I have a 4aa on board which is amazing news, another 3 4aa in the freezer and one 3ab....so so much more than I could have hoped for. Now all I have to do is wait....and it'll be hard....this will truly be the worst part!

Bets of luck to you ladies in all your stages

Misspz - great news that you have one on board and backups in the freezer. Woo!

Pink - the call from the clinic sounds promising.

I had my first mopey day today. Trying to think positive thoughts but I had pmt symptoms & that worried me as it brought back memories of so many previous disappointments over the years. I started to go down the 'if you think one negative thought it won't work...' type silly thinking. I know I shouldn't read too much into it - that's over analysing, isn't it? But my mind went on a freak out including thinking I haven't seen my friends recently & that they don't like me anymore (crazy thinking). Ugh... I wish I could fast forward this bit.

Sorry for the mope - know everyone is going through their own battles. xxx

I'm actually quite scared of testing. I'm thinking of handing my pee to DH and letting him do it. Is that bad?!

Bfp!!!

Keep OMG!!! Did you poas or have the earliest morning blood test ever?

So so pleased for you! Hope this is only the start of all the bfps to come.

Poas, well two sticks! No blood test at my clinic. I have an appointment this afternoon to get more drugs and see what happens next

Will you poas in the morning grump?

Keep - that's fab news. Woowoo!

Er, might have just poas too. Holy shit. No mistaking that!

Clearly I will still do another 642 before blood test tomorrow.
Shaking like a leaf!

Yay grump!!!! Congratulations! :)

Omfg congrats ladies!! That's just the BEST news, absolutely thrilled for you. Woohoo!!!! Xx

Amazing grump and keep!!!

Let's hope the positivity is spreading!

Sorry you're feeling down youdo! I guess it happens to and from, just don't let it get to you! I know it keeps going up and down, I'm feeling very positive this morning, but then that might change in the next few days.

So happy for you ladies! Hope you'll have some smooth months ahead xx

Grump and keep- yay! Smiling ear to ear reading your fab news- yippee!

voodoo sorry you had a tough day yesterday, this whole thing is such a bloody rollercoaster. I'm the same as you, feel I have to keep positive, but then think maybe being positive jinxes things. I think the tww is by far the hardest part.

fish sorry to feel about your pain. When you get pregnant (yes when, not if) will you not be able to take anything the whole time??

misspz what wonderful news on your embies and so many frosties! I'm really interested in why they're so much better this time, I think you said last round were poor quality? Did you have a different protocol? There's sure to be a baby or two in there for you. Good luck and rest up

pink great you have a sibling in the freezer too ;) am sure that's a good sign for your ones on board too

fish and voodoo I thought the white dot was the embryo

And youdo, you're not alone in feeling like that. I have those moments too. It might sound daft but have you tried keeping a diary/journal? I always find that the act of writing down all the silly thoughts and putting pen to paper helps to stop things going round and round in my mind. And as hippyish as it sounds, give yourself permission to think non-positive thoughts. If you try and push them down they'll only pop up elsewhere. I had a session with the clinic counsellor and she gave me a good idea around allocating a set time to worry. So I set my timer for 15 minutes, worry away, and then immediately afterwards distract myself with something.

Voodoo I just wanted I add to what pink says about allowing yourself to feel mopey if you need to some days. It's a bloody stressful thing we're all going through, and even more so once the blast is in and there's nothing more we can do. Hope you're feeling better today.

And just catching up on other posts... excellent news on all your* frosties, miss*, that's such an amazing number to have in your back pocket, as it were.
Also so glad to hear your positive news, pink! Well done that embie on its growth spurt. Did it get to the freezer?

Am sat quietly freaking out at work and getting nothing done. Rang DH straight after poas to tell him the news but he was at his desk and just said 'oh' and 'mmm-hmm' a lot. I imagine he's also quietly freaking out. Have left the FRER on his pillow to show
him later (with cap ON, of course )

Yay for you as well Grump! Woo!

Thanks for the kind words. I had eczema on my hands today = sign of stress so will try not to be hard on myself & force the positive so much Been a much better day today.

I've come down with a cold and somehow managed to convince myself at 4am that it's my NK cells attacking the embryos, which I realise is daft! Didn't sleep a wink after that and now I'm at work clock watching. Will I be ok to take OTC flu/cold medicines?

Take only paracetamol pink. I think a cold is a good sign - your immune system is lowered and will let those embies in!

Argh pink the 4am panicky brain is a terrible thing! Hope you're not too under the weather.

I've had really strong cramping/pulling 2-4am for the last two nights, enough to wake me, which is most annoying- know it is normal (well I do when it's not 4am of course) but come on, can't it wait till a more sensible time of day?!

Keep how are you feeling? Has it sunk in yet?

Hope everyone else is doing well and (mostly) thinking positive thoughts.
Banana hoping you're feeling ok especially, you on bedrest for the foreseeable? Xxx

cor missspz what an amazing haul!! That’s absolutely bloody brilliant, thrilled for you. When are you due to test?

youdo big hugs, it’s so tough. My consultant said negative thinking absolutely wouldn’t affect the ultimate outcome, though it would likely make the 2ww more miserable. I can totally relate, I find the hypno/relaxation MP3s very helpful for this, especially at night to help me switch off washing machine brain

keep how are you feeling post BFP? So exciting! If I get pregnant, I’m not allowed to take my meds in a first trimester, but would be allowed in a second/third trimester. I actually first went to my consultant not for IVF, but for pre TTC advice about implications of my meds and health conditions on TTC and pregnancy (and to understand the pathway for Clomid for my PCOS as we thought I still had….). He referred me to a colleague of his who quite literally wrote the book on prescribing in pregnancy, a specialist in the management of maternal medical disorders (apparently only one of 6 consultant obstetric physicians in the country?!) He was actually far more interested in my epilepsy management (yes I am quite a complicated medical patient!), and said to come back and see him asap if I got pregnant. I think even if this one doesn’t stick, we might consider going back to see him to see him to see what, if anything, might be reasonable for our next 2ww. We shall see.

grump how are you and DH? So excited for you! Hope the cramping at least moves to a more civilised hour….!

pink my friends who have immunes issues would all say a cold was a GOOD thing - they are worried they feel far too fit and healthy and that their immunes treatments aren’t working. Paracetamol is absolutely fine - wouldn’t take anything else (and definitely not ibuprofen)

I’m on semi bedrest, bingeing on Netflix a go go, plodding on. Would swear AF was coming as I’m feeling quite crampy in a period-y kind of way (oh, and spotty!), two friends say this is a good sign as they were convinced their period was on its way the week before they got their IVF BFPs, but I think it’s just the blasted progesterone playing tricks. That’s what everyone seems to say, so despite what they say, I’m not reading anything into it (she says, secretly hoping it’s some kind of mythical implantation cramps )