Assisted conception after recurrent miscarriage part 6

[Arianrhod]

Part 5 here : www.mumsnet.com/Talk/infertility/a1852840-Assisted-conception-after-recurrent-miscarriage-part-5

Hi everyone, this is suemays.

On holiday in Portugal and couldn't remember my login password so had to do a new username.
Just wanted to say pebbles so sorry to you and DH but please don't give up, where there's eggs you still have a chance. I know you won't feel lucky now but at least you can harvest lots of eggs so it's not the end of the road for you. You are bound to think its all over but don't they say it takes in average three goes at ivf? Maybe you should try a tandem round where they use yours and a de eggs? Take care and try to keep strong. We are all thinking of you. Xx

Pebbles I'm so sorry. Just wanted to second what sue said - don't give up now. You still have those grade 1 frosties, and IVF is not always or even often successful first time around. Hope you and DH can have a peaceful weekend regrouping and finding hope going forwards! In my thoughts xx

Oh Pebbles so sorry

Thanks ladies but ths was the fifth go and if you include all the frozen rounds we have done as well it means we have had it means this was the eighth lot we have put back. Will do the frozen ones although will probably have to be next year as no holiday left and then call it a day.

I don't think I will be coming on here much anymore as I feel like I need to move on and get used to the idea that it is probably not going to happen for us. We have given it neatly 11 yrs now and just don't have any energy left for this. Thank you all for your support over the last couple I years and I hope you all get your babies one way or another.xxx

So sad pebbles. You had drummed up enough strength to try in Athens and was ready for donor egg after Ari success. Such a journey for you. Perhaps next year you may be ready to put the frozen ones back and also a donor egg which would be a different scenario entirely. Who knows. I feel for you both l really do. Wishing you all the strength in the world.

pebbles I'd no idea you'd been through so much already. You are very brave. I really hope next year brings good news xx

Oh Pebbles I am so sorry for you and your DH, I was so hopeful for you. You have been through a tremendous amount and you must feel so drained and exhausted by everything. You have the reassurance of knowing that you have the frosties so can really take your time to gather your strength and decide what the future holds. Thinking of you.

Hysteroscopy for me at Hammersmith tomorrow gulps

Pebbles, I'm so sorry. I've just got back from Brighton where we were computerless and this is the first thing I checked to see how you got on. I would echo what Sue says. Where there are still eggs, there is hope. Even a year down the line may bring some new development or improvement or insight that may mean success at a later date. The fact that you've got frosties gives you time to really think about what you want to do - maybe even surrogacy?
In the mean time, I totally understand your need to get away from all of this. We're all here for you if you want to come back at any time, and are thinking of you. We wish you well whatever route you go down. xx

pebbles I've just seen your news. I'm so very sorry. :( I hear completely what you're saying that you've had enough but just wondered if you've had Penny's take on it yet? I know you've already been through so many cycles but your previous ones weren't necessarily with an 'optimal' 'baby room' were they? Remember my first cycle at Serum didn't work, and I know it often takes more than one go to get success. Having said that I fully understand if you've had enough, and huge hugs to you - there was so much hope pinned on this cycle. Take care of yourself whatever you decide, and remember we're always here for you. xxx

BeL

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Belly good luck today, hope all goes well.
Sorry for previous posts, my phone was playing up

Belly hope you're ok after hysterscopy
Pebbles thinking of you too. In Fuerteventura at mo and wifi is a fortune here so I'll have lots of feeds to catch up on! Think oh is up for a cycle of ivf so that's good , it's been good to have chance to talk! X waves to all

Great news, Mel. Have you ever had IVF before?
Day 12 and a positive opk. All other signs this cycle are normal so far, so as long as this positive opk goes negative in the next day or so, I should be back to normal!

belly How did it go with your hysto? Hope you're recovered from the GA.

mel That is good news! And how is Fuerteventura? We could see it from Lanzarote, I suspect you are having a lot less wind than we did. I won't be going back to Lanzarote, that's for sure - wind 24x7!

brown Also good news, right ... any idea how come your cycle has gone back to normal, did you stop/start anything in particular? (sorry if I've missed something)

/waves to everyone and big hugs especially to pebbles

Oh dear, Ari, I don't remember Lazorote being particularly windy when we were there but that was a while ago.

Well, I have 2 theories about my cycle. Either the problem was caused by a cyst that was preventing ovulation which eventually corrected itself.

Or melatonin was reducing my LH which meant my body was continually trying to ovulate but not able to achieve a peak high enough, resulting, paradoxically, in continuous almost positive opks. My oestrogen levels continued to rise for weeks until the endometrium eventually broke down causing a withdrawal bleed of 2 days (my chart said I had ovulated before this but I don't believe it because there were various factors that could have faked my high temps, and they weren't as high as usual or as consistent).
Then the withdrawal bleed somehow allowed a real LH peak to take place, albeit during that bleed. I ovulated, had a 14-day luteal phase, a 5-day heavy AF, followed by this new cycle.
And yes, I did reduce melatonin to 0.5mg at some point, from 1mg. Within the last month.
How are you?

Can't believe I just wrote an essay on my latest theory and it disappeared ... will write it again when I've mustered up the energy ...

Oh no, now it appeared again!

Brown same here today, finally the bloody OPK turned positive Day 17! Well 2 out of 3 did - was testing a few of them as didn't have IC this month - superdrug and ASDA ones have a strong second line while boots one still only half strenght... Well think 2 out of 3 are right.
When shall we start doing pregnancy ones?
Mel it's great that your DH is happy to try IVF ( having said that maybe there will be no need after 2 weeks on Fuerteventura )
Ari I used to live on Tenerife for a while and remember the wind - it was so hot there though that that the wind was actually really pleasant... You can see that I don't like hot weather
Pebbles don't know if you still read this but I just wanted to say that I am thinking about you a lot. It must be so disappointing for you especially after all those years of TTC and all the hysteroscopies and medications etc. Hope you'll feel better soon and maybe start thinking about next year FET. Did Penny suggest any changes to your treatment plan?

Hi all. Hysto went well, thanks. Saw the post op pics and I did have a septum plus scar tissue, so i now have 2 coils in and hrt for six weeks whilst healing. The specialist was fab and said the healing is as important as the op.Will have another saline scan or hystogram x-ray to check it has healed properly before we get the thumbs up to try again. At home feeling a bit wiped out from the anaesthetic, but no pain and not much bleeding either.

Pebbles still thinking of you and hope you are looking after yourself/getting stuck into the wine.

Mel good news re: ivf. It must be a relief to have your oh on board with the whole idea.

Brown glad your cycle seems to have returned to normal. Perhaps it was the melatonin after all.

Ari and Duggs how are you both doing? Is the time passing quickly for you both or are you just taking things day by day?

Waves to everyone else

Great news, Belly. So what's the idea behind the coils and HRT?

Sorry, Nanny, I missed your post. Don't the opks you get from Superdrug and Boots cost you a fortune? I use the 50 for £7 from Amazon/ebay.
Normally I'd be worrying that a positive opk on day 12 was a little early but compared with day 3 last month it's eminently normal.
I'll be testing from about 7dpo! :)
What's IC?

Belly great news, 6 weeks will go fast, hope the hrt and coils won't give you any problems.
brown yes that's what I use normally but am so disorganized this month and ran out of them ( by ic I meant amazon ones).
I am keen on checking my progesteron level this month just can't figure out when - can only go on tue or fri next week - what would you suggest? I don't temp either as work quite a lot of nights so it's tricky. So if I ovulate tomorrow it will be either 6 or 9dpo. Guess 6 is better, no?