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Hut of Gl/Doom, lost count of the number coz its been so long - optimists need not apply!

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OracleInaCoracle · 07/08/2011 10:51

Couldn't find the hut but in dire need of a hideout away from all those "its been 2 months" and "am I pregnant" threads.

For those of us who've been burnt by ttc, can't get pregnant, can't stay pregnant or are sick of hearing the "just relax" refrain.

Leave your hope at the door and grab a gin, we are back in the speakeasy with meths on tap!

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MiniH · 16/08/2011 07:38

Wow havealittlefaith - that's harder work than being at work!

We got the repeat SA back yesterday and we have a slight improvement - hooray! Still too slow but morphology has improved which gives me hope we may be able to have iui instead of ivf. Let's see what the consultant says tomorrow.

havealittlefaithbaby · 16/08/2011 08:55

Ah mini that's good news! Will be interested to hear what consultant says.
Yes I an shattered today but a more chilled day. Just more gardening Hmm . Did have a lie in though.
Ironically despite not 'trying' had 'sff' but DH doesn't realise I'm potentially fertile! (Don't want to put too much pressure on him).

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OracleInaCoracle · 16/08/2011 16:37

Hello all, hope you are well, and welcome to newcomers. CD24 here, 14dpo and period is due today (based on last few months. So waiting. Another pg announcement has been made. So that makes me the only one from my original circle of mothers who has failed to produce a sibling. And tomorrow we go over to mils (its sil's bf who is UTD) and I will have to be happy for them, and gracious, and not at all bitter.

Fuck.

And I'm still ill.

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OracleInaCoracle · 16/08/2011 16:37

Hello all, hope you are well, and welcome to newcomers. CD24 here, 14dpo and period is due today (based on last few months. So waiting. Another pg announcement has been made. So that makes me the only one from my original circle of mothers who has failed to produce a sibling. And tomorrow we go over to mils (its sil's bf who is UTD) and I will have to be happy for them, and gracious, and not at all bitter.

Fuck.

And I'm still ill.

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PicknMix · 16/08/2011 19:54

Still ill Lissie? That's not good, especially if you're having to play the part of gracious SIL. It's so tough to have to put on an act.

We have DN (niece - 16months old) to stay for two nights. We've done Snuggle Bunny book 5 times now and she's showing no signs of sleepiness. Reminds me of what we want and can't have. She's adorable and I can see the pain in my dh's eyes as he's trying to rock her to sleep.

Wish us luck for the night - it could be a long one!

havealittlefaithbaby · 16/08/2011 22:26

Today I have cleaned both fridges (no mean feat I tell you) and spent four hours in the garden before doing 'bootcamp' at the gym bit like being tortured seriously hardcore. I've been in the bath my muscles are complaining!
I know what you mean pick I love love LOVE Dnephew! He is adorable and loves me but particularly DH :) we have him overnight at times. He's super cute but sometimes highlights what we're mussn

havealittlefaithbaby · 16/08/2011 22:27

Today I have cleaned both fridges (no mean feat I tell you) and spent four hours in the garden before doing 'bootcamp' at the gym bit like being tortured seriously hardcore. I've been in the bath but my muscles are complaining!
I know what you mean pick I love love LOVE Dnephew! He is adorable and loves me but particularly DH :) we have him overnight at times. He's super cute but sometimes highlights what we're missing. We decided to try when he was four months old, he's two next month :(

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OracleInaCoracle · 17/08/2011 17:10

Well, I'm still ill. Not food poisoning though, got a bfp this afternoon. Fucking hell. Wish I could be happy, and a bfp=baby.

Two weeks of waiting.

Hope you are all well. Faith, good work on the cleaning! for pick x

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havealittlefaithbaby · 17/08/2011 18:10

Aw Lissie, I'd started to wonder..we'll be here to hold your hand through the next few weeks. It's a weird situation isn't it? It should be congratulations, it's what you're trying for bit at the same time I know all you're going to do us worry about history repeating itself. I will pray with all my might for a sticky bean and that it's different this time. Will they refer you.back to a consultant?
I'm enjoying my birthday so far. been to the seaside and played adventure golf. had a slushy on the beach. bottle of bubbly in bed ;) DH twigged that I'm fertile and said 'well hey we may as well give it a shot after all'. Not going to get over excited though.Hmm nope, no hopes up here at all. not imagining the joy of conceiving on my birthday and getting a bfp on our wedding anniversary. that would be crazy...

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OracleInaCoracle · 17/08/2011 19:03

Thank you, happy birthday, sounds like a wonderful day. I'm a bit shocked. We only had sex once because we were on holiday! But the line is darker than the test line and came up straight away. Its thin, but a bfp according to the helpline.

I am so scared.

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OracleInaCoracle · 17/08/2011 19:03

Thank you, happy birthday, sounds like a wonderful day. I'm a bit shocked. We only had sex once because we were on holiday! But the line is darker than the test line and came up straight away. Its thin, but a bfp according to the helpline.

I am so scared.

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PicknMix · 17/08/2011 20:02

Happy birthday Faith! Sounds like lovely way to spend your birthday!

Lissie, it really is a crazy situation for you. As Faith says, should be offering you congratulations but we understand how scared you are. We're here to hand hold for the next few weeks.

I'm being fairly ridiculous and knickers watching. Af not due for a week but old habits die hard and I've somehow got it into my head that the laws of fate will work for me - bfp just before I'm due to start ivf? Of course! Cos that's what all the "my auntie twice removed got pregnant just before her treatment was supposed to start" stories say isn't it? Bit like you Faith - bfp from birthday sex, testing on your anniversary, surely that's got to be a surefire twist of fate?

Unhut like but fingers, toes and everything else crossed for all.

broccolitrees · 18/08/2011 00:11

hello......
it's been a while.....
haven't read the whole thread; just looking in to say hi, see how you're all doing, and hmmmmmm.....? but not going any further than "hmmmmmmm.....?" at the minute as still in 2ww (do you still use those acronyms - it's been that long of a while Hmm)
quiet hand squeeze to lissie
probably will be loitering here for a little while yet; hope no-one minds, like lissie said in the opener "just need somewhere to hide for a bit"

havealittlefaithbaby · 18/08/2011 07:21

Hey broccoli, grab a pew :)

MiniH · 18/08/2011 07:30

I'm officially back to disillusioned and bitter after seeing consultant yesterday. To cut a long story short, she pretty much dismissed my dh's SA as the issue, even though she acknowledged in another sentence that there were issues there, and so treated us like unexplained infertility. Told me that 15 months wasn't that long to try, lots of couples take two years and that far too soon to throw towel in and go for assisted, so we should just keep on trying till at least two year mark. Very reluctantly agreed to allow me to have my tubes flushed, as she doesn't see anything to suggest they are blocked (hmm, well the lack of a bfp might suggest there's something wrong!) anyway, went to book appointment for that as yesterday was cd1 and they told me they had nothing this month but to try again next month - but what are the odds of them having any next month, as it's not like you can book it till cd1. Grrrrr, rant, bloody useless system. And to top it off dh couldn't come with me and then asked why I hadn't asked all these other questions which he wanted to know the answers to.

Sorry, long rant.

Fx for you lissie.

queenrollo · 18/08/2011 08:21

morning girls.

fingers crossed for you lissie

Well i'm drinking tea like it's going out of fashion - trying to fill my bladder for my 9am appt for ultrasound scan. If it's anything like it was when I was pg with DS then they will be running late and i'll be sat fidgeting and dying for a wee Hmm
Should also get the results of my blood tests today.
I'm in that camp now of 'do i want them to find something wrong or not' - right now i feel like I do want them to discover a problem, one that can be fixed - because just being told 'it's one of those things' is not a pleasant thought.

will update when i get home

queenrollo · 18/08/2011 09:46

that was quick! (i do live very close to the hospital so not much travelling time)

I sat in the waiting room, busting for a wee and the nurse called me into a side room and told me it was an internal examination and I needed to empty my bladder.

I knew that would happen.

Anyway - i didn't get my blood results because the Gynae I saw said it isn't his field and he didn't want to interpret them wrong. I have to wait for an appt to come through from my consultant. He did say that the results of my scan would be sent to cons. for him to check properly but that he hadn't found anything untoward. Womb looks good, and ovaries look healthy, decent endo lining etc.

Obviously it's good that my bits are all in working order - but still.....why am i not getting pregnant Sad

havealittlefaithbaby · 18/08/2011 10:29

Well at least it's progress queen. Ikwym about wanting/not wanting them to find something....easier when it's treatable but it really is good news that plumbing is all in order. Are you able to.just relax now? I felt a bit wiped when is had done what you did.
Hey Lissie how are you feeling today?

queenrollo · 18/08/2011 10:58

i feel fine havealittle i'm waiting for AF to arrive next week then I have to phone and try and get an appt for the HSG. It's that one that i'm really not looking forward to if I'm honest.

duchesse · 18/08/2011 11:07

Ah lissie, I'm thinking of you v hard.

Hello to everyone else.

queenrollo · 18/08/2011 11:08

By the way the gynea seems sure i ovulated this cycle and from the right ovary as he could see the corpus luteum. I actually had a junior doctor sit in on my examination and so i got a pretty full on description of what was going on as he was explaining it all to her in depth. He checked my right ovary first, then left and then went back to the right to show her exactly where the cl was and told her I would have ovulated on that side and that the cl was obvious and a good size. He also said I had very visible follicles on both ovaries.
It all sounded very positive which I am glad about but still - i wonder why my bosy isn't doing what it should. Hoping the HSG will shed some light......

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OracleInaCoracle · 18/08/2011 18:40

Thanks all. I've been freaking out today. Just waiting for everything to go wrong. I can't seem to concentrate on anything! But I am still vomitous and sobby, so that's something. Bit crampy though.

Broccoli, sorry you still need the hut. Queenrollo, sorry you couldn't get an answer.
Mini, that's awful!

Duchesse.... Xxxxx I've missed you!

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havealittlefaithbaby · 18/08/2011 19:23

Lissie bless you.
queen that does sound pretty positive. Things are moving forward at least.
Well we've seen the GP about DH's high prolactin level. He needs a referral to an endocrinologist to establish why it's so high. GP was at least encouraging because whether it's a thyroid or tumour it should be treatable then his sa should improve. Should be feeling positive. Instead I just want to cry :(

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OracleInaCoracle · 18/08/2011 21:20

Oh faith

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OracleInaCoracle · 18/08/2011 21:20

Oh faith

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