Hut of Gl/Doom, lost count of the number coz its been so long - optimists need not apply!

[OracleInaCoracle]

Couldn't find the hut but in dire need of a hideout away from all those "its been 2 months" and "am I pregnant" threads.

For those of us who've been burnt by ttc, can't get pregnant, can't stay pregnant or are sick of hearing the "just relax" refrain.

Leave your hope at the door and grab a gin, we are back in the speakeasy with meths on tap!

I'm routing for u queen! What a nice way to enter 2012 no such luck for me tho hehe still no AF but with a prof level of 1.2 7 days post shot im sure it will be here soon. I feel fine (if a little larger thanks to the christmas season)

Fingers crossed I'm not doing anything either tonight do I'll sit tight and wait for ur post! O and by the way, they should do a test on the day of the procedure to make sure before they go poking around they did when I had my lap and dye done!

i do have a stick for the morning, but I probably won't do it. I'd rather wait for the phone call if it doesn't come tonight.

I have DS here and he's keeping me busy, but it's hard not saying anything to DH! He's full of cold and I don't think he could cope with the rollercoaster. better that I deal with it myself I think.

Once again though this hospital demonstrates that the Consultants are arses who see patients as numbers while the nursing staff are absolute stars who are worth their weight in chocolate. The phlebotomist said she didn't normally rush through HCG tests, but had a word with someone more senior who agreed to do it. I've been swabbed for MRSA, and asked a million questions and then when she waved me off the nurse said she hoped she could phone me with good news.

to Pink. I'm sick of staring at the mountain of Christmas food we still have left. And we really don't go overboard but I made a Christmas cake, DH bought a Panettone and a Tunis cake and we got given quite a lot fo chocolate. It'll get eaten, but right now i could go for plain old egg and chips!

phone rang.

she said my blood test is showing as 'very early pregnancy' and she has spoken to my consultant who wants me to go back next Weds for a repeat blood test.

Told Dh (i haven't told him about this morning, he's too emotional to cope with that). he is stunned.

fingers crossed that this sticks x

it's a Christmas miracle! I'm delighted for you!

WOW! queen praying everything goes well

How are you broccers?

Wow congratulations I'll b keeping everything crossed for you x

Wow, huge congrats queen fingers crossed that 2012 is the year for you.

It's weird, I can be happy to hear your news (having never met you) but when someone I know is upduffed it HURTS. Which brings me to this evening. Good friend, has been ttc for 6 months, and she came to dinner.
She didn't drink a drop of alcohol (v unusual) and went bright red when I said I would be keeping things crossed for good news from them in the new year.
I am 99% sure she is pregnant even though nothing more was said. Am happy for her, but also have this horrible mix of sadness and jealousy inside me.

Meh.

completely understand that, delilahbelle

i am still really sick, thanks, phoenix and feel shocking and am dreading two 12 hour shifts at the weekend. 12 week scan in a couple of weeks - i'll be nearly 13 by then.

Aw broc sorry to hear you're still rough but in a way I'm glad because it suggests things are going well!
delilah I'm with you....pregnancy announcement the other day, friend said she'd been trying for 8 months and that felt long enough when I had to admit it'd been two years. Like, I'm trying to be supportive because she's really struggling with sickness but it's not easy!
I'm really low at the moment. Every time we go shopping I burst into tears at the prospect of everything we've lost and how long it will take to replace it all :(

Queen, tentative congrats! Are they not doing 48hr bloods? When will they scan you?

I hope everyone is ok after christmas. Delilah, I have a points system. There are people who deserve it and those who don't. Those who don't are the insensitive twonks who spout shit like "relax!"

Broc, great that you still feel dreadful, well, you know what I mean!

Faith/phoenix, love the new name!

Everyone, here's to a new year

Queen, tentative congrats! Are they not doing 48hr bloods? When will they scan you?

I hope everyone is ok after christmas. Delilah, I have a points system. There are people who deserve it and those who don't. Those who don't are the insensitive twonks who spout shit like "relax!"

Broc, great that you still feel dreadful, well, you know what I mean!

Faith/phoenix, love the new name!

Everyone, here's to a new year

Liss - no they're not doing 48hr bloods. I was just told to go back to the pre-op assessment unit next weds for another blood test. My surgeon is keeping my surgery date open until the results of the blood test next week. As it happens we have long standing plans to be away for two days from tomorrow so I'm quite pleased he hasn't insisted on regular bloods - i'd have had an argument with him about it. There's no way i can cancel plans!

Today my boobs are sore. very sore indeed and I've been having some cramping. In fact last night I was woken from my sleep by a particularly sharp and localised pain. It woke me and then was gone...

I've told a couple of friends, who know about our journey anyway - but otherwise we're keeping quiet for now.

I've joined an ante-natal thread in a fit of optimism (but there are other ladies on there in the same boat as me) but I'd like to keep a foot in the Hut too. I'm not out of the woods yet, and you girls have been a great support through some very tough times.

Ladies I'm off for a bit. My head is a mess and social networks/MN are not the places to be in these circumstances.
I'll be back at some point, I just need time out.
I hope you all have a good new year.

Sorry to see you go phoenix hopefully it won't be for long x

Have a good new year

Happy new year ladies ?? lets hope it's a good one

Morning ladies,
Mind if I lurk around here a little bit. I'm on the frolickers thread in conception too but there are lots of newbies who are fretting about OPKs/charting etc after only a month or so of trying and I don't really want to project my negativity onto them by saying I wouldn't bother stressing, at least two of you will probably still be here in two years time because I really don't mean that, I'm just in a bad place at the moment. I have also officially decided that 2012 is the year that whoever spouts 'relax' at me will get ninja kicked in the face :)

Welcome raspberry definately a place for u in the hut I too am in that mood do get a brew and a biscuit and settle in for the long haul

Well clinic open again tomorrow woohoo! Cn get back on the ttc wagon after the Xmas holidays!

i'm feeling a bit panicky here. I did a pregnancy test this morning hoping for a nice strong line and instead got nothing. Not even a faint line. It's all going to go wrong isn't it?

I'm going to phone my consultant later but they'll probably tell me to wait for my blood test tomorrow. I am at risk of ectopic according to him and now i'm stressing that it's either that or a chemical pregnancy.

I'm going to cry.

oh queen .......

small bit of brown blood too. Boobs aren't as sore as they were.
Just phoned my consultant's secretary who said i'm under the care of the pre-op nurse for now and I have to stick with my appt for a blood test tomorrow. Though she did say 'do you want to cancel it seeing as you have a negative test at home?'.....no i don't. I want a blood test to be sure.

DH is at work and feeling helpless. I told him if I'm losing this pregnancy I'd rather have never known about it at all.

Thank you phoenix
I've cancelled my volunteering tomorrow, just can't face it. It's the not knowing that is awful. By now I should really have enough HCG for a +ive test with FMU so really I know it's all over, but still can't help keeping that glimmer of hope that I'm still pregnant and it's all ok.

I'm sitting here half-wishing the bleeding would start so I would have a definite answer.