Hut of Gl/Doom, lost count of the number coz its been so long - optimists need not apply!

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Couldn't find the hut but in dire need of a hideout away from all those "its been 2 months" and "am I pregnant" threads.

For those of us who've been burnt by ttc, can't get pregnant, can't stay pregnant or are sick of hearing the "just relax" refrain.

Leave your hope at the door and grab a gin, we are back in the speakeasy with meths on tap!

I'm so pleased for you.

Aww nice to get a happy ending start

How exciting to know baby is in there and growing. What a lovely Christmas present. Do you feel a bit more relaxed now?

broccoli - woo hoo!! Im so thrilled for you.

pinkapples, sorry the shots didnt work, how crap

how is everyone else?

I am pissed off. ds moaned again about not having a sibling, I had a bit of a whinge about it on FB and one "friend" replied "I have a friend who cant have any. be grateful for what you have"

now, I am . but, you know what, someone being worse off than me doesnt make my situation any better. and it seems like the fertile are the only ones to come out with that shit. you ladies have been so wonderful, and I know that I am unbelievably lucky to have ds. but it really seems that everyone can judge unless its happening to them.

Delete that person. He/she is not your friend. They don't understand your circumstances and aren't helpful!
There's no such thing as worse fertility - secondary versus primary, it's all just sh1t.

Defo agree they are not your friend and certainly not helpful...

I get that at work a lot either... I have a friend who can't have children too - which leaves me thinking well isn't that lovely for her but it doesn't help me or the old... My friend was trying loads of meds and after 3/5/10 years she got pregnant... Well woop di do again lovely but of you think I am even slightly interested then no... So frustrating

I know ppl are only trying to be helpful and keep me cheery but honestly it doesn't help and id rather they didn't

Hey ho, 14 days post hcg shot and no AF at this rate I'll b phoning the clinic on the 3rd with not a lot to say... Don't know what I'd say to them either way they have been really good and always seen me quite quick... I have come quite a long way in 12 months to b fair but am a bit worried if they can't get the eggs to come out with hcg there's not a lot that will work

broccoli - yippy for a good scan, that is such good news and so reasuring. (I am at the one day at a time stage here)

Lissieloulous - sorry that you are getting grief from so called "friends", ignorant people ar the hardest to deal with.

i'm full of cold and feel dreadful.

I have been and collected DS, and got home to an official looking envelope. I knew what was inside before I opened it.
I have a date for the lap and dye - 10th Jan. I have to go for a pre-op assessment on the 29th Dec.
This is much sooner than I anticipated. I'm pleased of course, but also absolutely terrified...

queen bet to get it over with and now exactly what you're dealing with...I suppose it's scary to find out the outcome though yes?
Well af arrived yesterday so today marks the two year anniversary of ttc for us. I'm quite low at the moment but I think it's circumstantial. We've got a date 6th Jan to move into a rented house we found, DH is on his tablets now so his swimmers shoud improve in the next few weeks i hope his libido does too! He's not been interested lately and I have a new boss who seems good. I just want to year over and done with.
I hope the cold is clearing queen.
Merry Christmas to all you hutters, here's to a better 2012!

Well the night before Christmas... I've had enough of the year now so with a week to go I would like to wish everyone a merry Christmas and happy new year! Cheer up faith Santa's coming :-( I know that doesn't help but it's only a matter of time for all of us...

Yes bring on 2012!
DH just dressed up as Father Christmas for Dnephew we've been to carols on the village green and we're about to have mulled wine. I'm happy.

Merry Christmas my fellow hut dwellers. I'm down two Snowballs and having a completely retro 70's Christmas Eve. December has brought so much sad news for us either directly or because friends are having a tough time. I've been reflective the last two days and decided I need to count my blessings and see as much beauty and love in the world as I can.

Well had a lovely family Christmas back to the hut now before dinner with the grandparents in law and then cleaning and shopping the rest of my time off sales tomorrow x

Happy Christmas one and all

Must admit I am going to be glad to wave goodbye to 2011. With 2 failed treatments and one chem preg, plus coming to terms with it beng the end of the road, it's not been the greatest of years.

So, a few days early I know... My resolutions for 2012 include:
Completing c25k and getting fitter/dropping some weight.

De-junking the house getting it on the market and sold.

Booking at least one holiday somewhere we have never been (plus nag DH into sorting a Valentine's mini break)

Stop accepting shite from so called friends who dump me at the last minute, and instead nurture those friendships that mean something.

And the most important one - stop obsessing about my failure tc, and instead focus on the positives of a currently childfree life.

Sounds good to me I also have the 2012 resolution to drop some pounds hmmm after that is my new years day dinner cooked by my chef daddy! Start on the 2nd I am going to attempt to make it a positive year clinic opens on the 3rd so will phone then...

In other resolutions I am also going to attempt a chocolate free year as that is my biggest downfall and you always end up on a guilty downer once you've eaten it anyway so am
Going to give it a go

Hi it's Faith I fancied a name change.
Well Iif we're reflecting over the last year...one Chem pregnancy, one confusing mega long cycle with a ?levap. Line, a cycle accident, a pituitary tumour and of course a house fire. So yes, hooray to the back of 2011.
I will be:
*doing a 10k in March

• um still debating this one do the Great North Run in September *get healthy - hence the runs *go to somewhere nice and sunny in Marxh *still agreeing to things immediately and backing out later on

Lately I've become very bitter about ttc...I really need to work on that.

ladies

I'm a day late for AF based on last few cycles. I had a FR in the bathroom cabinet. In one of those 'i'll just do it moments' (i know you all understand what I mean) I did it this morning when I got up.
I could see a 'shadow' where the second line should be. After 5 mins of convincing myself it's an evap line i read they don't come up straight away. This did. It's so faint It's barely there. I can only see it if i go to a window for natural light or under the bright fluro in my kitchen. But it's there and it has a pink tinge.

I daren't tell DH. Will a digital work later today if I hold my wee?

I'm supposed to be at the hospital this afternoon for my pre-op assessment.
Would they do a blood test if i told them I had a fainter than faint +ive urine test this morning?

Oh. My. Days! If it's really faint today with fmu I'm not sure you'll convince a digital.just yet...is there any way you can get another FR? They might do a urine test at the hospital regardless. Can you show your OH it and say 'what do you think?'

he's colour blind he won't be able to see it when it's that faint.

I'm just going to have to wait aren't i.....

Do a superdrug one, they have purple dye so come up clearly and are meant to be sensitive. How do you feel? Do you feel pregnant?

well I've not had my usual pre-AF grump. The thing is that i've been caught out by long cycles before. After two years of this malarkey it's hard to get excited, in fact i'm more inclined to think it's a mistake and AF will appear any moment.

I did a Tesco cheapie while I was out and it showed nothing, but then if my FMU only just, barely showed up a line then there's not going to be enough HCG for a positive test is there? I have to take a urine sample this afternoon to my appt. I doubt a dipstick test at the hospital is going to be any different.
I suppose they will do my pre-op assessment, and tell me to test again in a couple of days and let them know the result...I am doubtful they will do me a blood test.
My consultant did say however that because of my blocked tube i'm at increased risk of ectopic so I have to let him know ASAP so he can book me an early ultrasound.

I'm feeling very frustrated. Unfortunately DH can't see 'shades' so unless I have a definite dark line he won't be able to see it at all!

queen - they are supposed to do a pt on any woman of childbearing age, and also, i would have thought it was standard to do one pre-procedure for gynae/ fertility treatment to make sure that you are NOT pregnant. definitely tell them and ask them to do one as well.

phoenix (good name ) - do you live in the north east or just fancying the run? if you do, where do you go to church? the chances are i know it - i'm from the north east, but we don't live there now.

I'm in Lincoln but my friend wants to do the Great North Run - she's in Worksop. I dunno, I'm keen to enter the Lincoln 10k at the end of Marxh then see how I fare!
I go to Threshold Church which meets ina village near me.

Ok girls. I will get a phone call either before 5.30 today or first thing tomorrow morning with the results of a blood test. I am terrified now. I have this sinking feeling that what I saw this morning was 'wishful thinking'. I just drove back from the hosptial with a lead weight in the pit of my stomach.
She said normally they would give you your blood results in a couple of days but she's fast tracked my pregnancy test.

If she doesn't get it back before end of day I'm going to have a sleepless night aren't I?

Wow. Ok. Well I'm watching Star Wars doing nowt all afternoon so we'll sit and hand hold. I'm sure she'll endeavour do call you under the circumstances. But yes, sleepless night otherwise. Do you have a pee stick for the morning?