Hut of Gl/Doom, lost count of the number coz its been so long - optimists need not apply!

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Couldn't find the hut but in dire need of a hideout away from all those "its been 2 months" and "am I pregnant" threads.

For those of us who've been burnt by ttc, can't get pregnant, can't stay pregnant or are sick of hearing the "just relax" refrain.

Leave your hope at the door and grab a gin, we are back in the speakeasy with meths on tap!

oh delilah is it really end of the road time for you?
I don't know what to say, except that we're all here for you if you need somewhere to offload.

Hey queen Yup, we've had 3 rounds of IVF (plus 1 FET) - the last only produced 2 embryos, I am a poor responder. We could consider DE, but it would be hugely expensive.
Every month I hope for a miracle - in 6 yrs TTC I have had one natural pregnancy, that ended in a very early miscarriage, and two chemical pregnancies from treatment.

Feeling v sorry for myself - not helped by the fact DH new job means he is away Monday-Friday and I miss him and get very lonely in the week. I have friends, but spread all over the country, none locally. Generally work and hobbies keep me busy, but sometimes it all gets a bit too much.

I have to stay positive though. We are looking to move back to my home town in the new year, so I will have friends and family around. And we are planning another couple of amazing holidays, then will start on the adoption route. It's just not the way I had planned my life to be!

Thanks for letting me offload, the hut is a lifesaver for moments like this.

delilah nothing to add either except to second what queen said...

so sorry to hear that... It must be hard coming to the realisation but I know you'll get through it we are all here for moral support when needed... And if we can't offer that there's always a brew and or wine hanging about

Blood progesterone test today have a nice lively bruise to show for it should find out tomorrow if I ovulated though the nurse said I defo would have... Then a test next week... Will defo wait this time!

Howdy all.
How are people? broc, how's it going? delilah how are you feeling now?
pink what did the blood results say?
Well I'm off to pick up dh's prescription tomorrow to start resolving the prolactin problems. Trying to b optimistic about the prospect. Hard to be positive without our home to live in :( but the insurance company are offering us a rental property so hopefully we can move out of my Dads after Christmas and get down to baybee making proper.

Absolute crap... Progesterone levels 1.2 so the miracle of pregnyl did not do its job... It has left me, the nurses and the consultant baffled as it should have worked no wonder im not preggos yet so they just said to wait till my period comes (if at all since I didn't ovulate) then we take it from there I think ivf will come next tho surely they would not waste a round of injectables only for it to fail again... I'd rather put the 1,000 towards ivf and have them take the bloody eggs out since they refuse to budge of their own accord... Stupid body!! Dh and I had a cry and now im over it

Pardon my French but bollocks pink. Sounds like you are handling it healthily with a nice combo of sadness and anger. I get what you mean that it might be easier to move straight onto ivf if these injections aren't working like anticipated.

Yea there's nothing else we can do really just get on best we can we're ok really just a bit sad I'm on 23 but bless hubby is so concerned I'm upset he's talking adoption already! I have thought about what we'd do if everything failed I wasn't sure he'd go for it I said if we weren't preg by The time I was 25 then we'd look at it cuz adoption takes years sometimes can hubby is 27 now he doesn't want to be to old when we have children (if)

Otherwise it's a week before Christmas and I'm all set, all wrapped and ready...

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That time frame sounds sensible.
I have to buy replace two presents lost in fire but otherwise I'm sorted. More looking forward to the time off work than Christmas itself. Sorry to be gloomy but it is the hut
I'm enjoying a hot chocolate with Baileys staying with my Nan in law for the night, DH wanted to come visit post fire etc. Tis quite nice really

Aww sounds good yea we thought that 2 though 2 more years of disappointment (not even that as I am nearly 24) seems something of a hard thing to deal with but hey ho must carry on no point getting to gloomy as it isn't going to help much...

I am too looking forward to the time off one whole week woohoo!!!!

pink lol at your DH not wanting to be old when he has children. Dh is 45! I do know that he is getting concerned about that though. He starting to find keeping up with my active 6 year old harder and naturally is worrying about how he'll cope if we do have a baby.
Not much doing here. If by some miracle I have got PG this cycle i'll find out at New Year.

We need some good news quite frankly, we've suffered a bereavement this week of a close friend. Not feeling that Christmassy myself but when you've got a 6 year old you have to paint the smile on and do it anyway!

Wow what an exciting thing to find out at new year fingers crossed

Everything is fine here still no sign of AF though it should be due about the 21st how they have come up with that though after a progesterone of 1.2 and no ovulation but they do know what they are doing I suppose

All set for christmas had my nails and eyebrows done (always a good way to cheer up) hope everyone else is getting geared upand nearly done shopping

Fingers crossed too.

My af is actually due on Saturday. I have bought tampax...I have not bought any tests!
Thinking of you pinky, how are you feeling?
Sorry to hear about your bereavement queen. How are things going ttc wise?

I don't really know to be honest, obviously cross that te injectables didn't work for the second time I'm not sure what they will do next as I thought the next step was ivf but if the 99% definetley will make me ovulate did not make me ovulate then how will they get the eggs out for ivf??

I'm all over the shop at the moment... Trying to get in the Christmas mood but to be honest I can't wait for the clinic to be open on the 3rd then I can do something... I hate waiting and now I have 2 weeks of waiting... AF is due on Wednesday but who knows the consultant didn't seem to so how the hell am I meant to if he doesn't know what he's on about!!

Anyway the silver lining is I can get drunk as there is no chance of me being pregnant. Well I'm not a big drinker so a snowball or too then back to tea and biscuits

Rant over... That is all

Hey all

Enjoy getting drunk pink I am planning to - or I would if I could buy the alcohol. Got ID'd last night - I won't tell you exactly how old I am but I have been getting drunk 15 years now! I am remarkably well preserved - possibly pickled

Feeling more positive about the new year. Found a house that looks beautiful, so going to arrange a visit. Another of my friends is also househunting/buying, so we are talking about that a lot.

Faith glad to hear you are getting a rental place sorted. Hopefully 2012 will be an excellent year for you, and all of us. Maybe a few pregnancies, onwards and upwards all!

queen just seen your message as well - I'm sorry for your loss, fingers crossed for a more positive new year.

Do you think the whole new house/new baby thing will work with a rental insuracne property?
I got id'd in town last month. I doubled up laughing...she said 'how old are you love?'
I said '30' so she let me in with the thought process that if you're going to lie about your age, you wouldn't say 30!

Well that's Tuesday done only 3 more days left till I get a whole week off for Xmas settling down with my two beautiful dogs... Knackered after a long walk with dh and my dh and I are going to drink vimto and eat thorntons hehe

evening all

glad you are getting sorted with a new, albeit temporary, home faith. i think you are amazingly positive. God has a plan, though, even if it seems completely bizarre to us.

i think you're really positive too pink. it's totally understandable that you are "a bit all over the place" at times. i hope you really enjoy christmas and the next few weeks do pass quickly to the 3rd so you can get cracking again.

thinking of you delilah and queen

and lissie if you're lurking, i hope you are well, and are not here often because you are doing ok and not because life is too rubbish even for the hut. have a wonderful christmas, my lovely (((hug)))

struggling to access nhs services. don't know whether i said already that since we moved and nobody knows my history, seems no-one is taking it that seriously. my excellent gp made an urgent referral to obstetrics (i think he was freaked out and wanted rid of me ) but that was 5 weeks ago and i still haven't heard from them. the community midwife, who is very nice but seems to look at me as if to say 'woteva, luv' said she would chase the referral. i had to ring her to get back to me, and then she fobbed me off saying she had no idea when i would have an appt but the hypertension mw had my notes. she eventually spoke to the htmw and texted me to say start 75mg aspirin, but still no appt and my 12 week scan isn't til after christmas. my mum who is lovely, and an absolute brick, but i think is worried about the whole thing, has offered to pay for a private scan before the 12 week one and even rang the nuffield for me, so i am having another scan in the morning. still very sick and tired, which is good and most importantly there is no blood.

The irony is I've been really mardy today! reckon it's pms...oh well I've git tampons and tests so either way I'm covered. My face has broken out with huge zits this week. Not good. Thank goodness for cover up!
broc sorry you are feeling rough but at the same time that's encouraging. How are you feeling about the scan? Forgive my bluntness but have you got this far along before? I'll be praying for a good day tomorrow.

i do have a lovely dd who is now 6, she was born at 29+5, otherwise i usually lose around 5 or 6 weeks. i got to 7 weeks last year, but the scan showed it had stopped growing around 5 weeks.
thrilled to be this far along, and to feel so rough. scan was healthy at 6 weeks, so i have no rational or logical reason to think this one will be any different but it will be reassuring nonetheless and hopefully i will relax some more; i am finding it hard to be excited despite being over the moon, if that makes sense

That makes total sense. If the scan today looks good, hopefully you'll feel more relaxed, especially since now this is the furthest along you've been since DD. I'm praying it's all good. Let us.know hoe you get on.

thanks faithy - scan this morning was good. i am surprised by how much better i do feel. i sort of thought i would be elated for half an hour but then desperate for the next scan, but actually i do feel genuinely better. i think it's because i could see a significant change in the baby from the last scan and everything is progressing as it should be. also, i am measuring at 9+6 which is much more in line with the dates that i thought as i know my cycle so well, because of this in/fertility lark, whereas they had been working off lmp.