Hut of Gl/Doom, lost count of the number coz its been so long - optimists need not apply!

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Couldn't find the hut but in dire need of a hideout away from all those "its been 2 months" and "am I pregnant" threads.

For those of us who've been burnt by ttc, can't get pregnant, can't stay pregnant or are sick of hearing the "just relax" refrain.

Leave your hope at the door and grab a gin, we are back in the speakeasy with meths on tap!

They have worked very hard to improve things and the cqc have reviewed them so try not to worry!
Hmm how much does it hurt? Mine was mega ouchy but he said it was because my cervix opening was very narrow because I've never pushed a baby through there had a child. Worth taking some pain killers beforehand I think. I'm really glad you've got an appt sorted at last.

Oh great think it may be time to leave FB again...someone I'm friends with has just announced her second pregnancy. Her first isn't one yet. DH said it'd eat us up to be jealous. But I am. I am very jealous and I want to cry.

Ok Blimey third post in a row I've had a bath and washed my hair. I'm also reading a self-help !! book my colleague bought me when she left last week. I think it may actually speak some sense

It's horrible to feel so selfish isnt it faith We have a guy at work who's girlfriend is expecting their first DC and I cannot bring myself to get involved in the baby conversations. It doesnt help that he's constantly banging on about it, but I guess he's just excited!

Yeah, fortunately I don't see her in RL. Not dwelt on it much today, been too busy at work! Think pms has been lurking, af due Sunday.
On a positive note I decided at the start of this week to watch less tv. I have got so much done!! It's like having my time liberated!

Ps I'm sorry you have to deal with that....I saw my colleague with her baby. I thought it would make me sad, it just made me very brood.

i spent all day monday with heavily pregnant (actually overdue) friend. It was nice though. Even though it's no6 she's not had an easy time of it in the last few years and had two m/c before this one stuck. We discussed the old wives tale of cuddling newborns improving fertility and she said i can go round for baby cuddles as often as I want!

I had a proper wobble yesterday. Not just the TTC, have other stuff going on too. Cried all over DH, and he said some lovely things to me. Just feel drained this morning....

I hate to do this but I need to have a right moan about what someone has posted on teh MN miscarriage campaign as it has been bugging me all afternoon. It's basically a 'doctors will use these terms as they're medically correct' followed by a 'they aren't babies they're foetuses' and 'don't get your hopes up until after 12 week scan'.

What sort of person feels that is appropriate on a thread where people have just answered a well worded but still upsetting questionnaire are talking about their experiences.

Oh and that wasn't intended as a call to arms to pile in btw. I'm just having a moan.

Then I'll just say 'an insensitive person'.

Aaaahhhhh! Actually had enough now! I'd love to know why my body is not working! I know I have pcos but it is getting ridiculous now! Progesterone levels 1.2 for the last year! What is that about! Menopausal women are supposed to have levels of between 4-9 I'm not even post menopausal and I'm 23!! Been with hubby 5 years and been having unprotected swi for 3 years! Aaaaahhhhhhhh!

pink it's so frustrating isn't it.

well - HSG this afternoon. I feel sick this morning DH can't come as 1/ he's working from home and actually has stuff he needs to do and 2/ he has to stay here with DS. So i'm going on my own.

Sorry you're struggling pink. It's just hideous isn't it? Where are you at treatment/referral wise?
queen at least it's going to be done. He couldn't come in anyway because of the x-ray risk but the staff should talk you through everything. Take a good book while you wait. Hope it goes well. Just think of your lovely flushed out tubes increasing your chances of getting upduffed for the next few months!

faith to be honest I asked him to leave when i had my pelvic exam and he didn't come to the dildocam experience either. I have a completley honest relationship, and we talk about everything but I don't really feel comfortable having him there while some Dr rummages about in my nether regions . I'm not entirely sure he would feel at ease with it either.
I'm not embarrassed about having it done (the nurse who sat with me through the ultrasound was quite stunned at how calm I was about it), I am just apprehensive about any discomfort. Of course that's perfectly natural.
I keep reminding myself about the less pleasant aspects of DS birth and thinking if i can cope with 8 hours of that then 20 mins is nothing....

Hey all
Well after a week starting v craply (is that a word?!) at least the sun is out and I have And a rather nice and busy weekend planned.
Been away with work for a few days, so this is a hi and bye as we are away to enjoy the sunshine.

I am so glad that is over. The anxiety this morning was dreadful, I was physically shaking and felt soooo sick. Once I actually got to the hospital I was fine. I think the anticipation is worse for me than actually dealing with the 'thing'.
It was uncomfortable, some pretty sharp cramping when she injected the dye. I managed to breathe through it though.
I know I have to wait for the cons appt to talk through my results but - any tests i've had before I've always been given the line 'it all looks absolutely fine. Nothing to worry about, but you'll get the proper results in due course'

today.....she didn't want to discuss it with me 'we should leave it to the consultant'.......and she made me have three more lots of x-ray done at 10 min intervals 'to let the dye run through'....is that usual?
I could see it all on the screen. The dye went into my uterus and then fed into my left (i think) tube.....but there was nothing on the other side.

I know i ov on the left when i got pg with DS. Now i'm thinking maybe my right tube is blocked?

it's pointless to speculate but i can't help it

delilah you sound more upbeat. Enjoy the and sunshine and time with OH.
queen try not to jump to any conclusions. You may be right if you could only see the dye in one tube...they did tell me there and then mine was ok. Do you feel yourself ov alternate sides?
They made me wait 10 mins to be xrayed again 'because the dye was spilling out' so I wouldn't worry. It's just to check your body gets rid of it like it should.
I was out with colleagues. Was a bit pathetic and left at 11. Bad head and pre-af make have a dull girl! Off to bed. Night ladies!

I'm just glad we've all got somewhere to vent... I've got a long awaited appointment with consultant after 12 months on clomid (7 cycles, 1 lap/ovarian drilling) to no success hopefully will get me booked in for a scan to check ovaries and get started on injectable hormones fingers crossed

Hello - can I join please? just had MC #3, am very old (44) and time is running out. Saw gynae 2w ago, just after last MC and she gave me the results of my tests - not wanting to be optimistic but my ovarian reserve was apparently pretty good for my age - actually into the PCOS level! - but that's no good to me if they're all duds. :(

Plus I have Factor V Leiden thrombophilia which buggers things up a bit more - daily aspirin didn't help last time - if there is a next time I have to go straight to Clexane.

Ovulated at the right time after MC, had a bit of hope but period started 2 days ago so buggeration - am feeling rather shite about it all.

• cheers then - and if I do get lucky I promise to bugger off immediately. :)

Hi thumb we've met on the Conception board a few times.
Welcome to the hut, sorry you have to be here. I hope you'll find this place a sage haven away from the giddiness of conception. Sounds like you're having a rough time of it. Really sorry to hear about your MCs.
With the clexane I assume that means injecting yourself daily?
Are you ttc dc#1?
pink that sounds like a pretty intense year. I'm glad you've got a follow up to aim for now.

Thanks HaveALittleFaith :)
Yes, the clexane would be daily. DH has to do it though - I am needle phobic

No, I have a DS already - he will be 4 in December. I was 40 when he was born (fairly easy conception, lucky me) but since then it took ages to even get pg again, then the 3 MCs over the last 2 years. I have told DH that we can really only go on until I'm 45 (next July) as everything gets even less likely after that - he has agreed in principle but still believes we'll get lucky.
He is very blasé about it all which makes my life harder in terms of coping with the MCs - he's of the "well at least you can still get pg" school of thought, which is true but not much comfort when I can't hang onto it.

just popping in to put this back on active convo's will be back later with a proper message!

Af has arrived which means cd1 of cycle#23.

Good luck this cycle havealittlefaith days are dragging till Tuesday but going out with family tonight for Chinese hmmmm... No dh though as he is busy with other commitments

Thanks pink but tbh I doubt we'll be successful until DH's prolactin levels are sorted. Just waiting for his appt in November.
Enjoy your chinese. Tuesday will roll round begin you know it!