Hut of Gl/Doom, lost count of the number coz its been so long - optimists need not apply!

[OracleInaCoracle]

Couldn't find the hut but in dire need of a hideout away from all those "its been 2 months" and "am I pregnant" threads.

For those of us who've been burnt by ttc, can't get pregnant, can't stay pregnant or are sick of hearing the "just relax" refrain.

Leave your hope at the door and grab a gin, we are back in the speakeasy with meths on tap!

yeah so. xray dept phone just ringing out. because there's no-one there to book appts on a Saturday. there goes my chance of the HSg this effing month too.

what's the point....

Surely it'll be ok to ring Monday, only a couple of days after af. I rang on the Thursday and got an appt for the next Wednesday so I still time has to ttc that cycle...try not to lose hope queen.

My cons rang the hsg dept for me because they couldn't get me in until too late. Iirc. But you must be so frustrated.

Girl I worked with, who was pg with her first at the same time I was pg with ds has just announced that she is pg with her 4th. And is moaning about ms. I feel a deletion coming on.

Dh and I had a row about it last night, about my bitterness. I don't know what he expects! 6 years. Six. I feel like such an utter failure.

Lissie you have not failed. Your consulant has failed you. You have done.nothing wrong.

Lissie - ditto what HaveALittleFailthBaby says !

Ducks,
It was diagnosed by the g.p. on the basis of blood results, v,v, high fsh.

The explanation about carrying a child was that if a stray straggling egg managed to be fertilised it would end in miscarriage due to being "faulty"

To be fair to the g.p. he admitted he was no expert in fertility but I've unfortunately spent literally days on google checking everything out and he was right to be honest with me. I'm not one for sugar coating.

The decision to not attend Lister was made because egg donation is not for us for a variety of reasons.

Sorry for slow reply. Am trying to move away from constant computer monitoring.

Nb infertility sucks.

Hey all

Well after a brief dabble with hope, my last round of assisted conception appears to have failed.

Now waiting for AFs appearance.

Hello all

I've only just found this section, it's nice to have a safe place. TTC 2 years. Male factor and also not sure what's going on with my tubes - had a laparoscopy and they couldn't get the dye in. I've been told to make an appointment for an HSG, but on CD1 was told the Dr is on holiday this month, and will have to wait until next month. I'm 40 and I've never been pregnant, despite taking risks in the past. I'm starting to think it's not meant to be. I've been on antid's for a few months, which helps.

to all those having a shit time of it at the moment.

oh delilah, please remember, you are only 11dpt. it aint over yet.

hello onemorning, welcome to the hut. sorry you are having such a shit time of it

onemorning welcome, that's our problems too. Sucks, doesn't it? I am currently having a and millionaires shortbread.

lissielou thanks for the positivity, unfortunately I know my crappy uterus pretty well, and I am prepared to bet AF will be here on Tuesday. Always hoping to be proved wrong of course..

Right now I am trying to focus on the fact that even with the failing to get pregnant thing my life is pretty damn good. It helps I have a lovely wonderful supportive DH, and quite a few childfree friends.

welcome onemorning

I phoned x-ray this morning. Got to speak to a very nice chap indeed. The man at big city hospital (faith will know where i mean) is on annual leave so my hospital dept is having to field some of their patients. They only do two HSG a day and the diary is full. The woman at our hospital is back tomorrow. I've got a provisional appt for 3.30 on Thurs, and he's going to try and sweet talk her into doing three on Thurs so that I don't miss out this month. Not holding my breath but am slightly stunned at having got through to such a helpful member of admin staff!!

queenrollo, oh, that sounds promising! you never know, sometimes it just takes one person to have a bit of a heart!

queen I assume you're going where I went and if so, the staff were just lurvely. Sounds promising, I hope you get it sorted for definite very soon...

hmm.... i see we have been relegated to 'infertility' now, rather than conception. no wonder i couldn't find the hut; i know it's been a while but that was a bit of a kick. still i suppose it makes sense.... was still rather hoping that the non-appearance of baby no2 after 6 years and several miscarriages was 'just not the right time yet' rather than infertility.

hope you are all well. i do still think of you and lurk from time to time to see how you all are. sorry some old faces are still here. no doubt i will be back again - 'twill likely be the next time my body gives me false hope.....

oh broccoli, I hope you dont mind. we discussed it when the topic was created and agreed that it might be better, and that way we could hide conception. you sound like you are having a shit time again, wanna rant?

oh i know lissie
i know it is the right thing, and it does make perfect sense.
i'm ok i just have the mother or all periods and just feeling a bit sorry for myself.
i always seem to get pregnant at this time of year and lose it (apart from dd) and then wait another year to definitively fall again, although that doesn't make so much difference since they don't stick anyway. every definitive pregnancy has been this time of year; yes, i have had peculiar symptoms/bleeding which i believe have been very early miscarriages, at other times of the year (although they do seem to be getting less frequent now, as i get older and even less fertile). i suppose i think that "it might be this month - i might fall pregnant this month, it might even stick", but the reality is i think that even if i do get pregnant, it doesn't last long...

its hard to explain isnt it? any joy with consultants etc?

almost given up with the whole thing, so not going on with any consultants anymore. i am trying to move on and for the most part am quite successful; it's just i can't quite fully let go, but i am pretty resigned to the fact it is never going to be - nothing more hopeless than the loss of hope. painful though it was/is, coming to that definitely made it easier for me to move on; it's just sometimes i stray back......... and wander into the hut [rueful smile]
((((((hugs))))))

Howdy broccoli yes we've been moved over here and it's rather a safe haven from all the happy, naive conceptioners!
We're not without hope even in the face of adversity but full of support for each other.

hi faith
i am an ancient hutter, and fully appreciate the support given here. please don't misunderstand, i do realise why the hut has been moved, and know that it makes sense; i do know how hard it is to scroll over the jolly old 'i felt sick as i walked past dog poo, but my period isn't due til next week: should i poas' and 'i am so disappointed i am not pregnant, but we only started trying last week' threads (not that i am bitter ). as i said, at times i do closely mimic the ostrich regarding the whole thing.

everyone deals with this in their own way, and unfortunately, i virtually am without hope, for my own situation. that doesn't mean, however, i am not hopeful for others - i just really needed to stop letting ttc, or more accurately, letting failure to conceive/carry, drive me potty, because it was, and part of that was leaving the hut. i do occasionally come back to lurk when i am not so good (because it is a safe and supportive place); to see old friends, although i wish they weren't still here; and also to offer more helpful, supportive comments to newbies, when i can and when i am not wallowing, although again, it is sad that the hut manages to thrive....

anyway, hope that explains a wee bit. i really didn't mean to offend or belittle in any way, as i have found the hut an invaluable source of support and a haven to safely rant away, over the years

I think we have met before broccoli --but maybe when I was Bexamundo?
Based on your history I do understand where you're coming from....I never took what you said as negative!
The hut vanished for a while, only queenrollo and I were posting here for a while. But there's always a need for it sadly. :(

phew faith glad that's cleared up.
hmmm do remember you as bexamundo i think. i haven't always been broccolitrees either, but i rather seriously outed myself about 18 months ago having been the wife a of a big green ogre for many years

:) I remember your newer name because many moons ago as a student speech therapist I saw a little girl with speech problems who had been asking her Mum for 'trees' and got very annoyed when Mum didn't understand. I somehow knew immediately she meant broccoli....your MN name always makes me think of that! I've only been.here since new year so probably didn't meet you with your former name.
Ok.I'm confusing myself so I'm going to sleep!

hospital just phoned. can't fit me in on Thurs but have made space for me on Friday afternoon.
faith it's the hospital that was on the local news recently, and not for a good reason

so - how much is this HSG going to hurt then?