Hut of Gl/Doom, lost count of the number coz its been so long - optimists need not apply!

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Couldn't find the hut but in dire need of a hideout away from all those "its been 2 months" and "am I pregnant" threads.

For those of us who've been burnt by ttc, can't get pregnant, can't stay pregnant or are sick of hearing the "just relax" refrain.

Leave your hope at the door and grab a gin, we are back in the speakeasy with meths on tap!

Yea I'm a bit like that, trying to keep positive is v hard but worth a shot normally fails by about cd2

You know you've given up with OH asks when you'll be ovulating and you say 'I guess I'm fertile now' but neither of you suggest going to bed! I can imagine telling people I'm pregnant but somehow struggle to imagine seeing a bfp. No idea how many tests I've done probably about 50! but only had one.bfp which was a chemical pregnancy. Will have to start doing visualization!

HaveALittle - I know that feeling! sometimes the whole SWI thing just gets too much, especially if you start thinking "what's the point?" DH actually got performance anxiety a few months back but he seems to have got over it again now, thankfully.

I know about performance anxiety hunt gets that from time to time but we just remember why we're doing it and have a brew and go again... Sometimes u just have to laugh it off... I do get the "what's the point feeling" nearly every cycle and every time it happens hubby manages to cheer me up but still very hard

pinkapples, yes, we do laugh it off but it stays in DH's mind the next time - so it's an exercise in distraction until he performs and then he's ok again :)

Yea they do remember I find if I just pounce he is fine... If we discuss it in any way before hand it completely messes with the mood so now we both know when we need to do it (I chart on a calendar my days (indicate swi with hearts)) so hubby knows and I know and there is really no discussion involved hehe

Ah we have that too. In our case, the high prolactin is partly responsible but I think it's mostly stress. If I say I'm fertile it happens and never, Never say 'it hasn't happened for a while! so I too tend to just lure him to bed or jump him. Hd knows later if I'm fertile depending on choice of lube! (Conceive plus if I am, durex if I'm not)

Oh dear I'm not good today. Keep crying intermittently. I think it's partly af (and the fact that it's another month without a baby even though I never expected to get upduffed this month) and also because someone I got really friendly with who'd been trying for the same amount of time for me got in touch with me to say she'd just had an ectopic :( It all seems so unfair today. I know life is unfair and deep down I know I'm very blessed and some people would love to have all the nice things I have like a lovely DH, home, family but of everything that seems unfair isn't infertility/recurrent miscarriages one of the worst?
Just a quick rant really to say: Why oh why is it that there's people in stable relationships who want babies so desperately aren't getting pregnant or have MCs when there's people who don't want kids at all getting pregnant without trying?!?!?! Something is seriously awry!
Ok rant over. Think I need to go for a walk.

((((faith))))

It sucks, doesn't it. Bah.

pretty much.

Chin up! I know trying to keep your hopes up and positive thinking is hard but just think of the little baby that you will have at the end of it because no matter how hard it is to believe nearly 95% of women trying DO have tiny babies at the end of the journey...

Anyway this is the hut of gloom so... %23%+%23%%^^%23€$ sake! Why don't I have a baby yet! Crap crap crap crap!!!

I've had a bath and read my 'embracing change' book. Had a good bitch on the x factor thread and feel much better :)
Thanks for the support. So glad the hut is here.

Oh Faith sorry you had a teary moment yesterday, it's all pants isnt it :(

I'm having a feeling sorry for myself time right now (and so is poor DH). There just seems to be loads of bad things happening and nothing positive - works shit, moneys shit, the house and everything in it is shit/broken. We're having a really tough time at the moment and all this just makes it feel ten times worse. Why is the most natural thing in the world so damn hard, it makes you feel like such a failure! :(

Well... A crap day for me! Phoned clinic this morning to find out the result of my day 21 progesterone test from Friday... For the past 6 cycles it's been 1.2 well it went up to 12 last cycle after my lap and ovarian drilling... Result from Friday... 2.4! What is that about!!!!!!!! Ahhhhhh! Why why why!

Phone appointment tomorrow with the clinic to see about starting injections

Gah - I've just realised that DH will be away over ov time! Another month wasted!

(((hugs))) all round to everyone. HaveALittleFaith, sorry you had such a down day but totally understand - especially the "why me when there are all these women who don't want babies falling pg at the slightest provocation". Very upsetting. :(

IfAtFirst - sounds like you need a complete life makeover at the moment - hope good things start to happen for you soon.

pinkapples - do you have other disordered hormones as well or is it just the low progesterone? Is the clinic going to give you natural progesterone injections then?

I'm ok now. It actually wasn't so much 'why me?' As 'why us?' Iykwim.
pink sorry to hear you progesterone is still low. That sucks :(
if that must be very frustrating.

I think I have others that aren't doing their job too! so will wait to hear today what the next course of treatment will be... I know it is injections as we discussed it I'm sept if this cycle didn't work... Will let you ladies know x hope everyone is doing alright this morning. Another day..

Hi all

I am 99% fine, and 1% a sobbing mess - not helped by the fact DH is working away, and I won't get to see him 4 nights a week for the foreseeable future.

Our next plan is to get Xmas out the way, go on a mini break over Valentines day, then start looking into adoption in the spring. I never thought it would come to this, but I'm desperate to be a mum any way I can. Quite a few people I work with have v positive stories of adoption too.

Pink - sorry your hormones are playing up. Hope things look better once you hear what the next lot of treatment will be.

If - try and stay positive. Just think, a 2ww this month in which you can drink wine, eat pate and stinky cheese etc... Not much compensation but better than nothing?!

Faith - how are you today? I think we all get those moments, we are here if u need to rant.

or for everyone else.

Ah delilah that sounds like a great plan. My mum's best friend had a hysterectomy at 20 for severe endometrosis. She adopted and it worked out well :)
I am a happy bunny. My job has been renewed so I know what I'm doing for another year! I basically had a year contact which has been extended. It's a promotion from my permanent post so I'm chuffed.
Another 2nd pregnancy announced on fb of a couple who announced dc#1 when we'd started trying...do feel a bit like we've been left behind. But then I don't who else may have been ttc and struggling too...

Well I have another appointment for next week doc phoned and said I needed 'the stronger stuff' very medical term... So having a scan and talking about injections... Fingers crossed this works...

well it's encouraging that they're trying the next step up pink..keep us posted!

Yea I guess so can't help my negative attitude to it all tho... Just feel like nothing will work... But I guess something has to

I don't blame you for feeling negative, pink. I find it hard not to.

Big hugs and fingers x