Hi Ladies
Just checking in briefly to say hello and let you know how I'm going.
The procedure went well today. I went in at 07:30 and was out by about 12:30. All the hospital staff were wonderful and I felt very well cared for. I've experienced very little in the way of physical pain so far (unlike last time). I had a little cry on the way down to theatre and the nurse was so kind and held my hand so I've felt I've had a little time to start grieiving now.
As Mum and Dad were looking after DS and I was feeling reasonably well, DH and I went for a quiet lunch together to regroup a bit as we hadn't really had any time alone since it all happened.
Feeling a bit numb and sad but also feeling surprisingly pragmatic at the moment but I know I have to be aware that I'm trying to keep things normal at home and that might slow down my coming to terms with things.
We had to put DS to bed without his usual breastfeed (because of all the drugs) which we've never done before. He's still awake chatting in his cot and occasionally sounding mildly annoyed. I hope he settles. I'm feeling quite upset about not being able to give him his feed I suppose, a bit like I can't be completely a Mum to him either...but it is just for a day so I'll be over that by the morning!
Everyone pitched in at home and Mum has done my ironing and washing!
Oh, and DH called our friends last night and said that he didn't think we would be able to manage the weekend so we don't have to cope with that now.
Thanks again for all your kind words and support. CTGG don't feel bad about 'whinging' - I think it is just as important to get normal everyday gripes of your chest as it is to be supported for the 'bigger' stuff! That's what our group is for, right?
Have a wonderful evening everyone. I'm having tomorrow off for a quiet day on my own and then I'll probably make a slow start to things again on Friday...babysteps