I thought I did commit earlier .
I am aiming for 10pm with lights out by 11pm.
I am guilt ridden as I had to tell ds I couldn't sleep beside him tonight as it was making me too tired and grumpy. His wee face. 
I did pull him up into my lap for big cuddles and point out that I was sure none of his friends slept with their Mummy - but still. 
I also told him how much I loved him.
But I still feel guilty.
I really shouldn't, given that he is 7, should I? mental health problems or not.
Gah!
I have self medicated for the guilt with the half eaten bag of chocolate buttons I found whilst looking for the giant tube of smarties.