The shiney people are so bright..you gotta wear shades!

[MitsubishiWarrioress]

...best I can do as I am so sleep deprived...

I am Mitts and myself and this bunch of reprobates are trying to eat more healthily, drink MORE WATER (ladeees!).. exercise a bit.. losing weight is the goal of some of us, others are just treating our bodies like the temples they deserve to be... om om ommmmm!

Nooooo, I do not want a cream slice Mummylin, no sirree!

Well, maybe just a corner, to be polite, thanks Mummylin

Sorry for moaning, have been worrying all night and just feel a bit despondent. Like I said, I do have some other options though. So really, with a cream cake, some sunshine and perhaps DIY liposuction with the vacuum I will be a bit perkier.

but Lizzy it sounds like most of the issues are due to your business partner NOT you.

Can you not go it alone without him? You strike me as very self motivated (which is the key of course to self employment)...

blast have to get DD in a sec...shall check in later...if you want to try something completely different (but still self employed) I can send you over a few ideas.

Bugger bugger bugger.

DH was meant to go to a counselling session this morning so he could get back on his ADs.

He turned up for the session and they sent him home saying that they were double booked.

It took me forever to get him to go back to the GP and now because of this he is saying forget the whole thing.

Guess I'd better gear myself up for living with a very angry man for the forseeable future.

Oh Lizzy, that sounds like a real predicament... I wouldn't know what to suggest.

I am afraid I am in a similar situation.. I never envisaged running a ironing service, it was a stop gap and financial income whilst I worked on building up my painting based income but the last few years paid its price on my 'dreams' and I have to accept whilst it will always be my passion, I might simple not have what it takes to push it as a career.

I am researching my options as best I can. Last year was a key year in my 5 yr plan for getting things off the ground and I invested what available capital I had in self promotion and getting work ready for exhibiting. (it was so bad at home I have had to write last year off and start it again)

Last few years were the worst years of my life personally, it makes me feel physically sick to remember some of it, but I now can't afford to start again and sadly I got into debt with spending on nice things for me and the DC's to try and make life better. (wrong thing to do in hindsight but I was so desperately unhappy). I am a little out of my depth really but so want to improve things for the DC's.

Sorry.. my rant there . I get very scared about being trapped in this place much longer but so much energy goes into the DC's, the business that I do have and tying to get into a better place mentally that sometimes there just isn't anything left.

That wasn't supposed to be about me Lizzy. I am sorry for hijacking, but your situation resonates with my own in some ways.

Without being egotistical, I get angry with myself because I am not completely stupid and yet remain stuck.

Oh Bitter, hope you can persuade him to go to Counselling again.

Mitts, it's wierd isn't it? I think women often make huge sacrifices in their career and dreams in order to raise their DCs. I totally understand the feeling of being trapped, I seem to be constantly mopping up after males, DH, the boys and my Business Partner It doesn't sit well with me tbh!

I think we need to re-focus ourselves, work out what we want and how we will achieve that. Because, obviously, it is that simple!

Hells, that is very kind but I am not sure I am cut out to be self-employed, I don't know. I couldn't go it alone as it would need too much investment I simply don't have.
I am not sure I want to anyway, tbh, perhaps a complete change is in order?

As Hells says Lizzy, it sounds as if it is him and not you. Can you part ways and carry on yourself? Please don't feel down hearted . What does your DH think about all this? I bet he wouldn't want you worrying yourself to death.

Have a great time Trills

Lizzy - sorry you are having a tough time re the business. Can you maybe push suggest early retirement for partner? is it something you could do on your own - you have put so much hard work into it

It is gorgeous here today, just been out and bought some sun cream, as got to walk over to opticians later for eye test - tis 40 mins each way, and i will be a burnt lobster without protection

Thank the Lord I don't like cream cakes, although the thought was very kind Mummylin.

Lizzy - definitely sounds like him and not you. Explore all your options both self employed and employed, being self employed is scary especially if you are relying on someone else to make it work which your partner is oviosuly not doing.

Mitts rant away.

Oh Bitter, I am sorry. They can be so fragile can't they? Perhaps the docs could 'call him' and do some persuading?

He already spoke to the GP yesterday, which is why he booked in for today.

I think he was probably looking for any excuse to get out of it.

yay for lie ins and trips away.

Sorry, meant to add a - now that last post just looks sarcastic

double - I am cursed with a sarcastic tone of voice. It's only recently that I have realised it translates into my typing as well

Lucky me.

I have had a slice of toast and marmite.

Would have been two but dd was giving me her
two pounds a month face.

I am Ray!

I need to get a load of washing in and another hung out.

we're having tortillas for dinner with chicken and salad.