Actually Lizzy, when I put some of the ailments together, it would really make sense if it was. Especially over the last 6 months, which to be fair have been pretty grim.
Briefly, my DS suffered very intense rages after my Grandad died (April 2007) (also much beloved) which have only just really started to abate. DS was self harming (from 10), threatening suicide, and had no self esteem. His Dad treated him apallingly and as his drinking got worse, his treatment of DS and myself was crap. After 2 1/2 yrs of hell 'H' walked out earlier this year, with his own issues, drinking, suicide threats.... I had a blood count of 8 and Docs talked about me having to have a transfusion. I am still being monitored. I had a cancer scare, an immune system problem, endless infections,..
The depression got bad, really bad in late spring, but I was having night flushes/terrors, my hair is falling out, my memory has gone to pot. Other small stuff. To be honest I think I am lucky if that is all it is.
BUT. I have had the most amazing support, SS, CAMHS, my Doctor has been a rock, my lovely counsellor, some amazing friends and to be honest, this thread has helped so much. I don't know when I will come off AD's, the doctor is concerned I might need them long term because of how fucked up I was. But we shall see. Right now, I am in a better place than I have been for a very very long time, and I look at the photo of my Grandad and promise him, and myself, that I will get there, however long it takes.
I have just been laughing in the kitchen with my DS and it was the best thing in the world because he stopped laughing all together for such a long time and although I tell him, he will never really understand just how proud of him I am.
Anyway. I guess I needed to write that..I hope nobody minds.... I am eating that elephant, one spoon at a time...