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[MaryAnnSingleton]

Am sick of my messages never getting through - I have had 7 attempts to reply to Cakes' last post- am starting a new thread ....
this is what I wrote anyway.....

righto, this i my 7th attempt to reply on this thread - everything keeps disappearing !
My assessment is on 25th,and am told to allow two hours for it,crikey !!
Saw a lady in town yesterday who was having rads and finished at about the same time as me and she's just seen the onc. for her follow up - they are running very behind I know- so I emailed to ask about mine - I tie myself in knots in trying to be assertive yet not too needy or a nuisance - I suppose I just like to feel that everything is done in order. Am not worrying about my health -am sure breast is fine and dandy, it's more my emotional state which troubles me.
Anyway, they have made me an appointment but it's at the same time as my assessment so have emailed back and left a phone message...arghh !
Special thoughts for RWU today and of course KurriKurri - hope all ok..and of course you Cakes and Morph.

MAS- do you have someone neutral to discuss it with- someone who can give you answers without predjudicing the outcome iyswim? Good luck to you and ds- its probably just as nerve wracking for both of you!

Cakes- sounds hilarious, even more intruiged to know how a cat and a puppy got up there

KK- hope you have had a peaceful day after the nervous weekend!

The biospy cystoscopy (thats a mouthful!) will be done as a day case, but i will be out of action for a few days and no lifting or carrying for a week or so, then 4 day wait for the biopsy results, then gynae onc will book me in for surgery to get rid and obv any further treatment nescessary after removal (may have some stronger radio or alternative chemo if the cells are at all iffy!) Hopefully within two weeks or so i'll be lump free and out of pain Biopsy is provisionally booked for Thursday.

I mentioned today about the previous experience and how much it had affected me mentally- she shrugged and didn't seem to care that i felt there was a problem about it and couldn't understand why i'd prefer to be under general! DH is fully supportive though as i couldn't speak to him after the last op, had vivid nightmares and was really withdrawn for weeks afterwards even though it was all fully explained to me (the info sheet even mentioned about the mental aspect etc)

Anyhooo, you'll know where i am if i disapear for a bit!

this Thursday do you mean RWU ? I think any assault on your body is traumatic, particularly in ladies parts - so much is tied up in it - other bits of the body less so I think.
Love the cat and dog image !
Thanks for kind words about ds - we were invited to the recital along with all the other parents & relations of the children taking music exams this month so there was a proper audience -it dawned on him that it would be a bit bigger than anticipated and he was very nervous just before - I was so worried for him BUT he was wonderful - I know I'm his mum, but he sang really well and the timing was spot on (it's quite tricky in parts) and seemed a confident performer - I was sooo proud, I'd've wept if not so public ! It really lifted my spirits and am feeling so much better.
I also had a call from my wonderful bcn who is just fab !
Thanks for your support - this thread is so helpful.

So glad it went well- good practice for him for the future also good to hear about bcn- i think you have to be fab to do their job, i've never met an un-fabby one !

Yup- this Thursday (as in the day after tomorrow [gulp]) but possibly be bumped to friday either way it will be done by the end of the week!

dear God - can you just look at this,the post before mine..
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/general_health/865113-Scared-have-lump-on-breast?msgid=17718205

Flipping heck have just taken a look. God, how can these women live with themselves. Talk about irresponsible!!!!

And talking of irresponsible, what about RWU's consultant?? She may be fab with the surgical and drug side of things but to ride roughshod over someone's emotional concerns - Sheesh! My onc (male) is also a bit dismissive about these things, but I'd expect more imagination from a woman when it comes to lady bits.

Glad it is getting sorted soon though. Sending positive thoughts and holding hands (won't look, promise)

So glad DS's performance went well MAS. He really does sound like a treasure. He'll always remember it - and so will you!

Am off to that other thread to see what goes on with the mad herb woman....

i'm not sure i'd class the cons as female tbh! think Jac Nailer from Holby!

Have reported that post- tis disgusting imo!

Hi all, have been out this morning, and only just read the mad post.As I said on that thread, I'm amazed it is still there. This sort of thing makes me so angry, its crass and insensitive,absolutely the last thing the OP on the other thread needs spouted at her.

I will report too, the one we had on here disappeared reasonably quickly, this one seems to be lingering.

Congratulations to your DS MAS, it sounds as if he did really well last night.

Thinking of you for tomorrow RWU, consultants seem to come in all varieties don't they. I've had some lovely ones, and one or two arrogant bastards less lovely ones.
Anyway, virtual hand-holding from me as well. xx

good luck tomorrow RWU - am crossing my legs for you !

Am not letting the nutjob post lie...
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/_chat/871662-how-come-this-nutjob-post-has-been-allowed-to-stay?rnd=12597700510 88

Have added to your thread MAS. I got the same reply when I reported it.(The mad one obviously, not yours )

Sorry I missed all the fun on the thread MAS started! I still think MagicDoc should have been deleted - but hey ho, at least a lot of people weighed in, and she has decided not to return and fight so - well done MAS!

Sending lots of positive thoughts and stuff for RWU today. Am sure she will be fine, especially with her feisty attitude to life and all the crap it can throw, but still...not a nice thing to be doing today.

Am off to do some work: I have so much to do that I have spent the last two days in a tailspin achieving nothing. Not helpful But I don't really know where to start - plus the fact that I still seem to have quite a bit of the vagueness that chemo imparts, so I am conscious that I keep forgetting things as well. AND some new business seems to be coming out of the woodwork DH thinks this is very timely as I have now finished treatment, (and while I am very pleased, I am secretly not sure I feel up to it yet). A nice problem to have, I know, so I am not complaining.

Have a good day, all!

magicdoc has returned but been reprimanded by other posters ! Excellent news about new work but be careful not to overdo it -am sure there is a balance
Thinking of RWU xxx

That's her told, then!

Let's hope she clears off. I had missed the OP's post saying magicdoc had upset her

(You can see that I am still procrastinating)

'ello! have been bumped we'll start again tomorow and hopefully they'll have a bed for me!

oh arse

am not in the greatest of moods now! have told magicdoc to sod off

Arse indeed! and

(mental note to cross legs again in the morning)

Oh RWU what a pain, hopefully they'll get you in tomorrow. Thinking of you xx

thinking of you for tomorrow RWU x

Completely irrelevant post here - but it's for MAS - i have just happened on that old thread you posted on about dreaming of toilets. Couldn't believe so many other people have the toilet dream - and I also have the thing you mentioned about chairs! A lot! I am glad I am not alone in my madness.

Irrelevant sidebar over. As you were.

No news from RWU yet - guess that means she has not been bumped again, so that's a plus. hope she gets some more humane people dealing with her this time around.

spookily I was just thinking of her - really hope all is going well.
And how weird about the loos/chair thing !! I suppose it's an anxiety thing/fear of doing something inappropriate !

Just worries me that (in my dreams) I usually go along with it and go on the chair

Just popping in to say I hope everything's going well for RWU, have been thinking of her today.

Chairs?? Toilets?? - I probably don't want to know do I?

Have a good weekend all.

I go on the chair too !!! it's very disturbing ! KK - you don't want to know really - it's just dreams we have about lavatories

How are you feeling, RWU?