I AM giving up smoking (AGAIN) tomorrow, please support me

[mosschops30]

I hate it, I am stuck in a rut of feeling stressed, smoking more, which is making me feel even worse.
I dont go to the gym anymore, mostly because i feel too rough, used to go 4 times a week.

It smells, its killing me, its too expensive.

God I hope i can do it this time, I really do want to NEVER smoke again

Hey Mossy - I know its hard but you can do it. Give yourself something to look forward to in your breaktimes - start reading a great book or eat something nice. Don;t give up now - smoking can be really enjoyable but the enjoyment can not be worth risking you not seeing your dc's grow up

Well done blue. I am getting married next month. I'm quite chilled at the moment and its one of the reasons I want to stop (again). I don't want to be all dolled up with a faaaaaag hanging out of my mouth

Keep going both

Thanks both for your support. Ive felt like this for a couple of days now, and I just know it will get worse, and I end up going back. Why doesnt it get easier for me??

I have been buying nice stuff for work, but as Ive started a new job I felt that smoking was also a social thing and I got to talk to more people outside in the bus shelter (god how bad does that sound )

Im not going to give in, I smell nice, all my money is my own, my kids dont have to see me do it and generally I do feel calmer.

Tilly I was that bride with a £2k dress and a fag . Well done that must be such an incentive

Mosschops - I really know what you mean about it being a social thing. I don't think I could have stopped when I was at work - all the cool people used to hang around in the smoking shelter

DP and I were just saying that we miss going outside during the evening and just spending 5 minutes having a chat and a cig together. Without it, we spend most of the evening watching tv (or mn'ing ) and barely speak to each other . There are so many reasons I enjoy smoking but my mum has just had her second major heart attack in 5 years (she's only 53) and she is a heavy smoker and still won't stop. I'm nagging her like mad but can only really do that with a clear conscious if I stop myself

anyway - am waffling - sorry

Have a look on the nhs stop smoking website. We all know how bad it is for us but it sometimes good to read them over and over in weak moments.

Keep going mossy! And tilly!! And bluey!!!

Its annoying when you still miss your fags when you think you should be finding it easier, isn't it?

Its like the reality of giving up for good finally dawns, after the novelty and initial bravery of giving up.

I had a pig of an early evening for cravings, too, today, fwiw.

But we'll get there. Millions of people have given up for good and WE CAN TOO.

Take care. Deep slow breaths. Imagine pink lungs instead of brown ones .

x eek x
31 days fag free
310 cigarettes not smoked
£93 cash saved

4200 fags not smoked

£1260 not burnt

freedom

I am now in my 10th fag free year.

Like any other long journey, it started with a single step. Or a single no-fag day.

Followed by lots of individual days with no cigarettes.

In fact for the first 10 days I had a big sheet of paper made out in half hour slots. I would colour in each slot when I did another half hour without a fag.

It was great in the morning colouring in 16 half hours when I got up, it gave me incentive to colour a load more in as I went through the day.

Might sound pathetic but anything and everything that gives you incentive, if it works for you then do it.

MOSSY WELL DONE !!!!

gosh this is so great
I'm so pleased to walk this road with you guys and grateful for the support
x

brilliant idea flibberty also I do the thing of visualising my lungs cleaning themselves (do they? I have no idea) -- it does help

Mosschops
how you doing?

aww its so nice to come on here and read the posts.
Im ok today, still having those yearning moments but havent given in. I am using my inhalator more, especially when I leave work.
Tilly, IKWYM about having 5 minutes chat with your dh, we used to do that too. Its now MN for me and CoD4 for dh

We're all doing so well lets keep it up.

I work in ITU and every time i want one I think, its not just the smoking related things (like cancer, heart attack, stroke) that will kill me, but also that if something random happens to me, like a massive bleed or car accident, my chances of doing well on a ventilator are far less as a smoker than a non smoker

It isn't death itself that is really the worry - but the horrid long cruel slow death that has to be endured before the actual death bit that really worried me....

That and the image of my dd's step mother taking my place on the morning they got married, me not standing in church and watching them walk down the isle but there step mother (a faceless woman) being in my place....

Gosh Ivy - yep ! That would work for me as well

Glad you're feeling a bit better today Mosschops. One day at a time ...

Are you ok bluesky ?

Day 19
£228 saved (including dp)
All nicotine has left my body
My circulation is improving
Lungs are becoming clearer
I no longer smell like shit

tilly you smell soooo lovely - just wait till your nose gets back into action and you smell the stale ciggy person sat next to you, ahhh its rank....

OMG today I walked past a shop with two men smoking outside and I was nearly sick!!!! Honestly the smell was so gross and so strong in my nose, I couldnt believe i'd ever smoked.

Plus I also smiled to myself as I had just purchased new make up (from YSL and MAC), some new jeans and a new jumper well gotta spend that fag money on something. I think its important to reinforce the fact that I have this money because Im not smoking and spending on nice goodies instead of not making a point of it IYKWIM

Wow tilly day 19 is amazing, I bet you look (and smell) fabulous

How is bluesky??? Hope youre not having any 'moments' and that you havent posted because you are out buying yourself ridiculously priced smellies/makeup/perfume

Well done on the spending spree Mossy - you deserve it

I do feel a million times better (and the smell on others is hideous). Unfortunately, I don't look too good. I think my body is clearing all the crap out of my system and I have a zit on my chin which needs its own postcode. It is mahoooosive It'll all be worth it though

Bluesky ?? How you doing ?

Lol yes you have to imagine all that toxic rubbish leaving your body and making you into a godess in the process
I am going out for the first time saturday night, Im not too worried, the worst that can happen is that I end up having a few drunken puffs of a fag, then get back on the wagon sunday!

Come and tell us how you are bluesky (and get out from under the sofa cushions, there are no old fags lying around down there )

Okay, don't know if this will help but will give it a try. I'm thinking especially of Mosschops here.

Someone told me that giving up smoking is a little like a bad break up. In the beginning, you are angry/hurt/filled with rightousnes (I can't spell, sorry) and that fuels you, even though it's hard. But then, as time goes by, some of that anger or hurt dissipates, or is less obvious and you find yourself thinking, "well maybe it will be different this time? Maybe I'll be able to only smoke one or two now and again? Maybe I won't become addicted". And so the craving almost becomes worse, particularly when you're doing something you used to do with your cigarettes (ie, everything).

But... like a bad break up, you have to keep remembering that just because you loved the guy and he was always with you at great parties, and was great at a cuddle when your boss was being a dick, he was also astonishingly bad for you/selfish/abusive/insert appropriate phrase and you ended it for a reason. And it's the same for smoking - it had all those good things, but overall, it brought you down and made you feel crap.

So ladies... no late night booty calls please!

Bling that is a fab post and sooooo true

Mossy you are super fab giving up partner

excellent post Bling, yes there's definitely a "high" which goes with the initial giving up I think that got me through the first three days! then there was my midnight hunt --
now I'm at "oh that's right I don't smoke any more"

but Tilly I can't believe this I have come out in spots too -- is that a detoxifying thing? you will glow on your wedding day as a reward!

Am also losing weight because whenever I ate too much I would have a cigarette as a digestif and now I can't so I'm put off the eating...

Bling - I like it

pretty hard day today, just had to keep my eyes to the ground and keep on going

I was doing that thing where you make up excuses: I really need one to concentrate on planning x, I can't think straight without my cup of coffee and a cigarette etc etc

nearly bedtime though (phew)

how are you doing moss
congrats Tilly.. you are three weeks now aren't you?

Remind me Blue Sky? How long is it now? Lots ofpeople say the first few days are the worst. I thought the first 5 weeks were hell.

Don't give up. One day at a time, remind yourself of the icky stuff, smother on some expensive hand cream and have a cup of tea.

Can I join? I'm on day 7 - one week gone, and I hate it. Haven't told anyone in RL, apart from dh. Not sure why, I suppose I don't want the added pressure (and the guilt/shame if I don't manage it - pathetic or what....). I started not smoking as a 'I'll see how it goes' rather than 'that's it, never again', but I think I'm just fooling myself. I do really really want to stop. I know I really need to stop. I think I have actually stopped for ever, but it seems easier to keep saying to myself that we'll see how it goes, one day at a time. I am weak!

Mosschops and bluesky - you are doing brilliantly. I will keep reading your posts.

Yes - 3 weeks today for me !!!!

Welcome gladbag - congrats on your first week. You're doing brilliantly

Sorry to hear you're having a rough day bluesky... Remember - there is absolutely nothing in cigarettes which helps concentration levels (the opposite in fact because it restricts your oxygen levels and you can think clearer without it). There is nothing which helps "relax" you (in fact, cigarettes make your heart beat quicker and have the opposite effect)/ It is all purely pyschological.

Well done on the weight loss as well. I joined weight watchers when I gave up (because I normally put weight on and can't afford to with the wedding fast approaching). I had my weigh in last night and I've lost a total of 8lbs. I am indecently pleased with myself

Keep strong everyone. I find weekends more difficult but will keep at it

OMG Tilly losing 8lbs and giving up smoking is atounding well done you, I hope you are patting yourself on the back on a daily basis.
3 weeks is great, just picture how lovely your lungs are looking!
welcome to the thread gladbag, how are you feeling today?
bluesky I know exactly what you mean about wanting one to do x,y and z. Sometimes you feel like you can barely function without having a fag dont you?

I went to spin class last nite for the first time in ages, it nearly killed me, but not half as much as it did when I was still smoking. Then I went for a swim and jacuzzi this morning. I might go for a run tomorrow before we go away for the weekend. Im really enjoying the pampering side of things, its whats really working for me

Good luck to everyone over the weekend, if I dont get back to the thread before then. I am hoping I wont fall off the wagon tomorrow, I am certainly not going to buy any, and if I end up having one then so what, I'll just get back on sunday morning.

I'm enjoying the pampering as well (Manicure and reflexology booked for Sunday morning ).

Have a good time tomorrow. Like you say, if you slip up, it'll be a drunken few drags (which will taste rank after all this time) and you just need to start again on Sunday.