Love, Love Will Pear Us ATart, Again - 10 / 10 splinter thread

[FrannyandZooey]

Do what you like

It's anarchy

Boco has had a ds at the strange woods place? It all sounds very pagan. Ha at not talking proper fraggle. I liked the dozers.

I am so tired but in a good way. DH didn't think we should go that far but despite being knackered and sore I feel much better in myself for getting away. I love going to the beach, I would like to live there again really.

I got carried away with the cheese.

oh good MrsC
being very tired in a good way sounds wonderful
I love that feeling
I think you are really on the mend, do you?

right TITLES
tell me which one
or make up some more

Oh yes, don't know where he came from, how odd.

Walberswick is my favourite, and love going to the Crown. Sounds good.

It was quite pagan, and there were loads of wicker people, and wicker women with their legs open and giant breasts. But that's fairly standard for round these parts. (the wicker, not the big boobs)

I have a mn curfew - must go and do some work. The washing machine has broken and dp is swearing loudly from the other room.

I think I am, Franny, and it is a nice feeling. I feel recovered and like everything works again, just in a stiff way.

This is what dh says I have to watch out for though, feeling better and getting carried away and overdoing it. He says it has only been two weeks and I have to manage while he works, albeit from home. He is just concerned. He has been very good and I have been quite a baggage at times. It is picking ds2 that is tricky, I have to do it sometimes and I can really feel it pulling.

I don't really feel like anything is missing and I feel like I ought to, does that make sense? Not that there is a ghost uterus there or anything, just if I think about it it is too odd so I don't think if I can help it. Is that denial or being sensible. Who knows.

Anyway - my vote is for Jim but I have been indulged recently.

yes it is a relief to get back to Essex I can tell you

just tattoos and ford cortinas but no giant wicker people with wicker genitalia

I think thinking about it being missing is too odd and too soon atm
you wouldn't keep picking at the wound, so don't keep picking at it mentally either IYSWIM

which was jim? oh dear I forget them as soon as people say them

Sounds sensible not denial to me - you don't have to feel it as an absence, I don't suppose people do if they have out their appendix or tonsils - I know it's different, but you're still the same.

How about Sultanas of Swing?

Revolting image, Franny, but a useful one! No, I wouldn't pick at the wound so I will leave the mental imagery. I think it is that visual thing again. I like to picture how it all is but my mental picture is that all is present. I try to do a mental operation but it won't go, I look back and it's got in again. Weird.

Riders on the Corn was my vote, can't remember who did it. Fk?

LOL at sultanas

oh and Boco to answer your earlier q no you may NOT mention loofahs on this thread PLUS you told me in PERSON the most hideous loofah story

was there a sultans of ping too?

Yes, Boco, I am the same, I think I felt I needed to imagine myself without it to move on or I wouldn't have accepted it, but I see I don't.

I have only come to this conclusion in the last few posts as I've written it down. Funny how that happens.

acceptance comes over a long period of time though not all at once
don't force it

Thanks, that is actually really helpful, and a relief.

aw MrsC you have been being hard on yourself
what are those stages of grieving? Doesn't acceptance come LAST, not first?

i actually understand tese suggestions zippi is debating msking sure she has chosen to be on her own for her bday tho the only place i can go is the scene of last years fiasco

MrsC, your cheeseboard sounds like my childhood holidays.

Ok, thank you for all being sensible when I am not. Trip to chemist on list for tomorrow. Then trip to dr, I suppose. Or I could dump him and not have to think about all this.

zippi, was bf teasing when he said melodramatic?

at wooden penises. Is pine cones a euphemisim?

MrsC, you are being hard on yourself. I think some confusion about how you feel and how you think you should feel is inevitable.

Zippi, what are you going to do for bday? I spent my 30th alone. Well, with DS, but he didn't know. We went out for breakfast and then I asked what he wanted to do and he said the grocery store, so that is what we did. Then I went to work and no-one knew it was my birthday and I quite liked that it was just a normal day for me.

UR i did all this stuff..i still didnt know better

well i think he was joking abiut he melodrmaatic

im not sure about how you are suppose to do relatiosnbhips tbh

or birthdeays i dont remember ever having a nice one

he said hed liked to go to wales again

iu said thats where i might go next week on my own

i think on my own is safewst

on my own is safest for my birthday i think

What on my cheesboard reminded you of your childhood, UR?

Perhaps I have been over analysing and instructing myself to be thinking deep accepting thoughts when I can't really be bothered. I like to have things straight in my mind but it has been tiresome.

I have a spa in a packet, a milk and honey gentle comforting feeling according to Lavera. I shall think vacuous relaxing thoughts during my bath.

Well, make sure you do something nice for yourself, won't you?

Relationships are hard aren't they? I am not sure I feel like I am in one - I want to be and I think he thinks we are but I am a bit reticent and reserved.

Why don't you go together on your birthday without any expectations, Zippi, maybe you will be surprised.

The places you mentioned, MrsC - we used to ride to Walsingham on the light railway and spent hours at Binham Priory. I love north Norfolk.

mrs c

hje is going to scotland with a mate