Glowwormish, please sign back in and let us know what's up. Try not to tackle your whole life's problems at once, that just leads to despair and inaction.
What's in front of you? Take care of that first. Don't think about how much you have to do, just break it down into manageable chunks. Of course, most of us want to have better things in our lives but we can only achieve them in small steps. The only people who get instant wealth are the lottery winners, and I don't believe that's always a happy event either.
Write down a list of these things you're procrastinating about. Take one stressful task per day or per week, make sure you and DH work on this together. It makes such a difference when you know what it is that you have to do, instead of all these stresses swimming about your head and becoming much worse than they are.
Make time for yourself and DH. Even if you feel like you don;t have any time to relax, every area of your life will improve if you can start to feel happier in yourself. This next part is a bit of a no-brainer and maybe difficult for you.
Address your drinking properly. There's no problem that can't be made worse by drink, and it's no way to relax. As well as feeling physically unwell, your mental health and ability to cope will be suffering. I know how it is to feel alone with the drinking and that it's the only thing you've got. AA changed that for me, I suddenly found a network of solid friends who wanted nothing for me than me to recover. There are compassionate, caring people out there who will help you. You just need to look in the right places. Never write off anything, I know I had to be desperate to accept that AA would help me but there you go. I don;t think I would have coped with losing my hearing if I hadn't had that support from my good friends in AA.
If don't want to go to AA at this stage then please seek the help of your GP, this level of stress you're under isn't sustainable either, you sound pretty desperate. I wish you well.
LIzzie, the only way to tell if the liver has become cirrhotic is by a biopsy. They stcik a needle into your side and remove a wee bit of your liver under local anaesthetic. You just couldn't tell otherwise, apart from the really high LFTs or if you start turning yellow. Cirrhosis is not reversible, inflammation is. He should be aiming to stop drinking now. It's early days yet with the drinking so don't get your hopes up too much. Look after yourself too.
Hi to everyone else.