@765g welcome. I found at this point it helped to keep busy with tidying, weeding, batch cooking and enlisting support eg lifts for kids to activities in future. Displacement helps stop you going down the rabbit hole and planning your funeral. Also the Calm app and yoga breathing.
@Tilllly have you got any domperidone? That helped me a lot for top up anti-emetics. I hate nausea with a passion and it is my default when anxious. Sympathy!
@TwigTheWonderKid I am amazed how many different men deliver the shopping, and never a woman in 4 years. Occasionally we get a repeat visit and they are very friendly. Here anything goes for door opening. But I like the idea of dressing up for him. Tiara and feathers perhaps?
Talking of planning funerals we had a lovely imagining of the funeral we want for MIL. She was a very elegant lady who loved Am Dram and took part in many musicals and operettas. We are thinking the wake will be in a village hall with music from her favourites, a slide show and a display of her shiny shoe collection along with a proper Devonshire cream tea. We have a good friend who tuned her piano who might play for us. Everybody who comes can take away one of her ornaments to remember her by (and reduce the number we have to offload to the Hospice shop) She would thoroughly approve!
DH is doing well, and we are trying to plan the rota for looking after FIL. I am happy to be installed as a human fire alarm even if I can’t do much.
I am slowly healing, no drama there thankfully. May all of us do the same.