No Smoking but lots of Chatting...Successful thread #2

[charliecat]

New Home for us Girls!

hi coddy, actually i could always smell really well for some strange reason, better than my non-smoking friends/family...bizarre! however, we all smell nice to everyone else (and ourselves!) now

Wow thanks!! i need something short and sweet to pin up to the wall!

going to bed to read now - oh fg, i forgot to tell you that i gave up on 'the cider house rules' to read yours couldn't wait i'm afraid....!!!

Well this was a lovely frosty morning! I left Tanya with someone else to take to Nursery and me and Tasha walked to school at high speed as we were late, thats a half hour hike uphill BTW if you didnt already know!
Id dropped her off and was halfway back home when I realised the walk hadnt even touched my lungs yet and I felt better then than as a smoker I felt standing at the front door ready to start walking.
Woo hoo...its monents like that that will keep me going.
So now I have done my hours circuit and Im ready to sit here till 12.45 to recover

Well this was a lovely frosty morning! I left Tanya with someone else to take to Nursery and me and Tasha walked to school at high speed as we were late, thats a half hour hike uphill BTW if you didnt already know!
Id dropped her off and was halfway back home when I realised the walk hadnt even touched my lungs yet and I felt better then than as a smoker I felt standing at the front door ready to start walking.
Woo hoo...its monents like that that will keep me going.
So now I have done my hours circuit and Im ready to sit here till 12.45 to recover

I'm at work so can see my 'counter' which says 2 weeks not smoking, 140 fags not smoked, £35.04 saved. Not bad, eh?

STILL got a headache though ...

That list from Codmeister was interesting but I have to say that I haven't noticed an increase in energy or particularly that my lungs feel 'clearer' yet. I have got rid of that horrendous rattling hack of a cough I have first thing though that has always made people close by turn in horror expecting to see an 80-year-old woman about to keel over with lung disease...

Well PN....thats just the cough my mother has...arent you pleased to be rid of it?

HI cc, posts crossed, g'morning!

So what do you do with the rest of the day now then? Are all your little 'uns out for the day?

VERY pleased to be rid of it, yes. Dp says I've had it since he's known me and it used to terrify him when he first met me. I was VERY skinny when we met and he thought I was like a 19th century consumptive!!!

Actually id say its at about 3 weeks you begin to feel more lively, with a bit more get up and go in the morning...you are doing great, it sounds like your on a downer about it.
What is worse, feeling grim as a non smoker
Or feeling grim knowing youve still got the habit to quit?

Ive got to go and get Tnaya my litle one at Nursery...thats a half hour walk slow or 15 mins at break neck spped at lunch time then im going to go into town to take some books back to the libabry and see if I can get soem extra bits and bobs for the kids party on Saturday.
How excellent your cough is gone as youve had it so long. That is EXCELLLENTTTTT

Cc, there was no option for me. I was feeling so lousy about smoking both mentally and physically. It had to happen. I lurked round these quitting threads for AGES before I took the plunge and I knew when I did it it was for good this time. Since dd was born I've HATED myself for smoking, felt guilty everytime I lit up, and as I said once before used to lie in bed in the morning feeling terror that I was still smoking, was nearing 40 and was going to kill myself by doing it.

I'm not really on a downer any more than usual. I'm kind of a low key type person. Dp says.

Miserable sod.
Thats how I feel, I cant smoke, I dont want to, I want to be rid of it. Im never ever going to peacefully enjoy a fag again, im always going to know I shouldnt be doing it and I must stop so...well I may as well just get on with it.

So is Tanya at nursery 5 mornings? How do you find it? My dd's just 2 and we're thinking of starting her doing 3 mornings mid-January. Is that a good age do you think?

Its sad really how much of a dreadful addiction it is and the brainwashing that goes with it...and you think you CANT stop...well we have you know! Youve joined the thread at the right time, you will know from lurking at first we kept stumpling into ashtrays...but we are over that!

One thing that does keep me going is remembering when I gave up that once before. It was 10 years ago and I gave up for 2 years. There was a point a few months in when I remember just not thinking about smoking at all. And I also remember other people lighting up in front of me and thinking they were nuts. I would watch people smoking in the street and think 'why???' and I knew I had succeeded. I started again in the most pathetic way. I started my PhD and made friends with 2 lovely people who smoked and used to have an odd one with them convinced I was 'cured.' Then I got embarrassed that I always smoked their fags so bought 10 to have socially with them. Then realised I fancied an odd one at home. Within a few months I was up to about 10 a day. Within a year I was up to 20.

Yeah go for it! Its a good age as she will be "growing up" witht he nursery workers and the other children there and they make little friends...its ever so sweet, its great really as at home they are like this little mollycoddled person but at nursery everything is at thier height, for them with loads of other 2ft 4 people!
Tanyas at nursery 4 days. 2 with me as I work there and 2 without.
She loves it!

AHHHHH your last post makes me want to scream with rage. You think youll be ok...I think ill be ok when I have a joint but then I wake up the next day wanting another and spend the day stoned...Its such a shit.
I think thats where never take another puff makes a lot of sense.

What age did you start Tanya? Is it 9-12pm?

It's lovely chatting to you!

Think I'm going to have to do some work now though. .

But the want for another puff.......is an all consuming thought when it gets in your head!

Dp's a big dope smoker. He smokes usually with herbal cigarettes but occasionally has them with ordinary ones. He fights the idea that he's addicted but I KNOW he is. He has these months 'off' and then buys a bit saying he's going to just smoke it once a week but within a week he's smoked the lots and feels awful about it.

9.30-1...go and do some work then See you later...xxx

Thats me....but once the dopes finished I go back to the fags...

Yes, the puff factor is all-consuming. It's hard to explain it. And also amazing to notice that the urges come less frequently. For instance on my way to work normally I'd have a smoke on the walk to the bus stop then after the journey (1 hour ... groan ...) I'd have another between the bus stop an work place. Today I actually didn't think about it until I was almost at the door to my work place. Then I thought about it BIG TIME and found my eyes scanning the floor for butts. I'd never pick up a butt by the way, it's just a kind of therapy for me. Butt therapy.

Really am going to do some work now!! Have a very good smoke-free day cc xxx