Dependent Drinkers and Alcoholics (recovering or active) Support Thread II?

[kokeshi]

Welcome to the thread, the purpose of this is to give anyone, who is having any trouble with their drinking, to come and post about it honestly and without judgement.

There are many of us that use the thread for support and encouragement: some in recovery, others just needing a place to share about their worries. It's been going on in one form of another for a while now and has helped many people.

Everybody's welcome, no matter what stage your drinking is at.

Jump right in, the water's fine

I've just read in my '10 years younger' book that excessive alcohol consumption can contribute to premature greying by leaving you lacking in B vitamins. The article was written as if you could up your B vits and your hair colour would come back surely not!

I started going grey in my early 20's , but it didn't need colouring as it was just the odd 1 or 2 strands and I didn't care if it was noticeable. By the time I was 25 I had to start colouring it as my sideburns and temples had gone completely grey . I don't know why this has happened, my sis is older than me and doesn't have any greys and my parents didn't start greying until their mid-thirties. I really fucking hate it. It makes me feel like an ugly old hag. at all of you with your youthful hair . It's even worse that I have resistant greys - God, that's depressing!

Kokeshi, enjoy your evening . I don't envy you at all but it sounds like a great cause.

Resistant greys sound like some militant group!
Whats a 10 years younger book?

Kokeshi I hope you don't get too cold- its freezing here in bonny Newcastle.

Anyone around in the next 20 or so minutes?

Interesting about lack of B vits accelerating greying of the hair, that didn't occur to me, but it makes sense that hair production wouldn't be left unscathed by booze. Actually, you know I think I DID have some stray grey hairs on my mid-20s but pulled them out and they didn't seem to have returned. Another weird thing that's happened is that my hair has gotten lighter, from pretty dark brown to quite blondish at the front. I have no idea why this has happened and most people including the hairdresser think I've dyed it. My hairy always seemed really wiry and unmanageable (a bit like my life ) a few years back as well. One of the many things I noticed when I looked back at a pic of me in Taiwan. I was like a fecking man mountain! Right enough I was standing next to a teeny chinese person at the time which just made me look bigger and more bloated.

It's bloody minus one up here tonight and I think I got frostbite standing in the arena. The poor horses didn't look very pleased either but it was fun when we actually got riding. They have a new horse called Fonzy and he's just fab, he never nipped, kicked or tried to throw me off once. Result!

How are you all tonight?

X posted teasle...I'm here. You alright? LOL at militant group!!

Don't think I want to know about the state of your 'hairy'! But thanks for sharing

I lol at your hairy.

i've made my way through a bottle tonight

Hahahaha! That is just in the right context as well!!! . Yes, let's leave my hairy out of this...

Bottle of what SEA?

only 9% wine

HI Kokeshi, am good thanks, went out for an hour and saw some friends, which was canny.
I think I've been in the house quite a lot this week, and not getting out as much as I have been, so have felt a bit stir-crazy. Had a bit laugh tonight though- someone asked me if I'd been drinking, but I think its because I was being daft and loud, hopefully not cos I was talking shite. Hmm...no, am sure its because I was being daft...

How are you?

Hi SEA- that doesn't sound too bad- or do you think it is?

HI SEA.

Teasle, I totally get that feeling of going stir crazy. I don;t like spending a lot of time on my own because it depresses me and I start navel gazing. Like you said having a bit of a laugh is the perfect tonic for it. Funny that people automatically assume you're pissed if you're having a good time.

I'm good. Starting to gt routines back in despite my sleep problems, which is a huge issue for me and how I feel in myself. We're self employed and don't have to 'punch in', which can be detrimental I think cos I can just decide to take the day off if I feel like shite. That makes me feel worse if I'm not productive, and I also feel guilty that DP has to run the show alone.

If I have commitments to other things, I'm better at honouring them though so I'm trying to find a balance of doing enough to keep me going and not so much that I feel overwhelmed. I'm meeting my new sponsor next tuesday and I'm already worrying about it. Will be fine though...

i look at it as my time off, from life, from what?

Yes if you have a routine, such as work, or the hateful school run, it is easier to get into 'good' routines. You must have to be more self-disciplined if its up to you when you get up . Is your dp much better with the old sleep pattern than you then? I do think that some people just do seem to have sleep patterns that can be quite easily disrupted, and then its difficult to get back.

How come you're worrying about your new sponsor? Are you still settling into your sponsor/sponsee relationship?

Sorry SEA, x-posted. Eh? didn't understand that, sorry!

SEA, I think if you're not ready to give up your drinking and still see it as a positive thing then no one will be able to convince you otherwise. But in retrospect, a lot of the time I condsidered 'me time' I was actually in the process of destroying myself. Hope you figure something out. There's lots of support here and outside of you do choose to do something about your drinking.

Teasle, Dp is a great sleeper, can happily spend 12 hours in bed and then be really productive. I think too much! DP has 14 years sobriety so is pretty content.

I guess embarking on a journey with a new sponsor is always a wee bit daunting, it's opening yourself up isn't it? She's been a friend for a while and I'm wondering if this will affect how easy it is for me to be honest with her. More things have arisen since my first time round and I really feel more equipped to cope with whateevr may arise. I started the sponsor relationship just before I went to Oz so we were just communicating be email. I have nowhere to hide and I can't edit my responses when I'm face to face. She's lovely, has been on a huge spiritual journey herself and this is kinda where I'm at.

Gosh, I'm rambling...

Sounds exciting and a bit scary at the same time, Kokeshi.
Am off to bed now- been nice to communicate in nearly 'real' time!

Night night . Good to speak with you too!

tomorrow maybe i'll feel like i'm bent on destroying myself. but atm i feel it's worth the risk. ..

We always feel kinda indestructible when we're under the influence. It's when we have to sober up and life in the real world that cracks begin to show. If drinking had no consequences and enhanced my life all the time, I'm sure I wouldn't have had to seek help. Unfortunately being an adult requires that we live life on life's terms. Not sure why you're posting SEA, if your happy with it? No one force can or will sobriety on you if it's not what you want or need.

i think i don't really know what i need, or even if i do have a problem. still thanks for letting me rant on here. will leave thread now.

Hi SEA, please don't take what I said the wrong way, I just meant that it's futile for anyone to try and help another if they don't want to be helped or feel they are happy with it. You're welcome to keep posting, I just didn't understand your posts last night and what you wanted. It looked like you were telling us how much you'd drank and were happy with it. It did seem like a bit of a challenge, like 'I can drink this and I'm happy, so ner'. There have been a couple of similar drunk posts on the thread of late and I don't think it's helpful to those who are working really hard to sort their drinking out. I think it's good to explain what you mean by a post, rather than just leaving it ambiguous. People will respond to you if you open up. Come back anytime if you need some support.

How's everyone today?

Hi folks. i am in a dreadful mess. My marriage is practically over, and I have kicked DH out with the kids this weekend so I can have some space to clear my head. but what did i do as soon as they left last night? Get plastered. Very big and grown up of me. . And despite feeling so ill in the night I woke up this morning wanting anohter drink. And guess what? I have had one. And no doubt I will continue to drink. (It's inevitable really - I am an addict after all).

How can I survive this? I am just not strong enough to manage alone. But I cant stay in a reltionship that is wrong.

I just want to sob and sob but the tears wont come. Good job probably as there is no one to comfort me. Story of my life.

SEA dont leave

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and one for BM for last night {{{{{}}}}}}