Dependent Drinkers and Alcoholics (recovering or active) Support Thread II?

[kokeshi]

Welcome to the thread, the purpose of this is to give anyone, who is having any trouble with their drinking, to come and post about it honestly and without judgement.

There are many of us that use the thread for support and encouragement: some in recovery, others just needing a place to share about their worries. It's been going on in one form of another for a while now and has helped many people.

Everybody's welcome, no matter what stage your drinking is at.

Jump right in, the water's fine

How old are you and what is your job?

seriously i don't thin i have any isues just no stop button..I want insensity always

is it about acceptance or do i need to change?

I have a very good job and I'm 41

noone is like me - that's hard.

hey i really have to go ds just woken up but would love to chat again would it be ok to look out for you tomorrow hedonia

That's up to you. But really, if you are up at 3.23am high (and I wouldn't necessarily equate this with happy - come back in the morning and then really tell us how you're feeling) and on your own, it seems like you have something missing in your life. Is your job, family, kids, wonderful house not enough?

hey i really have to go ds just woken up but would love to chat again would it be ok to look out for you tomorrow hedonia

You're not unique.

god lost you them

but really it is enough really!

So why do you need drugs and drink?

because it makes experiences better...music sex everythig

Would you encourage your kids to take drugs then, if it makes everything better?

What about the come-downs and the hangovers? Surely that's a price to pay, as well as the effect it has on other aspects of your life.

Your health will suffer too, our bodies can't sustain this sort of punishment indefinitely...it just gets worse and worse.

Hedonia, I hope you manage to get some sleep before you have to work. Do come back and visit us during the day, or if you're feeling a bit shite. MAny of us have been in your position, but ultimately you have to really want to do something about substance abuse for yourself.

ps...I don't have a 'stop button' when I drink either. It's called an addiction. I wish you well and hope to see you again soon.

Morning everyone

Hedonia, how are you feeling today? I think you're right to some extent - drink/drugs can enhance experiences when used recreationally. I guess that's why there are so many non-addicts in the UK that indulge in them. When you don't have a stop button and you're over-indulging at home, alone, in the middle of the night you're not enhancing anything though. You're just fucking up tomorrow and ruining your health. Please keep posting

Hi Kokeshi. The thing about my skin - it was awful after my relapse. I had a weird pigmentation change on my face. You could see the redness but it wasn't in the form of sores, just red blotches under my skin. The psoriasis patches on my back and under my boobs were at their worst ever! On NY's day I had to lie on my bed smothered in cream for a while because I was frightened my skin would split if I moved.

I've had another flare up though, which started last night. I don't know what's caused it. I've been looking into the 'imflamation' theory. I don't know if it's widely known but psoriasis sufferers are more prone to internal inflamation and there are food groups which either cause or reduce this inflamation. Unfortunately dairy products and wheat are the 2 biggest inflamatory groups [sigh], and to know if you're affected you have to cut them out for at least 6 weeks each. Alcohol and cigarettes are also inflamatory (no surprise there )

Anyway, DS is in school now and I'm off out to the hairdressers [nervous]

How is everyone else?

HI everyone.

Bm- hope your hair looks fantastic! Sadly the last time I went to a hairdressers was around 11 years ago- Ive cut my own hair since. However I shall now seek out someone to give me a trim, as I am now inspired. I just find the stranger small talk difficult and then I get weirded out by the whole thing.

Hi Hedonia- sorry but I think its really pointless to write when you're off your head- you just came across as wasted and in denial. I don't mean that to sound harsh, but it doesn't come across that you are having fun, but rather desperate.

This morning is the first time I have had by myself since before Christmas, as DD1 is finally back at school today after her sickness bug, so am just going to dance around house listening to music before I have to pick DD2 up from nursery.

Whats everyyone else up to?

Hi teasle - hope you enjoyed your 'me-time' today. My hair doesn't look fantastic. I have resistant greys and the colour didn't take properly. I was in the hairdressers for 2.5 hours and was then offered to stay and let them repeat the colouring process - no thank you! 2.5 hours is quite long enough to be sat in front of a mirror for 1 day. I'm going back next week to have it sorted out.

Glad to hear DD is better now.

Everyone all right?

Oh and teasle, go on and get your hair done professionally. I know it's a shite way to spend a couple of hours but it's essential. I hate the boring small talk too and usually flick through magazines and answer with yes, no, hmm so as not to encourage it . I actually prefer to have a male HD because they tend to be less chatty.

BM, 2 and 1/2 hours? Good god, I would have been champing at the bit to get out of there too. I find just the styling thing torturous enough never mind colouring. Actually at the grand old age of 31, I've never had my hair dyed. I'm a bit scared I think. Fortunately down to good genes (I have to have some compensation for my more dysfunctional ones) I don't have any grey hair yet so it's not been a necessity. I do have the added bonus of not being able to hear so I don't have to put up with the constant stream of chatter .

Best be off, going to see some horses tonight.

Sounds rather enigmatic Kokeshi- whats that about then?

I havn't got any grey either yet, but as you say its down to genes. I grew up with a lad who was completely bald by the age of 20. Mind you, he was a chronic alcoholic and looked about 50 when I saw him 5 years later.
Up to anything tonight/ I feel a bit trapped tonight, a bit restless. Will check in later to see if anyones around

Oh just a re-training in the riding for the disabled stables I help out in. They have lured everyone with wine and nibbles..I hope this is after we've finished with the horses, is that not illegal, riding under the influence!? Actually teasle, I could be doing without it tonight, it's miles away and I have to freeze my arse off standing about in the arena or on the horse. I always get the narky horses for some reason, they're fine with the disabled kids but really play up with us. There's one called fudge that tries to kick you if you run too slow when you're leading it, oh and ties to take bites out of you as well. Best take my thick jacket for protection!

Hope you feel ok, I'll be back later on and check the thread. My sister is having a work crisis so I'll be all primed for listening

I used to teach RDA too! I stopped training when I damaged my neck very unromantically by crshing wheelbarrows into the compactor. I really enjoyed it, but horse people are often something else...!

Small world HBB! Was it when you were in Glasgow? The stables in Maryhill? Yes I agree, horsey folk are a breed apart. Now, where are my jodhpurs!

OK, I'm really going now...