Black nail. Terrified.

[Pinkbedsheets]

So since I was younger (about 9) I had a black pigment band on my nail (19 now) during my pregnancy (my dd is 16 months now) I noticed it spreading. Google tells me pregnancy can do that, or that I have melanoma. If it helps I am of darker skin and I’ve noticed in my family people have them quite commonly on their toes. Tbh I’m so scared I have melanoma and I’m going to die and not see my daughter grow up. I can’t sleep, can’t eat and withdrawn from my daily life. I’m going to go to the drs but that won’t be for a couple of weeks as I can’t get an appointment. I’m so scared

I understand where you are coming from. Currently I am having anxiety dreams every night. Every time I wake up I have to tell myself they don't mean anything, the situations aren't real. The relief is great.

I can only imagine how hard it is to go and speak with a gp about health anxiety
You are a very strong person to have done that and it shows how much you love your daughter
You now just have to give a final push to getting the help you need
You can do it pink for you and your little girl

I'm sure she will, sweetheart x

You are a very strong person to have done that and it shows how much you love your daughter

Yes, absolutely agree.

Thank you both

No worries x

I’m back again. I’ve been having really bad anxiety so took myself to the gp who prescribed me some meds that don’t help and told me for my peace of mind she’s going to send me to get the nail checked out. Today at my screening appointment, the registrar was sure nothing was wrong and my nail was normal but asked the consultant for a second opinion. The consultant said it does cover the whole nail so wants me to come back in two months to check for changes. I’m so scared, I feel like I’m gonna die and leave my daughter behind, she won’t remember me.

If she thought it was bad she wouldn't have said 2 months. Melanoma is fast. Don't worry sweetheart. Talk to them about your health anxiety.

Oh dear! Bless you!

You are doing so well, have you been to a different GP? Someone who will take your mental health more seriously?

Thank you, you’ve put my mind at first.

Yes the consultant would have done something there and then not sent you away to come back in 2 months.

Try to tell yourself it's highly unlikely you are going to die. You need to get your anxiety under control, go back to your gp, tell her the meds don't help.
Good luck, try and relax and enjoy your dd

Thank you all, I’m gonna get some sleep.

Hey Pink, I just read all of your thread, so sorry to read that you're still struggling. I have been where you are and it's horrible.  I'm a therapist who works with anxiety and depression now. The most effective tools I use with my clients that have also helped me a lot are Hypnotherapy, eft tapping and NLP. Eft in particular is really measurably effective and really fast, its definitely worth looking for a therapist locally who works with these, but you can learn the basics of tapping straight away, it's fairly simple. I would YouTube eft for anxiety there are loads that you can just follow and tap along with that will help in the meantime.
If you need any more help you're welcome to pm me. Hope you feel much better very soon.