This isn't the place to ask I think. Here, you will mainly find opinions instead of what you're looking for. I had no vaccines as a child, and my parents had lots of patients who were not vaccinated and saw the outcomes. I really didn't enjoy catching things like measles, obviously, but I also had some of my parents ideas so I was unsure, like you.
What I did and would advise anybody else who is also unsure is to gather your own evidence via Dr Google then have a chat with a REAL doctor about your concerns. I spoke to two nurses, health visitor and a gp and discussed the pros and cons of all the different vaccines. None of them lied to me and pretend there were no risks with vaccines, none of them pretended they'd never seen or heard of bad reactions to vaccines, but together we worked out which vaccines were most important, which were less important, which risks I wanted to take (risk of reaction to vaccine and the possible outcomes, and risk of not vaccinating and the possible outcomes)
I think if you do that, you won't be so unsure and will feel more confident about whatever decision you make.
Go and speak to the people who actually see the result of bad reactions to vaccines and also see the results of not vaccinating. I doubt they'll lie, they'll be real, and you can work it out yourself.
One thing that also swayed me towards vaccinating is that it seems like most of the people who are coming into contact with people who weren't vaccinated on a regular basis end up vaccinating their own children and they do so because they see more of that than they see serious reactions to the vaccines. Also, many of the vaccines have been out for long enough now that just by looking around we can see that it's usually fine. I live in a borough that has very low vaccination rates, and when I had measles it's because there was a huge outbreak here. In other boroughs close by the vaccine rates are higher and they weren't hit as badly as here.