sitting in the doctors and panicking :-(

[VelmaD]

Sitting in a two hour wait to see a doctor. No kids today, no work, hence coming and not waiting to try and get my gp this week.

I am shitting it.

Boyfriend and I have been together since last summer. All very happy and healthy etc

Spent last weekend together. Lots of sex. Oral and penetrative. we have a lot of oral sex tbh.

I got sore (not unusual tbh) but by yesterday was still bad. Got thrush treatment. Nothing has changed.

Only I now have a sore patch which has split by my perinium (sp?) and two or three blister spots.

I am crapping my pants. Google is not my friend.

Two hour wait is not helping.

He is also out of the country till next week with bad signal (though have text a couple of bits)

I've caught something haven't I? But neither of us have any visible symptoms of anything, and we have been careful with past partners etc.

ah man, it is taking all of my effort not to cry in the waiting room or walk out. Been half hour, only ninety minutes to go. Or walk out. :-(

Ended up in agony this morning and at my GPs. He's baffled - said it could be shingles, severe infected thrush or indeed herpes. He has tested for hsv1 as well as 2 as its not classic 2 looking and he thinks its been transferred oral to genital if it is hsv.

Swabs all done and due back Friday. I've been put on aciclover and extra strong 7 day penecillin, with extra acid stuff for skin infection to cover all bases.

Needless to say I am in agony, and devastated.

Boyfriend has been brilliant, supportive, caring, kind, matter of fact, and poor guy is blaming himself which I said was silly. It could be he's given it to me if it is hsv 1 and he didnt know (he's never had cold sores but his ex wife did frequently) or that I already had it and the extra sex etc has triggered an episode. He is waiting for my results Friday (and has offered to come to every appointment) and if I do mark positive hsv he will get tested too immediately. Even if not we are both going for the full std screening again.

I only had swabs and tests done two months ago due to discharge post period (thought thrush or infected coil, swabbed for all infections as far as I know) and was given the all clear. But now I am thinking the worst of everything.

So thank you all for your hand holding and care sunday and Monday. Any chance I can ask for more till Friday?

You have my sympathy!! :( Horrible not knowing but I often have cold sores and have never given one to my boyfriend if it's any consolation

Sounds awful. Look after yourself.

You poor thing, hope you feel better soon. You could try bepanthan nappy cream for the soreness as it's very good for that sort of thing.

Oh god Velma that sounds horrific and painful. Are you allowed any whilst on your antibiotics? Hope you can get some rest and try not to worry.

Sadly no alcohol - the antivirals and antibiotics make me feel sick enough tbh. Diet is well out the window. And I need to take codiene to sleep right now because of the pain.

I haven't been for a poo since Sunday and that's what im most scared of, as its mainly situated on my lower parts and I don't want to have to wipe near there at all. I've been blotting - the gp had to do a wet swab which has aggrevated one terribly and ive been in even more pain all day.

Bought loads of leggings today, I only have jeans which are agony. Feel trampy now too. And bloated. And yuck frankly.

Im using germolene on the gps advice - he wants me using as little as possible, but the weepy one I can put germoline on to try and soothe it.

I'm desperately clinging to a hope that my swabs come back negative. I know there's nothing either of us could have done but its still so life changing. We've been together 9 months and are planning long term - but what happens if it doesn't work out? I can't be single with herpes :-(

My gp has said if it comes back positive I have to go in for counselling and discussions, which boyfriend will come with me for.

But please please pray its horrific thrush over anything else.

These three days are going to feel like a lifetime. :-(

Oh you poor love! What a pain in the arse. (Well almost.) You'll get through this one way or another, you will. So glad you've got the support you need too. Hope you feel better soon and get answers. The waiting is always the torturous bit.

Got my fingers crossed for you that it's nothing nasty, you poor sausage.

Fingers crossed for you Velma I can't imagine how nervous you are right now.

Oh you poor thing. If it's any radiance I have had Thrush so badly it's as you described. I hope it's that.

Radiance? reassurance

Oh dear op that sounds horrible for you. I hope it's not what you're worried about

I hope you get the news you want. It still may be thrush or something less sinister than herpes. I had a terrible case of thrush a couple of years ago. I had open sores and pain like you wouldn't believe and I was convinced my DP had cheated on me and passed on something nasty. After a visit to the GUM clinic all the tests came back clear but I had to use anti fungal cream that had a load of steroids thrown in before it cleared up. Holding your hand firmly OP

I'm so sorry you are in such horrible pain. I just wanted too say that if it is herpes, I promise that it is not the end of the world. Truly, it isn't. It is painful and makes you feel awful - and that is crap, crap, crap. BUT it is also surrounded by taboo because it is an STI. What you don't need to feel, on top of everything else, is a sense of misplaced shame/taboo.
It is the coldsore virus - sometimes a different strain, sometimes exactly the same as you would find on your mouth. That is nothing to be ashamed about. As you say - some people will never show symptoms.
It is absolutely possible to live and thrive and have a fab sex life with herpes. Its bouts tend to become way less severe after the first time - and are often infrequent - becoming less and less frequent as time goes on.
I hope it isn't herpes because it is a pain and it is sore and it is rotten to have to live with something which causes you discomfort. But it is not the terrible sentence we are led to believe and it really, really should;t be surrounded by such taboo. For goodness sake - we advertise coldsore cream for our lips during daytime TV!
This is not meant in anyway to minimize what you are suffering - I just wanted to say that even if it is herpes, you WILL be ok and life WILL be fine and good and sexy.

Thank you everyone.

Right now I just want it over. I am so swollen and in so so much pain I feel like going to a&e and asking for an injection to numb me. I am throbbing, sore, rubbing and nothing helps.

Just taken 30mg of codeine and now can hear one of the kids. And I only ever take it when I know they're asleep as it makes me sleepy so hoping they doze off. Have managed my 4th dose of aciclover - if it is herpes, when would this kick in?

Im torn now between wanting this not to be herpes, and wanting it over. I cannot cope with this pain - and its ruining time off with the kids which feels even worse. (though thank god I dont need to explain to work!)

If this is herpes, im clinging to this being the worst episode. If not I will never cope :-(

Im feeling warm and fuzzy a bit now so think the codeine are starting. Hoping I can sleep til seven, then the first dose of a new day :-(

Thank you all of you. Any sugestions for the swelling, sores or pain apreciated.

I hope you manage to get some sleep tonight. DH has had acliover (can't remember how to spell it now) before and I think it took a couple of days to start to kick in. He was told to take a 6 month course initially but he stopped taking them after 6 weeks (much to my annoyance) and he's not had a breakout since in well over a year. He gets breakouts on his arm though so not sure which strain it is.

Would natural yoghurt be soothing - particularly if it is severe thrush?

That's what worries me - if its severe thrush its not being helped. Natural yogurt? I need to do the food shopping tomorrow, do I just buy own brand natural yogurt (fat free or not?) and then put a layer on like I would cream?

I've had an ice pack on which helped a bit. But isn't practical for round the house

This sounds horrible OP. Take care and look after yourself.

You poor thing, really hope it's nothing sinister.
Wrt natural yoghurt, think I'd smear as much on as possible and use a sanitary towel.

Velma. I had very similar symptoms I also had a coil. Mine was agonising. Hurt to pee. I didn't have blisters though. They didn't find an sti but gbs with a reading so high they treated me. (They normally dont) by this point given the pain I was psychologically geared up for it to be herpes. Other posters have posted reassuring info about the condition up thread. Hopefully it won't be..but I was prescribed topical lidocaine for the foof area which numbed it completely. Bliss. See if you can get some of that!

Do not be devastated. Herpes isn't really an std ' it is one of those things that can happen to anyone and shows no real symptoms.

If it is, it is very common to have one bad attack and never be bothered again. So please don't worry.

You are raw and it must he very sore. For relief you can try to wee in a bath of water. Some people find that pressure applied when you wee helps ' try a big ball of loo roll, wet it then press it hard against you and wee through that. Hope you are feeling better soon.

Do not be devastated. Herpes isn't really an std ' it is one of those things that can happen to anyone and shows no real symptoms.

If it is, it is very common to have one bad attack and never be bothered again. So please don't worry.

You are raw and it must he very sore. For relief you can try to wee in a bath of water. Some people find that pressure applied when you wee helps ' try a big ball of loo roll, wet it then press it hard against you and wee through that. Hope you are feeling better soon.

thank you all. I managed some sleep, restless but woke about seven. Doesn't hurt so much to wee now, apart from one sore right by my urethra.

I have one large swelling that's about three blisters together on the left. Its hard, red, hot, swollen and amazingly painful. The rest I can bear, but this patch is what's making me cry. I've put germoline on it, but if ive still not relief tomorrow am (ive give everything 24 more hours) then I will ask for lidocaine. I might ask for this to be moved to general health (anyone know how?) - at first I put it in chat for footflow and so it disappeared, but actually would like it to be searchable if anyone suffers in the future

Thank you all about the herpes comments too. My amazing boyfriend is very much the same opinion. Which makes me love him more.

Herpes is something that a large percentage of the population carry. Some never have any symptoms. Or it can lie dormant for years before a primary episode.

If it is herpes be reassured that the primary episode is usually the worst. Any recurrences are usually shorter and less severe. Some people never get a recurrence but those who do usually find that they become less frequent over time.