Zombie needs her limbs holding

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With Zombie's permission, I'm starting this thread

As many of you know she has had a hideous time through her treatment for cancer.

At the point where she was maybe out of the woods she has been asked to see her surgeon on Friday. Unexpectedly

Can we all squeeze her together so her limbs don't go flailing
and do what we vipers do best?

I cannot bear the thought of her going through all the treatment s again after coming out of it before

Prayers, fingers crossing or whatever welcome right now

I am however wondering what a zombie troll would look like. That's one bridge I'd not want to cross.

Like this maybe?

More like this, Lil.

So sorry Zombie.
Right cancer. On behalf of Zombie, everyone who loves her in RL, everyone on MN and basically the whole world...you can just fuck off now!
On a practical note. Always about Zombie and I gather not too far away. If you need us. Here for you incredible lady.
Sorry MN but HUGS!!

Also still here to hold a hand. Would do visits if its anywhere nearish (I have no idea where you are!)

Thank you all. AGAIN!

I'm in South Shropshire for those who have asked. And, yes, Wolfie, I think we have worked out that you're not THAT far from me.

Right. Practicalities.

I spoke with my next door neighbour today. He will take care of the cats and keep an eye on the house while I'm in hospital.

I've also sorted transport home when I'm discharged. My Godson's mother lives just a mile or so from the Princess Royal Hospital and will do the honours.

I'm meeting a couple of lovely MNers for coffee / lunch tomorrow. Wednesday is the ultrasound and then I've booked a haircut for late afternoon. Thursday is lunch with another friend and Saturday coffee with another lovely MNer that I'm very much looking forward to meeting.

Life is good.

So sorry to hear this Zombie

Am in north Worcestershire id there's anything I can do Zombie! xx

Have just caught up with the thread Zombie and all I can say is bastard cancer It sucks that anyone has to deal with this once, let alone twice.

Have also just read your story, and you are such a brave, strong and inspirational woman. Thank you for sharing all of your story with us

Hope you had a lovely lunch today, sweetheart. Any gossip?

Good luck tomorrow for the ultrasound

Oh Zombie I got to this thread too far late!

Sometimes we are so involved in our own dipshit to even contemplate that there is so much evil in this world and we should cherish when we are healthy, that should be enough to be happy!

I hope you will get through this battle with flying colours. You are a very strong, brave woman and really an inspiration to many.
So sorry you had to go through such a bastard disease twice.

I am a bit far from where you live and I am sorry I cannot be of any real help or support.But please, here or Facebook, feel free to drop me a pm any time.

A ton of hugs xxxxxx

Hugs back to Anywhere and to everyone.

I was seen by the same lovely doctor who did my biopsy 12 days ago. I asked her to please be completely honest with me about what the ultrasound revealed.

She explained that she would be looking for signs of any enlargement or irregularity in shape in the lymph nodes. She didn't talk much while actually carrying out the ultrasound. When she finished she said that there are a few nodes that are slightly enlarged / thickened. One reason for that could be an after effect of the biopsy. The only way to find out is to biopsy the nodes. She asked if I wanted her to go ahead do that today. I said yes.

So, armpit injected with local anaesthetic and then 2 samples taken. I didn't feel a thing with the first sample but OUCH on the second one. The pain only lasted a second or two. Poor doctor was very upset that she had hurt me.

Because the biopsy hadn't been pre-planned, I'm not sure when I'll get the results. One of the radiographers popped into the Breast Clinic for me and left a note for my Breast Care Nurse. I may get a call to come back this Friday. If not, I should get them next Friday.

Those results will probably determine whether my surgeon does the sentinel node biopsy or a full node clearance during the mastectomy. There's a huge difference in the post-operative help I'll need depending on which is done.

Quite frankly my gut is telling me that this is a nasty little bugger. The fact that it developed out of nowhere within 14 months to the point of being invasive instead of in situ and now the increasing probability that there is lymph node involvement are not good signs.

Ah well, such is life.

Zombie, I am so sorry for your cancer diagnosis. And for all the shit you had to deal with in your childhood and young adulthood. I'm thinking of you.

My dear Zombie I have only today read your link to your story. You must have wondered why I said nothing when we were together. You must have though I was an uncaring, selfish idiot. I am sorry. You deserve some good fortune now love and I hope you will have many years to enjoy your son and granddaughter.

Zombie, a lurker, here and a great admirer of your spirit and fortitude, in the face of what you have had to endure throughout your life. I have been very moved to read your story and am rooting for you all the way

Big hugs Zombie

It may be nasty, but you are bigger and scarier than it! Keep fighting x

Thanks for posting the update Zombie

Zombie, I have seen you around on MN and just wanted to wish you lots and lots of luck and strength. You are so brave - I am truly in awe.

Have some and

I'm sorry zombie
No one deserves such a shitty diagnosis even once, I'm in awe of your strength getting ready to battle it again!!

You beat it once and we will all rejoice as you beat it again.

Zombie, I'm a new MN-er but I've read this whole thread & other posts of yours & I just want to add my tiny voice to the huge amount of support here. You're clearly a wonderful person & I'm so sorry this crap is happening to you.
That's it really, there's nothing I can say that other people here haven't said more eloquently.
Xx

Oh zombie am sending you lots of hugs xxx

Zombie - hoping that the nodes are clear for you and that the results come back soon. Another one in awe at your strength, more so having read your story.
I had my second last chemo today - 14 down, 2 to go. My DSis is also +ve for BRCA2 - worse for her as she is only 32 with no kids and pretty severe mh issues (bpd). It's my DCs I worry about 2, what if they have the sodding gene? But I had no way of knowing I had it...
Sorry for hijacking Zombie, always in my thoughts.

((((Zombie)))))

Pleased to hear that the hospital is taking good care of you, Fingers crossed for speedy results so you can get planning, the limbo of not knowing what's happening is grim I know. X

Oh zombie if I was nearby I'd bring DS to give you cuddles. He is a rampaging terrorist of a toddler but his cheeky smile (when he knows he isn't supposed to be on the window ledge) and his cuddles and kisses can make even grey days shine.

Wishing you all the best with everything and remember MN (in droves) is here thinking of you ((((HUGS)))) x

You truly are an amazing inspiring person. You have dealt with so much. Sending lots of positive thoughts and good wishes.