**Tamoxigang heading towards hearts and valentines - thread 47**

[BetsyBoop]

roses are red
violets are blue
sugar is sweet
but cakes are better

Thanks Marshy - for various reasons I think Monday will be a non-event and I will WFH - planning to go in on Tuesday though.

On a seperate subject I'm thinking of joinig a sewing club or going to a sewing group/cafe (didn't even know these existed until I googled this evening!!). In the past I have made lots of clothes and curtains but thought I might get back into it (mainly because I saw a very basic skirt that I liked in Jigsaw and it was 98!!) I need to get the finishing touches right or I'll end up making things that I won't wear so thought I could do a course or workshop. I might be mad thinking of starting something new when I'm heading back to work but I feel like I need to do something different and meet different people.

Gosh yes. So many associations with word ms. Like 'diet' I suppose meaning to lose weight sort or the sort referring to what we regularly eat.
I had to have the 'cancer' chat. That word I'd myself thought meant only one thing. My DS is 6 DD is 3. My DS is superduper aware and became really adamant one morning about burnt toast. Said it'd give him cracker and kill, gd forbid. I'd not mentioned the possibility of my 'lumpy' being cancerous at that stage but had to then and did again tonight have the 'dangerous' and 'not so dangerous when found n taken out' cancers. Didn't know that myself.
It's a lot to get my own head around.
My DS has been banned from chess club and jujitsu in the week and a half I spent in hospital. This stuff takes it's toll. It is sad. But it isn't permanent, I hope and thank gd you're here to help him to understand. Do macmillan help with DCs? I think so. Think DMs are a lost cause though. Lol
Think that by the time they've reached 60 something, they've sealed the lid on knowing it all and can't hear what's bejng said for all the conviction running around their hamster cage thought processes. All leads to the same conclusion: 'so this is what I'm going to/ you should do'.
You gotta laugh .. and stop them.
Like old, outa control trucks.

Cancer, not Cracker.
My typos never fail to amuse and bemuse me
You'd never know I was a dyslexia assessor, would you!
Oh, the irony!

Its toll
Not autocorrect's bloody 'it's'

Crikey Really, you are going through the mill at the moment. I hope you are feeling better soon. I had a mean nurse when I was in hospital too. She treated me like a particularly annoying side of beef, ( if that makes any sense at all as a metaphor) . It made me cry buckets. When you are poorly and frightened people should take care to be kind.

I am feeling good at the moment. I managed to walk 5km every day in January despite the weather. My breathing is easier and I feel almost normal. I am suffering a bit with letrazole side effects, crazy constant hunger, neuralgia, bone ache, insomnia etc - walk in the park compared to chemotherapy. Emotionally I am finding things pretty tough though. To be expected really, I suppose. But I have been out to dinner this evening and had fun with good friends. Life is sweet.

Hello again trice - those SEs do not sound like a walk in the park at all. You have done an amazing job to walk 5k every day with all that going on. Glad to hear you had a good evening out.

Well here I am in the middle of the night again! Went to bed reasonably early but had had a few glasses of wine so now wide awake.

I do hope really is ok. Hope your back on your feet soon.

kitkat sewing group sounds fab. I think it will be good to start something new, like putting two fingers up at cancer.

I have my BMX on Monday with sentinel node thingy. So in the morning I have to drive to another hospital first for that then back to local hospital for op. roads are bad due to flooding and I think I more worried about that than the op itself.

Morning, Really. In case you're awake there in hospital, I'm waving 'hello'!
Hope you're not hungry n bored. I always woke up at ridiculous o'clock n good wasn't brought for aaaaaaages.
Don't feel cheeky/ indulgent to ask for whatever you need when u wake. Bet u can't WAIT to get home.
I know you weren't expecting to have to stay in. I hope your phone still has some charge left.

Foofoo good luck for your op tomorrow

Malt likewise for your rads

Trice lovely to hear you are doing well inspite of the horrid SEs

Kitkat the sewing sounds fun (DH bought e a new sewing machine for Christmas as my request, but I've not used it yet ) I'm expecting back to work to be fairly uneventful too, I'm sure after a couple of weeks it will be like we've never been away :)

Really and hoping you are doing ok.

good morning to everyone else

Morning everyone and I hope you are feeling a bit better really

Goodness I can sympathise with how your ds is. My ds is all over the place and has been banned from an after school activity this week because he had a scrap with another boy (ds said the other boy started it and from what other parents tell me he's known for doing things). Unfortunately ds retaliated and the other boy cried. Ds never ever cries at school. He refused to tell the teacher what happened and then refused to come inside as soon as he was asked, so now he's banned. Apparently the head said that in all his many years of teaching he has never come across a child who refused to do follow instruction. I was rather at that. Makes me wonder where he was before he became head at ds's school. I was surrounded by instruction refusers at primary and grammar (at times myself included!). It seems pretty normal that if a child is upset they may not instantly do what they are asked to do.

There seems to be a lot of lip service from school about what ds is going through but a notable absence of compassion.

Morning all

Foo foo you have to drive to one hospital for the dye then to another for your op? That's crazy ! Good luck hope everything goes smoothly we'll be thinking of you

Kitkat and Betsy look forward to seeing your creations ! Hope both of your returns to work go well bet everyone will be pleased to see you

Really hope you're ok

Hope everyone has a good day

We are going to see the new Lego movie today and then we've got to move ds's hamster to his grandma's. Trying not to feel too tearful at the thought of this being the last day ds and I will spend together before I go into hospital.

Morning all and wave to really.

Pickle - hope you can enjoy your day as much as posisble - it must be very hard for you.

Malt - good luck for tomorrow - do I remember correctly that tomorrow's appt is an early one?

Betsy - enjoy your last day off. We've not got much planned here as DS's rugby is cancelled - I'm glad as he has had a cold all week so can enjoy lie-in. I had a realy good work out at the gym yesterday so my legs are tired today - if it stops raining I've told the kids we have to go for a long walk though!!

foo - I think my mum had to go to a differeent hospital when she had her lumpectomy - I can't remember if it was for the dye or to get her lump marked (it was very small). But what a pain to have to be driving around on a day like that. Are you having SNB on both sides?

Assume its just SNB on the bad side. If I was harping lumpectomy it's a 3 hospital visit! Madness.

pickle have a lovely day with your son.

good lord Foo - what a ridiculous process. Oh well - at least you only have 2 hospitals to go to - and it will make the time pass whilst you are nil by mouth!! How long are you expetcing to stay in for - 2 nights? And home with drains I guess .

Just one night! My MIL thinks that is disgusting and I should be in at least a week . She is old school.

Difficult pickle I've sent you a PM
Everyone else, helloo!

After having been staring at the walks for 13 days now, a kind friend is going to take me out for an hour. Yay.
Gonna see what all this fuss over wind n rain is about

Hope I can walk etc to keep up. Slow on my feet as yet

I've been a bit out of touch since chemo no.1. I don't think FEC and I are going to be friends. I'm still very much laid up, dont seem to be able to be up for any time, definitely emotional and tricksy eyes (so haven't been doing screens). But otherwise just hunky dory... But my fond dream of making it to parents' evening tomorrow seems unlikely.

But I wanted to send (hugs) and to everyone. Thinking of everyone.

Good luck, pickle, and hope your day with ds today is as good as it can be. On the towels (bit out of date but I did read that bit), the hospital I was in was meant to have towels but kept running out! Just easier to take a little one in.

kitkat, I love the idea of a sewing group. I bought a sewing machine in January. Slightly bonkers timing, and I don't have your experience, but dd is keen and I'd like to do something special with her. Still in its box, though, and I'll have to be able to stand for longer without getting dizzy before messing round with needles...

Wren - well I rang one place and chatted about what I wanted to achieve so am now booked on a 2 part workshop - a Sunday in Feb and then 1 in March. Have ordered a pattern and fabric (and lining) on-line and can get the rest locally I hope - am rather excited .

Don't give up hope on going out tomorrow - one thing I learned about chemo is how quickly it can turn around and you can suddenly feel much better. But sorry you're not having the best of times - FEC was no fun for me either so you have my sympathies - hang in there. Are you doing 6 FEC or 3 FEC & 3 TAX?

Hi really, I was sorry to hear about your mum's reaction, not least because I haven't told mine yet. I hope she rings you when she has got over the shock. (My dad is probably wondering why I haven't been keener to help him set up his new tablet, bought specially so that he could skype us!) I love your description goodness! "...can't hear what's bejng said for all the conviction running around their hamster cage thought processes" describes my mom to a T.

Good luck with the sewing kitkat. I bought some fabric months ago and haven't touched it yet.

Sorry to hear that you're not feeling too good Wren, I hope you feel better soon!

harriet so glad to hear it's non invasive!

Kitkat, I've got 3FEC and 3 Tax, so only two more on this one and definitely getting my anti sickness bumped up - it was not a happy first 12 hours. It's really good to hear that it can turn round quickly. I feel like such a lump.

My son is about to have his 16th birthday party. I'm going to stay vanished as I don't think I'll add much to the festivities. Luckily they're a low key bunch, and a film and a pizza (all at home) should cover it.

wren my first session was my worst. I found getting up and moving about a bit, along with eating very small meals or snacks helped. I found third evening after first chemo I started feeling better, and felt significantly better on 4th day. Of course, it is different for everyone. But it may be possible yet to make tomorrow evening...