*TAMOXIGANG* All the fours...44!

[GoodbyeRubyTuesday]

Apologies for the bingo reference, couldn't think of a witty title but the other thread is very nearly full.

In honour of our new thread I have piled extra apple pudding on the trolley so tuck in :)

Kitkat chocolate tasting normal is good my taste buds are much better this cycle than last as I've managed to avoid the oral thrush with the mouth washes they gave me, things too taste a bit odd but not too bad apart from the wine! I guess at least you're getting plenty of fluids !

Yes hope really is ok

Ooh, well done to your lump for shrinking, foofoo. Glad to hear it's behaving itself now and another chemo through. Yay!

Butterflies hello and sorry you're in limbo again, but you've been regularly checked and are on it, so even if it does turn out to be not nice, you'll have got it early. I know it's easy to say from the outside, but I reckon your odds are extraordinarily good even if it's cancer.

Marshy, yes I had immediate reconstruction with implant, so mx plus nodal clearance. I didn't have a problem with the mastectomy at all. Just wanted the breast/ cancer gone.

I have never ever been told to massage scars or moisturise them. So odd how there's no consistent advice on such things.

Must be a relief that your taste buds aren't too bad, Malt. That was the pits for me. Hated that metallic taste.

malt good your tastebuds are working okay, but shame about the wine!

foofoo take that, cancer! Good that it's shrinking shame you were stuck there all day though!

thenight long time no see, how are you? Good point about not asking favours, I do feel a bit like that at the moment, but you have reminded me I'm not looking for special treatment, just for the playing field to be levelled a little!

butterflies fingers crossed this is another harmless cyst. Try not to read too much into the scan yet as there may be other criteria for assessing them that the consultant didn't mention. Like smee says, even if it is something troublesome it has been caught early so that is in your favour. Do you know when you will hear back? It must be so lonely, is there Mumsnet local for where you are? Apologies I've never looked at it so don't know if it's for the UK only. You might be able to find others nearby. And feel free to chat here as much as you like. There's often someone around even through the night, especially when people are on chemo steroids!

Waving to everyone, hope you're all having a good evening. Sleep well x

Hi butterflies sorry to hear that you are waiting around again :( what a pain.
Just popped on to say nighty night
Sure I was going to have an early night, don't know what happened!
No swimming this morning bleeding like a stuck pig (sorry tmi)sure the tamox is to blame but 2 years on it is getting wearing...

Marshy I'm okay. Have been reading some of the posts, just not been in a good place personally. So didn't think I was in a position to say too much on here!

I'm finding 'life' a bit difficult at the moment. Missing my friend more each day. Her sons celebrate their first birthday on Friday. So emotions are just a little high! Okay emotions are all over the place.

But hope you are all doing okay. Sending you all a big hug. Hopefully I'll be back on properly next week. IF I can snap out of this and pull myself together. My next milestone is appointment with Oncologist on 30th.

Love to you all xxxxx

Thanks everyone, you're right, it is the waiting that's a pain. Should be 5 working days max but when I was in Singapore, you got the results within 2 hours (plus the clinic was above a huge shopping mall so lots to divert your attention while waiting!)

There's no mumsnet in my area (Houston Texas) but I am meeting a mum from school for coffee tomorrow, I also joined an expat meetup group in my area and might go to their coffee on Friday. Trying to keep busy.

I remember smee, jchocchip, rubytuesday from before, hope you're all tucked up sleeping soundly x

Just wanted to apologise for not responding to everyone's posts but my addled chemo brain just isn't up to it. I do read them all and like hearing all news.

Did want to suggest to chocchip have you been to GP about bleeding. I have had a nightmare with it in the past and ended up severely and anaemic, don't suffer in silence.

Butterflies - keep busy ...and keep us posted

Oh and a special unmumsnetty hug to really x

Hi foo - not a lot of sleep here at the moment so given up trying for now and about to start watching more Private Practise.

My brain was completely fried on FEC but I'm not doing so bad on Tax.
I've got a busy day tomorrow as going into work in the morning and got electrician coming round in the afternoon. Need to fit in quick trip to shopping mall to get a small birthday present for DS who will be 10 on Monday. He has opted to wait for his main present as a new version will be released mid November (!!) but I want to be to have something wrapped up on the day.

kitkat my youngest boy will be 10 in three weeks time. He wants a modded controller for his x box: whatever that is!

((hugs)) to really. So sad for your friend's sons too, though I guess they will enjoy their cake.
Foofoo I have had investigation and have medication to reduce flow but was hoping to leave periods behind soon. Guess I probably am perimenopausal but after lengthening my cycle, are as regular as clockwork again!

I'll put a on...

grr...... I'm going to have to change my plans for today as I have been so worried about how thirsty I am (combined with the high glucose) I finally decided to check other diabetes symptoms.

And guess what I have them all - so looks like I'll have to get myself to the GP appt to discuss. The chemo nurse was a bit concerned yesterday with the bloods but said it would not stop the rest of the chemo going ahead. She also said that losing a few pounds when taking loads of steroids (and eating loads) is not good as you are more likely to put weight on. I really hope that it is all due to the steroids and is only temporary.

Onc was concerned right back after the first FEC cycle but I didn't have any symptoms then so we had agreed for me to see the GP after chemo had finished just to check everything was back to normal.

Getting fed up with the side effects of drugs taken to stop the side effects of the chemo now!! What with this and that they interacted with my BP meds so they got changed and aren't working yet so I'm being checked for that too.

foo - 10 year old boys does seem the norm for this board. DS wants an iPad mini which I have reservations about but can't think of anything else anyway. He's only allowed it as it was DDs birthday in August when I was in midst of FEC despair so out of desperation I just took her to the Apple store to choose something - so precedent set!!

Kitkat what an utter pain about diabetes symptoms. It's a right bugger that the treatments given to fight cancer make you sicker than the cancer did in the first place. I hope you get an appointment and a plan for getting this sorted. I'm still full of respect for you managing to work whilst coping with chemo.

GP appt at 10am - wfh until then and then shooting into the office as I have to collect (and then setup) my new laptop.

Not sure what GP can do to be honest - clearly i need to finish the chemo -I'm hoping I don't get put on a strict diet - that's the last thing I need with all my wierd chemo craving .

Handbags - I'm really not doing that much - only 2 or 3 hrs a day - honestly.

Kitkat, that's still 2-3hrs more than I shall be doing . My consultant looked at me like I was a crazy lady when I said about working during chemo, then promptly wrote me out a sick-note for 4 months. I do love her

Kitkat what a pain hope it turns out ok, let us know what the doctor says
Really you're going through an awful time I'm sorry, but do keep posting when you can as we would like to help or at least distract you a little sometimes
Jchoc sorry you couldn't swim that must be frustrating

I've got a red cheek, had it a couple of days now temp is normal and I feel ok I did google ( naughty girl ) and people said it was normal just wondered if anyone else had had it? Been a week since tax

Morning all, have read and digested all your news. But there is only two things on my mind today have done dd2's last ever breastfeed and feeling very sad about it and dreading my first chemo in a couple of hours. At least dh is coming to chemo but nothing would cheer me up right now, esp when mil has ' liked' my fb status about being so sad about dd2's last feed, but she never liked me bf anyway, thought it was selfish!! Rant over off to guildford now

Malt - is it like being flushed? If so I've that on my face and chest every cycle and chemo nurse told me yesterday it is a reaction to the steroids and nothing to worry about. For me it lasts about 48 hrs each time.

Yes like being flushed thanks I didn't think it could be much to worry about

Knitting sorry about your last bf and good luck with the chemo, let us know how you get on

ahhh knitting sorry about you having finished breastfeeding and your MIL's insensitive comment. Good luck with your chemo.

marshy the doctors were what i call 'suitably vague' about the anticipated histology results and did tell me that chemo and rads were a possibility. I tried to push it to the back of my mind and was in denial that I would get a full blown cancer. I didn't realise though how much it was actually on my mind until the surgeon told me that there was no invasive cancer in the tissue .... I balled and wailed and took ten minutes to compose myself before I could call my DH ...... it really is a rollercoaster ride and the anticipation of surgery and the waiting for results is very distressing. The pain from the node removal was the worst bit for me and after doing my exercises, I now have a very goiod range of movement :)

Knitting, sorry you are having to give up bf. Good luck with first chemo.

I've3 not posted for a few days as have been busy (work and pleasure) and haven't much to report - see Oncologist tomorrow to see what next steps will be (further chemo or what).
Ruby DS2 had to apply for "reasonable adjustment" in his 2nd year at university after he was diagnosed with leukaemia half way through the first semester. We started the ball rolling for him whilst he was in hospital by finding out who the head of university welfare was and getting him involved immediately. After that it was up to DS and the university to sort out. The university allowed him to take/retake his first semester exams in August and this worked out for him as he was back in pretty good health by then (he flew off to his international year university the day he finished his exams). The "reasonable adjustment" turned out to be just that - reasonable but not over generous!
This year is also his final year, so he is facing the dissertation too. He's coming home today, so DH and I will probably discuss it with him, but he has enlisted the help of DS1 and a school friend, both of whom are professionals in that field and will read through his work and comment. DH has experience as a PhD supervisor, so will no doubt read through any work for clarity of thought and I shall probably be picking up on the worst grammatical errors!

Oh HND thanks so much for that post. That is exactly where I am and how I am feeling.

I am trying to get my head around the possibility of chemo but the unknown when also anticipating surgery is hard.

I have been taken by surprise by how painful my armpit is and feeling quite down about it maybe being something that I'm stuck with now so such a relief to read what you experienced. Will do my exercises!

Kitkat - fingers crossed that gp comes up with something reassuring.

Knitting - its pants to have to give up breastfeeding before you are ready. Hugs for you and hope chemo goes ok

knitting- I'm with you on the feeding. Currently winding down bf with DD (2 months) before I start chemo. Seeing onc today to get dated etc.
Stopping bf has been one of the hardest things esp as I bf DS2 till he was 2.