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[GoodbyeRubyTuesday]

Hello all! New thread as we have almost filled the last one. Help yourself to chocolate chip muffins from the trolley! :)

sparkle fills topsy's glass!

sparkle fills topsy's glass!

whoops posting twice was accidental but somehow seems appropriate anyway.

Poor Nikki dog had her second eye removed yesterday and is now lying on sitting room floor crying. It is a horrid op and bless her she has had to do it twice now. That is why I need the wine......that and the vet bill!

Think Sparkle may be my new favourite person

Poor old Nikki Dog .
Hope she adapts well .
DH has a friend who has an extremely old dog who is deaf and blind .
He seems to get about (the farm) well

She has been totally blind for 3 years so she will be fine when she gets over the op. She is moaning very loudly am going to feed and medicate her.

Malt I don't think that I have to repeat the breast MRi - at least not for a while, but KItKat mentioned that she is going to have another one.
At least with child birth you get some sort of amnesia so that you can go back and have a 2nd or further children. I don't think I shall forget the MRI for a while unless chemo brain wipes out the memory!

Eeek, poor dog... Hope dog's much happier soon...

Hmm, I do enjoy a glass of wine, and I found chemo easy. Makes sense...

Sorry lily misunderstood !

Tired tonight......could be effects of that wine we had earlier topsy!

yep - it's me that gets to have another go at the breast MRI - next Thursday in fact. I guess it will also become an annual event so I'd better get used to it. I didn't get sore ribs like Lily though but assume I must have more padding to protect me!!!

x post kitkat, nothing like being in a giant loo roll which knocks and bangs constantly for lifting the spirits.

I've not had an MRI but they sound scary :(
Tired here too must be the pimms

hooray for Mr amber !
Am v tired as have worked all day but feel v pleased with what i've done (if that's allowed and won't jinx it !)

Well done lily for latest chemo
Am sure an MRI would scare me
Love to all xxx

Good news about Mr Amber and Mr Figgy.

I have picked up dd from a play date with a 7yo friend and her toddler sister. I ask dd "have you had a nice time?" she replies "yes, we have been making poison out of foxgloves"!!!

So I have spent the evening checking her pupils and hoping she hasn't killed her friend and the toddler. Apparently the mum thought they were making rose petals perfume. These little near fatal dramas make life interesting anyway.

Yay and thank goodness for Mr Amber :)

MAS well done :) hope you have a good night's sleep.

I haven't had to have an MRI, thank goodness. I think they'd actually have to sedate me! I have a very specific fear of small tunnels after I got stuck in one in a playground when I was younger

kitkat am I right in thinking you have to lie on your front? Sounds very uncomfortable! Will be thinking of you on Thursday :)

sparkle at giant loo roll but I'm sure it's no fun at all. Poor Nikki dog I hope she feels better soon.

I'm quite tired but have freaked myself out reading a scary thread about ghosts and stuff although feeling better having read about Mr Copt falling in the pond I hope he was less troublesome this evening copt!

betsy I hope today went well and you're not feeling too grim! Gentle hugs for you x

lily well done on another chemo down and glad you got a decent lunch! :)

I hope everyone sleeps well x

Hello.
I don't know if this is the right place to post but I can start a new thread if not. I don't expect anyone to be up - just need to 'talk'.
I'm a BRCA2 mutation carrier, I found out a couple of months ago and am in the system for a double mastectomy. The news didn't come as much of a surprise but since the results, I've been consumed with fear that something has already started. I've always had problems with health anxiety - it's sky rocketed to ridiculous proportions now.
And tonight I think I've found something - sometimes I can and sometimes I cant feel it but I'm so scared. I have a DC (4yo) and the fear is making me feel horribly sick. Wish tomorrow wasn't a Friday - I don't know when I'll get it looked at. I don't know how I'll get through the weekend.

Hello Eco, of course you are welcome to post here :) I have had bowel cancer rather than breast so I can't be of much practical help but hopefully in the morning some of the other lovely ladies will be able to put your mind at rest.

I've absorbed some of the breast stuff over the months I've been posting and amber quotes something about how the majority of breast lumps are harmless and of those that are problematic, most are easily dealt with. But of course that won't stop you worrying until you've had it checked. Can you get an emergency GP appointment for tomorrow?

It might be that what you're feeling has been there forever and is completely normal but because of your heightened awareness it feels more noticeable.

My cancer was caused by a genetic condition and it places me at risk of other cancers too so I can understand that side of things.

I wish I could be more reassuring. I hope you manage to get some sleep :)

Morning eco. Hope you managed to get some sleep
Its natural to worry especially knowing you have a gene. Did you have an examination when you went for testing? It could be a dose of paranoia, a lot of us on here get that. Do you have a breast care nurse yet? They are often good to talk to.

You too ruby, hope you had a good night.

Bit manic here until I finish work this evening. Then I'm on leave for a week .

Mas sorry i've not forgotten will reply to your message when get time on computer- can't seem to message photos from phone < teck fail>

Morning all
Eco it's normal to be anxious, go and get checked out though it could well turn out to be nothing. How long had you got to wait for the mastectomy ?
Ruby you were posting late hope you got some sleep ?
Jchoc bet you're looking forward to a week off
I'm taking the kids to see the smurfs film today if they still want to go must stop being a hermit
Keep checking hair and it's not coming out yet, 2 weeks and a day since 1st chemo so should be around now I think, still don't think my cold cap was cold enough grumble grumble !
Hope everyone has a good day x

? Am lieing in bed as have aches from overdoing it.

Eco- ring your Gp as no point fretting longer than you have to . But most lumps are ok and even if not most can be treated - tons of proof here.

Smee has had brca test and precautionary op so can tell you more. But is on Hol.

Ruby hope you are sleeping ok and rash wasn't keeping you up.

Going to enjoy last day of Hol now .

Malt I think you would be shedding hair now if it was going.

Hi Eco, welcome. I'd ask if there's an appointment with the GP today. Then you can get some reassurance.
If it helps, only 1 in every 10 lumps in the breast is cancer.
Of those which are cancer, only 1 in 10 is a really rude sort that causes medical teams difficulty.
Of those which are really rude, only 2 out of 10 go on to kill people in short timescales now. The rest are manageable long term with treatment, and a number of our lovely ladies here are in just that situation. Meantime, the new treatments are being tested and many look like they can convert even the rudest of rudely behaved cancer into a nuisance and nothing more.

So...the odds of it being rudely behaved cancer are 1 in 100. And the odds of it being a sort that would part you from your daughter pronto are 1 in 500.
That may help slightly. But I can understand your concern, given that you're taking preventative steps soon because of the increased risk of developing a cancer.
Have a and a sit down with us.

Thank you all for your kind replies.
I managed to sleep a bit, I'll see my GP this morning. I'm feeling a bit better but a very jittery.

I think the waits have heightened my health anxiety malt - I got my results at the start of July but none of my appointments have come through - I think the referral to the breast surgeon was lost ARGH! Nothing yet from the ovarian people or more importantly, the screening unit. The wait just gives horrible ideas in my head time to fester.

I hope you all have happy mornings, will update later .

welcome eco - hope GP can reassure you today- the waiting around for appointments and results etc is always the very worst bit... chances are that your anxiety issues are heightening your sensitivity to any possible symptoms.
jchoc no worries- send me stuff when you're ready - am currently in the middle of 3 pictures so am happily employed.
Slept well but really vivid and exhausting dreams for last few nights