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[GoodbyeRubyTuesday]

Hello all! New thread as we have almost filled the last one. Help yourself to chocolate chip muffins from the trolley! :)

wot kk said about ruby -agree totally -you are amazingly fab.
lily -meant to say earlier- Yoxford v near where we were in Suffolk- just up the road in Middleton....so lovely there.

topsy ...... I did the bun run

nj I echo what ok said, you have a very wise and mature head on your shoulders and are very supportive to
Us all. I am so sorry that you are having a shitty time ...... Bastard cancer !

Now I look
Like a tit (pardon the pun) I
Meant ruby in my last post !

Hnd I always worry I've put the wrong name

looks like i killed the thread !

No it was me !
What's for dinner ?
Spanish meatballs and potatoes here courtesy of mr co op, may even treat myself to a pimms I've not dared to drink yet

Dinner is Pizza, salad and prossecco at a friends. I've made a cake with summer fruit in it for dessert from that Lisa Faulkner recipe book. It was supposed to have strawberries in it but mine had gone mouldy when I got them out the fridge so found some summer fruit in the freezer and bunged that in instead. No idea what it will taste like, it will either be good or an utter disaster. Like the sound of your Pimms Malt, I love Pimms.

Dinner here is lamb steaks, new potatoes and green veg with mint sauce made with my own mint (rather than from Morrisons!!). DCs are away so don't have to worry about fussy DS.

Waiting for DH so eating Kettle Chips.

We had sunshine barley (a sort of spiced barley and yellow vegetable risotto of my own invention! ) - I didn't make a pudding, but I have just polished off a raspberry jam sandwich!

That cake sounds nice PictureThis.

anyone?

Everyone's dinner sounds lovely, waiting for dh to come home to have mine and starving he's due back at 7
Prosecco sounds good too
The pimms is the new blackberry and elderflower one I'll taste test later and let you all know how it is

From the pub to help everyone having a tough day.

Picture - my kids aren't dissimilar age. It is very hard being away but Skype does help. Oddly the little one likes it better than big one.

Dinner here has been ASDA's best coq au vin with veggies, whilst we recover from the news that DH has to go into hospital tomorrow for a pronto MRI scan to check he's not had a mini stroke in the last few days. Soddit, as they say in the trade. Pass me that bl*dy , will you.

Passed . Thinking of you both and hoping it is just a precaution as it will be a difficult day for you both.

And your kindness and support is always appreciated by me.

MRI scan of breasts today and it was very uncomfortable lying on my front with breasts stuffed down a hole. My ribs underneath are aching as they were on the rim of the hole. Managed to get through it without sneezing or coughing but needed a nose wipe half way through!
Chemo tomorrow: 3/8.

Amber will be thinking of you both tomorrow and hoping it turns out to be nothing, when will you get the results ?

Lily that does sound uncomfortable :(

Pimms is very nice, very fruity. Lemonade is a bit flat though

amber also hoping it all turns out OK tomorrow and I also appreciate your kindness, and wisdom.

Well Dh served tilapia fillets panfried with a light dusting of flour and spices plated up on a bed of pasta cooked with wine, olive oil, asparagus Parmesan, spring onion and basil......yes he has been watching too much Celebrity Masterchef, and I think John and Geoff might be bemoaning too many flavours and a tendency to chuck in whatever is cheap at the supermarket / about to go off in the fridge but I am not complaining if he wants to take over the cooking. He has booked himself on to a course on shellfish which I thoroughly approve of since my dyslexic brain just cannot retain the knowledge of which bits are OK and which bits deadly, he is anal, and in that context anal is good

Bit exhausted after day sat on grass outside adventure park and in beach on riverside with lots of noisy children, which was a bit discombobulating after several years have passed since I was a regular there. But friend and I managed a gossip thanks to friend's son being same age as goondog, so they enjoyed playing together, though goondog should really know better being 7 times older in dog years and supposedly winding down to dotage.... here too....

Thanks for the hugs guys. I have had a nice day and successfully buried my head back in the sand like a good little ostrich. I had a very nice lunch with the dcs at pizza express (their choice) and watched a film on Netflix snuggled up with Dh. I appreciated these blessings mindfully as instructed.

I am so sorry about Amber and Hnd having poorly husbands. I hope they get the best treatment possible and are soon on the road to recovery.

Ruby, you have every right to be pissed off with the horrible thing that has happened to you. It's not fair and you didn't deserve it. The only thing to do is tackle one day at a time. Cancer sucks.

Gig, I am sorry your french trip has been postponed, but I am happy for you that they are going to fix your back. I hope the food parcels give you something to look forward to.

we had the Chinese take away we were going to order yesterday but couldn't get through on phone- it was v nice....
Still have a full bottle of regular Pimms unopened ! must buy lemonade..
Fretting a bit about drawing,always the same after even a short break.
Lots of good thoughts to Mr amber and to Mr hnd
MRI sounds uncomfortable lily and undignified.

Evening All

Hot chocolate here , hands big mugs around to aid sleep .

Amber I shall light my candle for Mr Amber tomorrow .
And you are a very wise and very valued friend to us all x

I'm watching Celebrity Master Chef , recorded from earlier .
We had left over bolognaise from earlier on in the week for dinner .
I livened it up with some finely chopped bacon , onions and herbs .
DS promptly dropped his on the floor !
Pig/dog , how ever , really loved it

Back on the no sleeping thing .
Got scan results on Monday , and I have been experiencing my usual gamut of symptoms .
From breathlessness to strange lumps along my mx scar to achey lumpy armpit .

Why do I do this to myself every time ?

Tipsy, same reason the rest of us do, I reckon. Have a hug. And free ones for everyone else too.
Guessing results tomorrow will be fairly immediate but not a clue.

Thank you all for your loveliness, especially KK for your lovely post. I read earlier through teary eyes but wasn't up to posting! :) after my huge wobble I had a fairly good day. This thread, and you amazing, funny, kind ladies, is an absolute lifeline. In the same vein as HND and her soppy post yesterday, thank you all so much for making me feel welcome and helping me through the most difficult however many months it's been! :) my family don't cope well with feelings and most of my friends have evaporated so it really helps to be able to talk here and know that you all understand where I'm coming from.

amber my thoughts are with you and Mr Amber, I hope it is good news and that you'll get the results quickly :) more and hugs for you

topsy will be thinking of you on Monday, and I hope all your symptoms stop bothering you! :)

I'm exhausted and have an awful headache from my latest cream so I will leave it there, I'm thinking of you all though. I hope everyone manages to get a peaceful night's sleep :) x

Celeb. MasterChef made me feel a bit queasy...
Bake Off is back on 20th !!!!!!!!
Will be thinking of you esp. on Monday topsy - can you get Sauron to send his doggy vibes ?

Have been awol for some time, dealing with rl and DH's recovery from a kidney tumour. He's had half his kidney removed and is now back to work following 8 weeks recovery. His consultant is happy with the op but will monitor things on a 6-monthly basis.

It's been a hard slog getting our heads around our general 'unluckiness' (is that a real word?) but we're getting there and trying our damnest to enjoy the simple things. It helped having a week away in Peguera, Majorca - an all-inclusive, adult only hotel and daily temps of 36 degrees - pure bliss.

I pop in from time to time for a quick read but just wanted to say a huge 'thank you' for being there for me during my treatment and subsequently DH's diagnosis and treatment - you're all very special ladies.

Hi figgy glad to hear of nice holiday and mrfiggy on the mend/back at work.
Cat bounced around and woke me up early so have taken oportunity to get up to date. Luffs you all. Been feeling a bit down, then a bit of an ingrate as I should have more perspective. Have a month of strong anti inflamatories for foot. No running :( and if it isn't better ring for a referral. And if anti i-s give me sickness phone for antidote. Have already put a stone back on too much emo eating and chocolate and not enough exercise.
Think I am glad to defer check up, I know it prolongs paranoia but have been invited out on afternoon of original apt and this way won't need debrief...
Will get up soon and put on. +ve vibes for mrambers scan today - hope the hospital is not too eek making.

Love to ruby hope you slept ok
Figgy best wishes to you and dh holiday sounds great ! Hope you keep checking in with us
Jchoc the foot and not running must be a real pain for you I hope it improves soon :(
Amber thinking of you today

Week till next chemo and feeling absolutely fine still struggling with going out and am making excuse to friends who want to come round for coffee etc, have realised its because I don't want their sympathy and being ill is not the person I want to be. I guess I need to accept it at some stage
Anyway enough about me hope everyone has a good day I have the sky man coming and dd has a filling that's my day