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[MaryAnnSingleton]

crikey !

gracie - I wish you hadn't mentioned ironing - now I'll have to get off my bum and do some of mine
My DH snores as well - but I've sort of got used to that - I just kick him until he turns over ask him nicely to stop

SR - my DD went to see Intouchables a few weeks ago - she loved it, said it was a wonderful film.
This w/e she went to see Looper - which has Joseph someone or other in it who she likes, but she didn't recommend that for me as it was quite violent apparently (she know I hate violent films) so I wont recommend that to people, but I would love to see Intouchables.

How are you adjusting to having an emptier house? - I found it quite odd when DD went to uni. - but it sounds as if you had a great night out with your friends.

DD is making lemon and poppy seed muffins, so will put some on the trolley later. I have cleaned the kitchen but my back is twinging again so now I'm just sitting about reading. To wet here to cut grass fortunately unfortunately

ironing? What's that?

didn't have Sunday Dinner as Dd2 was at guide camp, but when we went to collect her she said she was off out to the cinema! Guess we will just eat yesterday's leftovers... Will pop out for a bit of a run now, as I have rather overdone the fbs again :(

Ironing all finished and listed some things on Ebay so now going to pour a large tiny glass of wine as DH cooking dinner.

kurri cleaning kitchen is enough, sit and rest and don't worry about the ironing. Sadly I love ironing only domestic chore I do like I was telling DH about your DH singing and he reminded me of when we were first married and he always brings a drink to bed. I awoke feeling quite thirsty and rather than get out of bed I reached over the top of him to grab his drink and my arm slipped and I landed on his face. Nearly gave him a heart attack .

jchoc enjoy your run rather you than me

Waves to everyone, very quiet today.

Today I have -

cleaned up FABCat's wee puddle.
done the food shop.
ironed everyone's uniform and work stuff.
put on 5 wash loads and 4 drier loads.
Folded up 4 piles of clothes.
Cooked a roast dinner (lamb, roasties, dauphinoise potatoes, carrots, parsnip mash with bacon, cheesey courgettes and stuffing. Home made rice pudding).
Tided in my bedroom.
Sorted loads of paperwork.

Doesn't look much when it is written down .

I finally read the discharge sheet from the hospital and there is something I don't understand but I will hope it means nothing serious.

Half term started last Friday for 2 out of three of my kids..

I forgot the deli dinner I did for the kids too.

Flip me Justfab that is a lot. Thought you were meant to take it easy? Are you feeling better?

Still feeling tired but getting there thanks.

That's a huge lots of jobs Fab - and the dinner sounds scrumptious.

I've had a swim, done one wash, made hearty soup and crumble, cut the grass and had a walk- but I'm not on chemo!

KK- I am missing the teenagers in the house and feel slightly as though I've run out of the purpose of my life......however I've had a lovely phone call with DS this evening so am OK. Have re-arranged some money for him as he couldn't afford to do a wash.........apparantly 40% of his class have at least 4 A* A-levels - must be scary! Still, I suppose its good that he's in that 40%.

I also remind myself that at one time I thought I might not see DS get to uni (at the time of my DX) so I am very grateful to be in this position and I'm sure I'll adjust to this strange new life with just DH and me.

I do sympathise with the empty nest syndrome SR - as I say I felt at a bit of a loss too when DD left (although I had just been DX and had plenty of hospital stuff to occupy me!) but gradually DH and I got used to it and started to quite enjoy just being a couple again, we also realised how expensive teenagers are to feed - especially when they bring all their friends round

Fab - that's a very active day by my standards! - hope you are going to sit and relax this evening.

gracie - arf @your story - that would scare me too. I meant to say earlier - last night in bed a big spider ran down my face, across my pillow and down the side of the bed. Eeek. I jumped a mile and shrieked like a twit.

We are rearranging our kitchen (my sister gave me a fridge freezer she no longer needs and so we are putting that in and getting rid of our old chest freezer and fridge -it will give us more space.) But the rearranging is at the stage where it looks worse before it gets better and all the surfaces are cluttered with stuff being moved around.

Old lady dog is 'helping' by weaving in and out of our legs as we try to move heavy objects!

SR, that's all scarily bright. I'd bet he''ll be fine though. Getting a place I'd imagine is the hardest and he's clearly v.clever!

Fab, that's lots. Though v.glad to hear you're feeling a bit more with it.

What's all this ironing, running, swimming?? Surely it's the day of rest?

I'm quite exhausted reading how busy you've all been, esp Fab. I've washed up a mountain of dishes, made some lunch earlier (ds3 is making evening food (?tea/supper/dinner - depends where you come from, i suppose!) for him and other menfolk, did some laundry - more to do. AND I got out for a brisk walk (my first for 2 weeks as I've been feeling quite unwell) - it was a lovely afternoon, one of those dry, crisp autumnal days.

BIG crisis here is that ds3 has lost/mislaid his maths book (IMO good that this is our most major crise at mo, but a frustration) so I've helped him tidy his midden of a bedroom, and now must tidy the sittingroom which has lots of clutter. There is a chance he's left it in the library/on the bus as we've very few places left to look at home. He is such a lovely but very dreamy boy (who got 99% for his last maths unit, but can't do the next one with no textbook, grr!).

So, once I've tidied up, hopefully found the dratted book, I plan to catch up on some knitting - my hands are only now painfree enough for this.

Nice to read about the NedMas meet up, and everything else you've all been doing. The empty nest thing is odd - we're only one fledgling down here - ds1 had midterm hol this week and was 'too busy' to come and see us . I felt a bit funny about that, as I think i miss him more than he misses me! Last night dh and I were going to go out, but ended up ds3 went to see his gf who has been away with her family this last week, so we changed our plans and stayed in. (unwritten rule of parenting disabled children is that you don't land your other children with 'brother care' more than necessary). We can't leave ds2 or ds4 alone, and though I hope ds4 (who has AS) will be independent in future, ds2 won't be. And it's funny when a lot of my friends are waving their offspring away, knowing that this is not the situation for us, but that as the boys do get more independent, dh and I will have less to talk to each other about - as for years we seem to ahve talked about nothing except our children . Oh well, moan, moan. Onward and upward.

Love and best wishes to all of you. xxx

Goodness - you've all been so busy I seem to have done very little : a former neighbour called round briefly which was nice - she moved to Birmingham a couple of years ago but often comes back to see friends. Then walked to town with dh to Specsavers where we spent ages choosing him new glasses. Did the laundry nd a bit of work and some ironing and then sat under my blanket in front of telly. Felt bit sick today and also have period which I thought might stop with chemo. Couldn't face wine so had squash
Not quite the same as children leaving for university, but will miss ds over half term as he'll be on his Italy trip- prob.feeling a bit emotional because of stuff going on

MAS, you will need Italian treats to be with him in spirit. I prescribe gelato. Bugger that period's still going. That's probably laid you low a bit too.

Baskets, hope you found the elusive maths book. Your son sounds sweet. I'd bet infuriating too, but still lovely.

Morning all! All this ironing makes me feel :( I quite like ironing, but don't do much of it.

mas I second Italian treats :) Bugger about period :( Hope you feel less sick this morning.
I'm waiting for mine which is very late atm. Think it is the tamoxifen disrupting them. They are really heavy but have some stuff from the gp which reduces the bloodbath.

Working from home in 10 minutes :( time!

waves to baskets - pray to St Anthony for the lost maths book - always works !
Gelato sounds good to me smee !
love to everyone - am off to post office today, then have my girl to collect and walk hiome- bit of work to squeeze in too.

good morning jane ! yes, tamoxifen does send them a bit loopy - mine stopped for months then came back at odd times until recently when they returned to normal- curious and confusing.

Morning everyone

Definite yes to enjoying Italian treats!

So far I have had rudeness from the 9 year old and 2 major strops from the seven year old. Also bleeding again and got stomach pain so the op hasn't solved it. The doc said I could bleed for up to a week but I only did on the day then had a few days with nothing and then 2 light losses for the last 2 days.

Need to go out but it is thick with fog outside. DS1 texted and told me not to drive as the "fog is tremendous."

MAS, are you still feeling low though?? Try not to over do it, though I do agree it's good to keep busy if you can. xx

Jane, heavy periods sound tiresome. Mine stopped completely on first chemo and have never come back. Don't miss them at all.

Fab, I think kids are always grumpy on Monday mornings. That bleeding's annoying. I'd guess still might be operation related though. Fingers crossed it is. I like 'tremendous fog'.

Nothing to say. Just working. on the go for anyone who wants one.

also like 'tremendous fog" Am thinking the bleeding is likely to be post-op rather than continuing problems- fingers crossed.
smee feeling ok really- as long as i have stuff to do...am trying to do resting thing, but it's not too easy

I'll be over in a bit with the duct tape, MAS.

Amber if you're about, I spotted on fb that you've been having a tricky time. Hope you're okay. Come back here for restorative fbs.

- will be sitting with Sophie later to watch whatever's on the Disney channel or X factor - nice and relaxing !
Yes, have noticed that amber is going through a tough time - do come by for some soothing fbs and cheeselets,which I'm hoping to find on my travels.

Waves to all - mas take it easy and you too amber as also seen on fb you aren't Having an easy time. Aren't you off on holiday soon?

Yuck re bleeding fab but it can be a bit random when they have fiddled about with you.

sr your ds sounds super bright but it must be a period of adjustment .

baskets sorry you have been under the weather and night out didn't materialise. But lovely to hear from you.

Hugs for otm- just keep doing one day at a time.

gracietake it easy- how many more rads left?

I am quite done in and apprehensive about onc visit tomorrow afternoon. It's less about scan result (although still nervous) - more about my stiff leg. It is I think a side effect of op/radio that stiffens when over do it (and that is consistent as suddenly went). Of course though its in original tumour site (although cant feel lump but is stiff /scarred) but it makes me have horrid flashbacks (ESP when can't move or sit easily to last year). Logically I doubt it's that given odds of return are about 5% and doesn't feel like that but can someone sit on paranoia box with me?

Got 3 mad 4 year olds round for play date shortly then the old nanny (the emotional one if you remember- dd excited , me less so) visiting later). So may need

Rational thoughts don't come into it when Miss P rears her decidedly ugly head. I recently convinced myself I have cancer in the un-cancerous breast. Seeing as I had a preventative mastectomy, that's clearly daft, but it still doesn't stop me anxting. What time's your appt tomorrow? Is DH going too? sounds essential.

MAS, hope you find the cheeselets.

joins smee on the box for gig

I shall heft my rather substantial posterior onto the paranoia box for you gigs. Will be thinking of you tomorrow. Good luck with the play date and mad nanny.

mas sorry you aren't feeling the best. I had 2 periods on chemo and haven't had one since May. Keeping everything crossed I won't see another one.

fab I agree with the others bleeding is probably a post-op thing but hopefully you will feel better soon.

Waves to baskets hope the maths book shows up soon.

I am now 16 rads down so on the homeward slope. Have been sent to radiotherapy nurses as my skin is starting to break. She has given me various creams, ointments and dressings and I have to go back to her on Wednesday. Not really painful just very itchy.

I have a very painful shoulder which I am hoping assuming is down to positioning with rads. Did anyone else have this?

Hugs to amber and anyone else who needs it.