Now I've reported on CustardCreamGate, a serious response to others on here.
Fab, I hope you are okay after your clinic appt. If/when you feel up to it we are all here to 'listen' to how you got on.
MAS, I've been thinking about your situation a lot, and agree with others that your response is quite 'normal' in the circs. TBH anything is 'normal' in the circs! I hope you will feel able to tell the onc about your doubts tomorrow, and he/she will talk you through the thinking on your dx. Part of your care is to be able to air your thoughts on what is happening to you, so you shouldn't feel you can't, iyswim.
OTC, not sure exactly which job you are thinking of retiring from, I think frm what you say it's the corporate one but not both?? Anyway, I'll share my thoughts and you are welcome to ignore me if it suits more! In no particular order, you are responding well from chemo so far, but it's early days. However, the disease you've got is very treatable, and 6 months to a year isn't a huge recovery time really when all the active treatment is behind you. You shouldn't feel guilty if you need to take several months more off teaching once your active treatment is completed and I'm sure your GP will support you in this. And the dr would probably recommend a phased return, though I know that's not always possible. Like Kurri says, it's the fatigue thing often that's most marked, but also a run in with life threatening illness does something with your head too, in terms of needing time to sort out how you feel about what has happened, and you may well want some time with the family when you are starting to feel better but when you aren't yet working FT and at risk of feeling utterly frazzled with the day job. Obviously you know your money situation best and whether you can afford it, and possibly you are looking to get a lump sum to use for the 'carpe diem' stuff, a natural desire we all get with serious illness, I think. I haven't really explained myself very clearly, i know. My brain is minced and I am very tired, so I'll drop by later/tomorrow after a break.
I'll stop now. Sorry for another megapost. My steam is running out again and I'm feeling sick - not sure if it's the lovely carrot cake and coffee I had when out this afternoon, or if I just need to rest more. Oh well. (I had a bout of 'common cold' last week, i think, but it has absolutely floored me. 2 youngest boys had it too and are fine. I just don't bounce back like others these days. At least my joints are better today, thumb aches but is not agony. I have a ghastly wart on other hand, which I've been treating with salactol and it's throbbing like mad, and bleeding - I suspect I've overdone the salactol. I need to post separately as need some guidance on what to do next). All in all, a bit decrepit.
Hope you all have good evenings.