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Jane, I was awake with a cat on the bed too! Didn't log on though, just lay their grouchy. Hope you're okay today. Why are you weepy? Is it DD leaving, or that pesky paranoia? xx

So very tired atm. Not at all sure why, but then I guess being awake at 3am might not help...

hello all! I am back from chemo. Took from 7 am to 7.30 pm all in (such a long journey!) and on the whole it was tolerable. Pain free canula (relatively), huge long wait and two baby doctors looking after me. Bit fed up that I haven't seen my macmillan nurse now for a month - shouldn't she be finding me and saying hello?

pet scan on 28th and that will tell me if i am now negative for active cancer and go down one treatment route or still positive and another, harsher treatment path. this is cos i'm in a clinical trial. i have to have 4 more cycles definitely either way.

gracie so sorry, good luck

gig which birthday?? and date so we can celebrate properly???

didn't recognise the heartthrobs except jason, was a bit too snobby in 80s for TV!!

Ooh well done OTM, though what a v.long day. Did your friend stay with you the whole time?? Pet scan will be a bit daunting, but sounds like a good plan. How are you feeling now? xx

tes,well done otm

Well done OTM!

Was looking for news of gracie - hope you are OK, lovely. x

Have just been to my new business meeting and it turns out to be an ongoing project related to breast cancer. Isn't life odd? I have seen more photos of boobs today than probably ever in my life before...

Do they know you've been through it, Sometimes? Must be both interesting and a bit of an odd one for you.

Yes, I told them - thought it was best. It is fascinating but I wish they'd stop telling me about recurrence rates Thought it would be a bit unprofessional to sit there with my fingers in my ears singing loudly (which is my preferred way of dealing with difficult information) so I had to sit and nod sagely instead

Er yes, a whole meeting on recurrence rates...nice!

Speaking of which, and all round, I think.

Scoff, slurp

still here and still none the wiser. Angio clear which was good echo yesterday showed fluid around heart and a part of muscle not working as it should. Had another echo this morning and yet another xray. They are now talking about ct and mri of heart . I really want to go home. Dd is not coping well and the thought of a third night here isnt appealing. I keep asking are they looking for spread but they wont tell me.

Try not to worry, gracie. They're always super careful with heart things and with people on chemo, so the two together has got you gold plated and wrapped in cotton wool. They're going to run every test known to man, some twice. Try not to stress out x

am sure they are just being ultra thorough and careful with you gracie - hope you get out asap though.
sometimes that must be strange for you- hope not upsetting xx

Not upsetting for me really, MAS, no. But thanks It's more that I feel a bit odd about charging to do something that will help other people. Got to though, of course. I'll deal with my guilt by trying to do a super good job

am sure you will do a great job !

Flinging Thorntons chocolate biscuits on the FBS trolley for all in need....

Sniffs out biscuits as I surface from my nap.

sometimes that must be a surreal project.

gracie poor you - I feel your pain as they keep you in looking for things but echo the idea that not only do they wrap you up in cotton Wool but a fair amount of arse covering goes on so "if in doubt you stay in", even If you and family upset. I do hope
You get out soon.

otm glad yesterday done but eek at how long it is- I will be 40 on October 5 which is also day after I finish chemo so double celebration all round.

Ah, Gig - you're a mere baby

[ puts make up on and short skirt and wonders if she can get served in local pub]

Gigs !
I knew there was a connection between us , it's my birthday on the 5th !
although am not going to be 40 , that ship has sailed

Long day today, but at least I wrote 2 reports and feel a bit better about tackling the email mountain tomorrow!

gracie you found out when you can go home yet?

mas how is the cold turkey going on the yoghurt?

gig 40!!! party time!

Running in to say a quick love to all.
especially OTM after her long day at the hospital,
gracie - it's horrid being in hospital, but as everyone says they do err on the side of caution when you have been having chemo, hope they let you home soon.
jane hope you are OK after your bad night, ,
Sometimes - meeting sounds a bit of a strain, I think putting fingers in ears and shouting 'la la la' is perfectly acceptable in a professional situation personally

Hope everyone else is Ok today. I went to my book club in the morning - but only two of us turned up (well 3 if you count the other lady's guide dog, and he would want to be counted) so we chatted about the book and had coffee and decided what we wanted to read next. Guide Dog lay on his back with his legs in the air grinning, apparently he 'thinks he's being very funny, you have to laugh at him'

then I went to art club in the afternoon and did 3 pictures - a harvest mouse, a snowy moonlight landscape and some funky toadstools. (Quantity not quality is my motto )

I see the lovely Gareth Malone is back tonight with The Choir, so I can curl up with a hot chocolate and ogle him

Your art club sounds like fun kk dh is making me a hot chocolate while I watch The Choir and mn. went for a swim to gain some calories, but spoilt it somewhat by eating chocolate mascots when I got back... It's dark so early :(

Ladies, a dear friend starts her first chemo in a week which will be 4 weeks after lumpectomy. We are going wig shopping tomorrow in preparation! Tell me what should I be doing to be a good friend?

welcome curly - am sure wig experts will have ideas for you - haven't had chemo (yet) so can't advise.
40 is very young gig - a mere child Shall we have a thread party on 5th ?
Spoke to my brother today and he wisely suggested we tell my mum as things might well fall apart if we keep things from her when others know- he also felt that it would take some pressure off dad and we both felt that mum might well snap into old mum mode where she is not so wound up in her own gloom (if that makes sense- ie. gives her a chance to be my mum and look after me,not necessarily physically)
Loved the choir thing- Gareth is wonderful - really liked the A&E consultant- the vascular surgeon was a bit of a knob
Glad you had fun at book group (love the dog !) and art group kk

jane I have a whole big pot of Yeo Valley to scoff before chemo starts - but will check with onc and bcn whether I can or can't have it with my tablets- I do hope it's ok as I really love it.