ginger enjoy your feet and nail treatment. I really could do with some of that. You need to spoil yourself once in a while, especially when things have been ultra tough. Good luck tomorrow.
I feel much better. Have slept most of the afternoon and feel quite groggy. Slept for some of yesterday but tried to stay awake for DH, got up in the evening and had a naughty glass of wine with him to celebrate his birthday, he was waiting for me to fall asleep! The drugs are helping but wiping me out.
I can walk 'ok', there is some pain in my very lower back, and sciatic pain in my right leg, but not crying out pain, and I can walking almost straight, for much longer than I could yesterday, but I am careful, and I have this vague fraudulent feeling now, like its not that bad after all. Then I remember that I am tanked up on drugs and that should I not be taking them, I may be feeling very different. I have moved around the house and not done much, other than make a drink, and just stand and chat do DH while he sorted the kitchen out. I am so worried about it going backwards again.
However DH now thinks that because I am now mobile, I can go wondering around a reclamation yard, after sitting in the car for 30 mins, so we can look for some things for the house [shock[ i put him straight on that one. But, I do have to drive DH to work then take the children to school and nursery tomorrow, as he starts at 9am (does not normally do so, he usually does the school run outward bound), and then I have to pick them up and collect him from work again, so, I might walk to the shops (5 min walk, prob take me longer) and see how that goes, as if I can manage that I will be ok, but if not, he will have to call his work and arrange to go in later and do the school run and I will have to sort out someone to collect them. I think, if I am drugged to the eyeballs I will manage it though, come home and straight to bed.
Life goes on though doesn't it, and we cannot just stop the things we have to do, but find ways to manage them. I think this is what I am finding the hardest, I just want to go to bed, and wake up when it is all better, and that cannot happen.
I know in a couple more days I will mostly mobile again and can reduce my drug levels significantly, but the fact that it can, and will happen again for absolutely no reason makes me so scared.
The kids re really affected by it, they are playing up for daddy, scared to know whether to hug me, DD is older ad is looking after me a bit and I don't want her to, I want to be there for her. And DS is afraid if hurting me now
. he is only 2.5. But this afternoon they will come hom from nursery and as I am feeling much better they are going to get HUGE hugs even if it hurts a bit.