Hi LGR, lovely to hear from you again. I hope that you are well. Last I remember was that you were in hospital for the second time in the space of a month with one of your dt's. I hope he has made a good recovery, and that you didn't catch the same bug again.
OYBBK, I'm so sorry that you are fragile at the moment. It is so hard when you first discover that there is something new wrong, and when it's your heart then even more so. As Ginger said up thread, our hearts are always on the go, we really do need them, and with that and all the other things that life in general throws at us, it's tough. When I found that I needed surgery I cried a lot, and tried to keep it from the children, but didn't always succeed. I had dd1 with me at the doctor's check up when I was told. She was sent out of the room so that must have made her suspicious. As we knew that we would have months to wait, we didn't tell her, so she kept asking dh why I was so sad on the way home.
I suppose, what I'm trying to say is that at the beginning of this enormous thread, you said to me that my problems were a massive thing to come to terms with, and that I would need time. It is exactly the same for you now, so feeling tearful is completely normal. Then, when you couple that with the fact that RL is throwing up difficulties, I'm in awe of your coping skills.
For me, today's a good day. I'm much less tired than yesterday. The fact that it's cooled down and is fresher is a great help.