Thank you all. I am at sixes and sevens today, trying to get my head round it all. I have cancelled my treatment, and they will send me a new date. I'm getting the train down to mum's tomorrow, - she wanted a day by herself to gather her thoughts, but she is being very brave.
He became very ill with pneumonia over the last two days, Mum was asked if he took a turn for the worst whether she wanted him rushed by ambulance to the bigger hospital. She knew he'd hate that and be distressed by it, so she turned it down, and he was able to die peacefully, rather than in the back of an ambulance.
I've been talking to my sister this morning, and she said everything I'm feeling - what do we do now Daddy is gone, because he was the one we'd turn to when something terrible happened, and he'd always be strong for us all.