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[MaryAnnSingleton]

can you believe it ??!!

14k...thats fantastic news that really brought a smile to my face.tell your hubby he needs to take you out to celebrate.

topsy...great news about your dla but will that be enough to cover your shoe bill lol.

smee..dd is not back yet but im sure shes had a great day especially as she nabbed £20 off me this morning as i had no smaller notes,i told her i expect change but very much doubt knowing her i will get much lol.

elbow is a bit better but still red comparing to the other side thats not looking right either im starting to have this horrible feeling im going to start peeling again my nails are growing back but keep flaking off im hoping once the bumps and ridges grow out they will get back to normal.

ledkr...sorry i cant help you but heres hoping someone will turn up who can.

pink don't think dla WILL cover my shoe bill . Thanks to the ladies on style and beauty I found a code for Kurt Geiger , so I had to buy the dolly shoes in black and red ! I am a true shoe junkie

Wah, Double Decker - why d'you have to say that Topsy?? I'm going out with an old friend tonight for a meal, and am starving, but determined not to spoil my appetite (for once ).

ledkr, really nice to see you here and mighty cheering to hear you've been clear for so long. I've been thinking about ovary removal too, but am waiting for the genetic testing results. If positive, I'll definitely go ahead. On HRT, I know my Onc said it wasn't an option for me, as my tumour was hormone positive and the HRT would restock those hormones, so could fuel any cancer. I'm on Tamoxifen, so not too worried about bone density, as Tamoxifen is a protectorate. Chemo put paid to my periods (June-Sept last year) and they've never returned, so I'm pretty sure I'm in menopause at 45. I've tried to see it as something that was going to happen anyway in a few years and if you take it like that, it's not so bad. I even got chatted up by a cute 30 something last week - probably needed his eyes tested, but it cheered me up no end.

ledkr I am newly diagnosed with bc, surgery on 7/11. My bc is estrogen receptive so I have to stop hrt and am weaning myself off, which I have been taking only a short time. I was told not to stop it suddenly. I'm told I will have Tamoxifen. I have read that hrt is considered for some after bc, talk to your gp and weigh up the pros and cons.

Pink, my nails are good now. No ridges and you'd never know. Have been like that for a good few months, so it won't be long 'til yours are back.

Drift's just reminded me that a friend who is triple negative has been given HRT.

Sorry what is triple negative??
Thanks for your help girls. I do remember that my tumour was o negative. You are all so lucky to be treated these days.Back in the olden days nobody told me anything apart from that i had ca at 27 with 3 babies at 9.30 at night They just said lumpectomy,and ovaries out.It was only that i was a nurse that i looked into it and got transfered to the Marsden. That was when he tested the tumour as o neg and i have gone on to have 2 more children since.
I had zoladex to disable my ovaries so had the menopause for a bit.
Icant be too far off it tbh,but its more of a vanity thing for me. I dont have the greatest body image as it is but cant imagine no boobs,no ovaries s well as thinning or facial hair and wrinkles-well more wrinkles then. I know it sounds silly.

Not silly at all. Or if you are, well so am I. Triple negative are cancers that don't have receptors for oestrogen, progesterone or Her2, so hormone therapy (Tamoxifen/ Herceptin, etc) won't work. I'd guess your 'O' neg is for Oestrogen, but am only guessing. You really went through it didn't you? Must have been terrifying to have it so young.

ledkr - No it does not sound silly at all. We are all individual and what is acceptable for one is not for another. As well as dx of bc, imagine how thrilled I was to be told to give up hrt, have Tamoxifen and go into the menopause. Body image meltdown. So much to take in. I've made a huge adjustment in the last week, (with help here) I have railed and stormed and now just accept it, as that is going to give me the best chance. My sister is 10 years older than me, has been through the menopause and looks amazing and sexy. I'm taking myself off tomorrow to have a botox fix because that is going to help my morale but I know it's not everyone's cup of tea and hope they would not judge me. I'm exercising and am determined to keep in reasonable shape. All your feelings are competely normal, whatever is on your mind is fine.

fine to express I mean.

Good for you, Drift. I am way too cowardly to do botox, but would never judge against anything life affirming.

Wow this thread moves!!
What news is that Drift?
My Her2 result took absolutely ages about 10 weeks to come through.I finally asked about it while I was having chemo[recommended for triple negative] and was told it was negative.Do keep chasing the result though-you need to know.

If there are any triple negatives on here I'll help if I can-there is so much gloom and doom surrounding a tn dx but the third generation chemos are really making a difference to survival stats.

I too had an email from the elves and think it must have come from here-honestly I was moved to tears-thank you whoever it was :)

I love the irony in that Smee!!

Blimey ive never heard of that. To be honest ive had my head in the sand for years now.I just hate to think about it even all this time later and still wonder if "it will get me" i just had a recall for my smear and felt sick.
I had 3 boys when i was diagnosed,i now have 2 dd's so should re think the tests i guess.
I used to do buddying for the Lavender Trust and visit young women in hospital but eventually felt it wasnt helping me to move on in my life so talking to you is the first time ive thought about it for ages.
I agree about keeping your best too,ive out on lots of weight with the baby and really need to get it off.

Thanks for the welcome.

Hi Ledkr Good to hear from you so far down the road. I'm just starting the journey.

Topsy! I NEED lessons in buying shoes. I had to wear my good trainers today as it was raining and sandals just didn't cut it. Must go shoe buying as part of my rads retail therapy.

Did 30 lengths at lunchtime but the rads people are not happy with the clorine... :( Aaaaarrrgh. I am so dischuffed at this. How am I going to get through the next 4 weeks? I need my destress. Cycling is also my thing but the weather is pretty foul. Guess I'll either have to swim in the river (lol too cold and scarey) or go to the gym...

The rads itself was really fast. and the bus from Leeds Station to the hospital is easy. Don't think will drive very often, even if the parking is free :)

topsy...your like my dd2 she also has a shoe fetish only shes in to converse and vans which are not cheap,she tried to show me some £80 white doc martin boots the other day i told her she was having a laugh.its a standard joke in my house thats shes very good at conning me in to new shoes but £80 was a push to far funny thing she lost interest when i mentioned birtdays or christmas now shes talking yellow converse again.aaahhhh

smee...same thing happened to my periods they stopped just like that on diagnosis,its horrible not knowing if they will return or not or if my hot flushes are down to chemo or menopause keep being told chemo but im not so sure.

i was told that my bc was not hormone driven so now rads have finished there are no pills for me to take,does that mean im tripple negitive?

dd had a nice time on her trip but i think the school picked a bad week because of londons half term and spent a long time in traffic and had to wait for over an hour to get in.but all in all she enjoyed it and the tour of london.

Hi Cat
I've been loitering around at home for a few weeks since my wle and snb on 1st Sept. It's been ok. On tamoxifex and started rads today. Lso looking for peace and quiet next week!

pink my dd1has lime green converse and wore them to Prom! Has new green DMs which cost me a fortune but were last years christmaa pressie, juat a bit late...

I wasnt allowed to get wet i dont think when having radio,or was it just couldnt use soap or deoderant?I cant remember.I didnt have much by way of side effects from it but when i got married during treatment i had to rush out and buy a stole cos i had a big brown patch on my back where it had gone thru. I was also told off for sun bathing.

can get a bit wet but no long hot soaks, no clorinated water no perfumed soap or deodorant on the treated side... Heyho.

Hi cat welcome to the board . Sorry you are joining us , but it's very nice to make a new friend .

< whispers , I actually bought 2 pairs of shoes from Kurt Geiger today . Well I was saving money with the discount code KGWELCOME10 if anyone is interested ... >

I have a real problem where shoes are concerned . I thought I had kicked the habit , but now I am at home without kiddies distracting me all the time I have so much more time to browse the internet drooling over show porn

Am starving , just realised I forgot to have any dinner . DS had a school mass this evening and DD had her school Halloween disco . So have been in and out all evening .
Might have cheesey beans on toast !

Giggle - that should read "shoe porn"