**t*a*m*o*x*i*f*e*n** number 14

[MaryAnnSingleton]

here we go !

< sits down beside cakes , sniffs digestives , can't grab one as the sleeves in this jacket are tied behind my back for some reason >

Hi just briefly...

home yesterday eve, no drain, didn't sleep well - rather traumatised by the wires (plural) going in - took one hour.

Op went welll, staff lovely. nice to be home.

They won't know you have had a biopsy unless you choose to tell them 14k . It leaves just a small dressing on your boob , and they say to just not do any heavy lifting for 24 hours .
Don't have any info on the other stuff , someone more knowledgable will help shortly I am sure .

dee glad to see you are home . Sorry the wire placement was traumatic for you .
Hope you are taking it easy and have plenty of cheeslets (damn you mas , I have been troughing through them all morning !)

and choc

< whispers , I have chocolate trifles ... >

I hear that chocolate is very therapeutic dh has just brought up a Yorkie bar and a banana and my Lindt selection is coming tomorrow, along with the Cheeselets which I have never tried.

hears hoping you make a speedy recovery,Dee.plenty of rest in your own chocolate covered bed sounds like just the thing!
wires sounded gruesome,
l4k

ooh,miles nicer than hula hoops
cakes- hooray for not needing mole removed -yay !
Am looking forward to my time alone with Celeste and won't be working all the time as I am organising a meeting with several friends for lunch and a nice country walk.
14k - it needn't be anything too- they do err on the side of caution which is sensible,if a little alarming. No need to tell dcs about a biopsy as it won't be obvious.
Hooray for safe return of dee - sorry that the wires weren't v nice- I wasn't keen on that bit really,or the mammo with wire stuck in (shudders)
I have had very vivid and realistic dreams recently- not a chemo thing with me- just my state of mind I think - maybe antidepressants SE ?

Righto- must work- have loads on,which is good but piles on anxiety ! Still,would rather be busy than not

Cheeselets are very morish . I am hooked .

Waves to Dee. Sorry it was traumatic, but woo hoo for you. Cancer-free. Have all the treats you like, chocolate is almost medicinal. as I believe, are cheeselets, cake and red wine.

14k, it is hard not to try to analyse the things they say during appointments, but I can't draw any conclusions from what you have told us, and it may be unwise to try, as you might just scare yourself unnecessarily. They are checking very carefully and thoroughly and - at the moment - they just don't know. If they did, they would tell you, no question. I am sorry, it is horrible to be waiting for news, probably the very worst part of the process. But remember it really could easily still be nothing, or not much, to worry about. I understand that you feel sick and scared, I wish I could take that away.

I am going to have try these cheeselets before there is a run on supplies. I wonder if we could make it onto the News if we all make a concerted dash to the shops and clear the shelves?

[unties Topsy's rather annoying jacket strings and hands plate]

Hi MAS

On the dreams front I had rather a vivid one last night involving a lot of people from my very distant past and, even more randomly, Tulisa N-Dubz. Alarmingly, it had rude bits involving people I really don't think of in that way (though mercifully not Tulisa )

Your week of work and fun sounds very nice. And long may the work glut continue!

waving back !! Most of my dreams do involve lavatories and cleaning,or finding somewhere to bathe- so I guess I'm dreaming out my ocd anxieties !!
Am still here,so must get going....

You would think by now that Cheeselets would have made it on the Mumsnet Swears By email which recommends trending products, but I guess this thread doesn't have many lurkers

I do feel genuinely traumatised. I did my howling wolf impression (briefly thankfully) in front of six HCPs after the wires, and the BCN was bleeped. They were all lovely. Thought about it all night apart from about 2 hours sleep. No doubt it will eventually fade.

Yes, am believing I am cancer-free (unless told otherwise). Clinic appt in two weeks for results of margin around cancer and sentinel node biopsy. Will research the relevant info and questions to ask soon - any input from you ladies welcome - saves me Googling .

They had 13 women in for my op yesterday and the staff nurse looking after me had had the same op in that hospital too. But as dd said with relief last night, "Oh, well, she's alright then."

I think it's always reassuring to be in contact with women who have had it , treated it , and come out the other side dee

Am away out to lunch today , can someone loosen my muzzle please . cakes forgot to do it when she freed my from my straight jacket ...

< is laughing very hard at cakes dreams of Tulisa , daren't tell you what mine have been about , I would never live it down >

SPILL!!! I have said lots on here that I'll never live down. But then I have very little shame, I suppose

Dee - I am sorry you are traumatised by the experience yesterday. I am sure you are not alone in that the wires sound nasty, I have no experience of it. Can you comfort yourself with the fact that at least it means your lump was small?

It will fade away when you get your all-clear as I truly hope you will.

at 13 women! It is getting so, so common....

Thanks ladies. For the newbies to the thread just to say that everyone reacts differently and I'm sure lots of women don't get upset. The wire insertion is not hugely painful as such.

A small injection-type pain and the discomfort of the mammo machine. I think it's just the invasion of my body and the context of having cancer that got me upset. None of it is nice. But it is doable bit by bit

And I had a few problems with them locating it because it is "tiny". Well I can hardly moan about it being tiny, can I? moans anyway

Hello all,
Dee - sorry you had a traumatic time, but at least that bit is over now - get stuck into some treats!

14k - you will definitely be able to keep the biopsy from your children if you want to, - there's just a little bit of bruising, you won't feel ill or anything like that.

Butterflies - fingers crossed they get all the tests done on Friday so you don't have to wait around, hope you are feeling a little less stressed today.

topsy - I must have missed something, why is your jacket tied up with string

definitely yes to weird dreams on chemo, and in my case a lot of sleep talking - which I haven't done before or since. (according to DH I once said 'I'm hiding in a cupboard so they can't find me and stick needles in me' - I wonder what was on my mind

And once in hospital I was woken in the night by a woman making loads of phone call 'I'm just ringing to say I'm OK etc. etc.' - I thought why earth is she phoning people at 2 in the morning, then I realised she was doing it all in her sleep, with an imaginary phone

Cakes - annoying about the head not passing on the info., but at least the teacher knows now. And great news about the mole - bet that's a relief.

MAS - have a lovely week on your own with Celeste, -hope you get a bit of time to relax and enjoy yourself, even if you are working.

Saw the endo. this morning, - thyroid is back to normal (hooray ) and I'm booked in to have the radioactive iodine treatment in a few weeks (apparently I have to keep away from people for 10 days - so a bit of a faff, but consultant said he'd choose that treatment too if he was in my situation)

waving cheerily at everyone, hope everyone is having a good day

I like a moan myself! Oddly enough the bit I made most fuss over found tricky was the rads, which most people says is no problem

It is behind you now, Dee, life is on the up!

Hi KK WAHEYYYYY for a normal thyroid. FWIW the person I know who had radioactive iodine said the worst part was a scratchy sore throat. I think she had quite a nice time keeping away from everyone, it was a bit of a rest

Topsy's straitjacket was to do with the odd dreams......

What was the problem with the rads if you don't mind me asking Cakes?

Back from lunch .
Had chicken curry followed by a cherry scone .
Will be picking DD up from school in an hour , then it's home , light the fire , take root on the sofa for the rest of the day .

Great news re the thyroid kk .

mas has your week of peace on your own started yet ? Or is it next week ?

Ah I see - sorry topsy, that's what happens when an old gimmer tries to read too many posts in too short a space of time

I've put on 2 kilos though - I moaned tot he consultant about my weight, and he said ' you thyroid's been such a mess for the last year and a half, it's not surprising, it'll all settle down' - I interpreted that as 'eat a chocolate mini-roll'

Oh and the guy who will administer the radioactive iodine had an unusual name which sounded alarmingly like 'Mr Chernobyl'

hooray for KK and @ Mr Chernobyl !!
I won't be alone until next Thursday